COME GET YOUR KiICKS ON COUCH 66!

3 meals and 3 snacks .but basically it is the amount of carbs in a meal per day etc... bla bla bla... I can eat small meals during the day if I want but it seems like so much when I do this

Welcome aboard!

Granite...It's a lot to keep track of. Do you like Tuna packets? Almonds? Oatmeal? Egg whites? All those foods are high in protein that helps with hunger but the same foods will get boring.

Baby gets ten points for vomiting on a hippo? Cool!

Granite...i havent heard from MuE...I did a few shout outs but nothing...

Sitting in parking lot...waiting for session time...this abc log really shows how crazy my thinking and feeling is....ughh so hard doing this with someone you've only seen for 6 weeks....

Anyone know MUE in 'real life' and can let us know if she's okay?

Let me see about MUE..I will let you guys know.

I've contacted MUE..if I hear back I will let you guys know straight away.

thanks jerz

I should not have made a whole pan of brownies while h is out of town... I have eaten way too many brownies in the last 24hrs!

Evening couch.

What a day! Boy am I glad that it is almost over. We had a sub in the EBD class today, so the kids were in rare form. I wanted to pull my hair out from stress because they were acting so "bad". But at least he will be back tomorrow. Things go so much better when he is there.

Saw pdoc tonight. For the first time in 2 years he was running behind. Oh well...I guess that isn't too bad of a record as far as keeping appointments on time is concerned. I mentioned that I started lactating again and asked if we could try to go back down to 2mg 2x a day again. He said he was afraid that I would relapse, since that dose was uneffective in the past. So he wants to switch me to something else. I agreed to try something else, so we'll see how I do.

He said he didn't want to stop the risperidone cold turkey, so he has me taking a low dose of it for 2 more weeks as I start the new med. He gave me samples of the new med to get me started. I am just going to be paying an arm and a leg for it as there is no gerneric for it. Everything he suggested that we switch to had no generic...don't know why he couldn't suggest something that did. He said that most of them are not as effective as the ones he was suggesting. So, tonight I begin to take Latuda. Took my first pill with supper.

See T tomorrow...have to see what she thinks about switching meds.

So if I act like a giant whiny baby in tomorrow's session, do I get my own MKAC baby blanket?

Yep. What colors do you want? I am almost done with one for my baby boy in ocean colors (variegated white, green and blue, with solid blue and green stripes). I made it big enough to fit on a queen size bed. I can start my next project in about a week probably.

Evening Couch! Had a rough session with my personal t late this afternoon. I was going to ask for pocket riders before I went, but decided not to as I didn't want to be too needy. I should have though, might have gone better. I did tell him that just as I was starting to think that my depression was starting to lift, it now feels as if it's starting to sink once again. Last night I was ready to give up on everything once again. A big part of feeling this way is knowing I'm going to be put on the spot tomorrow night at the CC banquet for taking the photos for the team. The coach did it last year too and while it's nice to be acknowledged, I'd rather stay hidden. Way too many body issues right now. Sounds really silly now that I type it out. Between my depression and body issues, it was not a great session.

Hugs and/or smiles for everyone that will take them.

So frustrated with myself and my H. I am frustrated with myself because my body will not cooperate right now and I am sore. Frustrated with H because he has been doing jack **** around the house. He put his stuff in the dishwasher before I got home, but didn't actually run it. As soon as he ate (the dinner I cooked by myself), he went to bed and is reading and watching TV.

I'm sorry MKAC. I've had nights just like yours. It'd be so easy to say something to the H, yet it's so hard too. I hope you feel better soon.

Hello everyone-thank you for the warm welcomes-things like that mean so much to me. The self-hate is overwhelming right now so I'm afraid that I don't have something worthwhile to contribute at the moment but I wanted to thank you for responding to me. I feel invisible much of the time and when people respond to me it helps me to know that I can be seen. Thank you so much.

Hi Lola...hope the first day in Houston wasn't too bad. Thinking of you.

Just been to see a financial counsellor. I feel better now knowing what my rights are and she is dealing with the debts. Hopefully all resolve itself and I can sleep restfully again. I'm just a bit worried as she was talking about property settlement and I got all flustered as I still feel guilty as it was my manic spending that started this whole thing in the first place and I feel like I owe my ex something.

I hate waiting for things to load on youtube.

ETA Just worked out its a problem with Youtbe not just the channel I was watching.

Meeting with boss and W next Thursday to discuss my burnout. Things have come to a head because a customer wants to start parallel running in February and we are already two months behind with the current project. He doesn' t seem to understand about finite resources.

Sorry CE I don't your position in the company but doesn't your boss back you up with respect to customers? Or is customer particularly pushy/demanding?

He wants to press ahead. We're not allowed to tell the customers we are too busy.

He likes to play "chicken" with the customers. This is a game where neither side is ready but both pretend they are. Eventually one side is forced to ask for a delay and the other side scores points.

Hey everyone...
Welcome Crimson!

Good luck with that meeting CE...sometimes bosses just don't get how much stress they put on us. Did they replace that co-worker that was fired a while back? Just wondering if they've got you doing the work of two.

Back to the chiro today...this guy uses a little "gun" thing to move the discs. I like the old fashioned back cracking better. We'll see.

morning .not much sleep at all last night but omg the sky is so red this morning it is beautiful but scary. I am tired and obsessing about my cats .my husband said I am acting strange.im just tired and want my cats to eat