COME GET YOUR KiICKS ON COUCH 66!

Shrink Patient

The challenging situation is going to be challenging in that it involves my family.
The woman is a disaster at stuff going on for real. The other one is not, but she is away.

Ah, the perfect Xmas. I was 18 or 19, got my first baitcasting reel, practicing outside in the 7 degree weather. Alone, it didn't get any better.

Catch 22, The Moviegoer, and Revolutionary Road all came out the same year. I really like them all, but for Percy's book to win the National Book Award, it seems to me, the fix was in.

My mother's quest for the perfect christmas along with my brother's, was so wearying that I opted out of almost all christmas stuff once I left home.

Granite - I would be quite pissed that the office did not call me if the therapist was not going to be there. Sorry it happened to you.

Well I'm off to bed... played as many rounds of spider solitaire as I can stand and I'm tired of the polite distance thing my h is doing so since he's got his laptop with one game on it and sitting in front of another game on the TV and his phone with stats up the last time I walked by I think he is settled in for a while.

Night Ready. Lately, I've become engrossed in the novels of James Sallis. He touches something deep in my psyche.

That is so awesome. Dizzying, but awesome. Thank you!

Healed, I'm so glad you saw your T today and that you agreed to call him.

I've never been able to tell my T that I have a sort of plan and the means to follow through on it. He's never actually asked, come to think of it. I really wanted to get rid of things, but it can't seem to bring myself to. I tried, but I just couldn't. I should probably talk to T about that. And I see my pdoc tomorrow. I'm not excited about that.

After the Gold Rush. Neil.

I'll look forward to Couch 67 when I wake up.. .67 a good year

((( RTS )))

Thanks for checking in on me. I'm hanging in there. Just trying to ride the wave of life....I just made the connection of how my involvement on PC mirrors what's going on for me IRL and in group T. I feel like an observer at the moment, not able to really engage. This down swing will pass.

I was going to post to you about jury duty but then realized that my post would've been far from helpful - so I opted against it. I could definitely understand your feelings, though.

Just got tickets for Arcade Fire when they come to where I live in March (actually part of a Christmas Gift), can't wait for the show

I don't know why I feel so frightened. I have this vague feeling of doom.

Good morning.. Everything within me yells stay in bed! I am not though, I am being proactive and getting out of bed, going to work, bringing my girl to dance, then going back to bed. Why is this so hard?

mu_e, thanks for checking in. I'm sorry things are so hard.

bpa, you're going through a really difficult time...fear sounds like a reasonable reaction (though I always react with fear, so may not be the best judge)

Healed, some days are like that. Give yourself credit for getting up and getting things done.

Granite, I hope you're ok.

wikid, rts, murray, Ike, critter, squirrel, stopdog, pbutton, Sally B, neutrino, mkac, CC, CE, jersey, rterroni... hi to all. I loved the novel facts, wikid!

I've written a letter to T, to give him tomorrow. I hope I'll find the courage to actually do it.

Mast/Apt....only takes 20 seconds of courage..you can do it!

MUE... Sorry things are so rough...maybe we could support you? If you wanted to share

I haven't slept well in days...so so many dreams that feel so intense and the moment i wake up and roll over the dream is gone...ughh

Hey aloneandafraid - how are you doing?

RTS, sleeping badly sucks. It really saps the energy out of you.

hey Apt/Mast its getting close to needing a new couch...why dont you start it?

Thanks, Mast & RTS....

((( Mast ))) - Remember, just 20 seconds of courage....You can do it!

((( RTS ))) - That sounds so frustrating. I hope you're able to get some good sleep soon.

RTS - I really appreciate you reaching out. I'm okay, just disengaged for some unknown reason. I had group T last night and didn't say a word pretty much the entire session. *sigh* I couldn't get a handle on what I was thinking or feeling, so I just shut down. That's my MO. A couple of members addressed me at the end of the session - mentioning how they were glad I showed up and that they were expecting to provide me with support because I disclosed some huge things on the blog (past CSA, etc.) and we didn't talk about it because the newer (more attractive) member was crying about some stuff going on in her home life which I just couldn't find myself feeling empathetic about.

And at the moment, I really just don't want to see T tomorrow. One of those days where I feel like I just don't belong and am not feeling up to talking. I only have 8 hours of work this week - and last week, I only had about 18 hours - and I've been spending money for Christmas - and T is out of pocket - so it just seems like I shouldn't even be going. I hate when I feel this way.

Thanks, RTS - I did! Come on over and help decorate the place.

Thanks for filling me in. I never heard that phrase.

You've been stressed for so long it has become your natural state.

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