Squiggle's thread 'what would you like to tell T?' made me think of a longstanding thread on another forum I go on, called Dear *. It made me think it would be fun to have a 'Dear T' thread where we write what we'd like to tell T (my things don't exactly fit into Squiggle's thread because they're not deep secrets, just random comments and drivel!)...

Oops, I'll start!

Dear T

I am acing this 8 day therapy break! I don't even miss you Well ok, maybe a tiny bit. The cards you gave me for each day are probably helping too But still, I'm proud. I know you'll be proud too. I love you. But come home soon ok?

[onlymedid]

Dear T,
I miss you so much right now. I am having a hard time without you here to help me, but I am ok. I know I can do it without you, but it's nice to have your support.
I hope you have a great vacation, but make sure you miss me...just a little. teehee

[rainbow8]

Dear T,

Please don't let anything stop me from having my session tomorrow. You know I worry every week that you will have to cancel for some reason. Please help me talk about what I want to and don't make me do EMDR about it, though if you insist, I will. I want to do IFS or just have a "conversation". Please don't let me get off the subject. I need to feel the feelings and then move on. Please just be the way you always are with me so I feel safe. Please tell me again that it's not TMI.

[granite1]

dear T
i have so much i want to tell you but am so far from being able to do so.i am trying .and so hope some day i will be able to trust you enought to talk.please dont give up on me

Dear T

I know you think this book is fab, but ugh. Really? The author is irritating the heck out of me. It's too flowery. There are too many random stories which she thinks are deeply illuminating. I just want her to summarize, preferably in a page(!), what she's trying to say, as I suspect that the underlying idea may indeed be helpful. I prefer reading practitioner manuals, or- even better- the journal articles about the trials which demonstrate the treatment's effectiveness, than irritating 'self help' books. I guess I'm realising that I'm a scientist practitioner at heart, emphasis on scientist! Plus the print is so tiny I feel like I'm having to really work just to decipher the words. At least it makes me sleepy though!

[Asiablue]

Dear T,

please truly see.

[geez]

Dear T unfortunatly I miss you. I hope to someday not miss you. Please be patient with me.

Dear T, i am feeling scared and vulnerable and have no idea why???

[rainbow8]

Do you think we can keep this thread as a "sticky"? I think if I have this outlet to "write" my T whenever I want to, maybe I won't have the urge to email her so much.

Improving, thanks very much for starting it!

[dizgirl2011]

Dear T,

im struggling at the moment, want to contact you but at the same time I dont because I never know what the reaction will be - which majorly sucks. I don't even want to bring up this issue at the moment because after a few months of bad sessions we are starting to get back into the swing of therapy and I dont want to ruin that. God, T, sometimes you frustrate me lol.

[learning1]

Hi T, I did a good job keeping my mood up this weekend listening to music even though you might not approve that I didn't socialize a lot. Hope you'll understand.

[granite1]

dear T

i miss comming to your office.i am calm and holding up ok but i miss comming to your office

Dear T, sometimes i wonder if you're keeping me on my meds against my best interests. Granted as I say this my avatar is a picture of a cat dressed as a spider, but I think I'm ready to come off the pills anyway.

[wintergirl]

Dear T - I haven't seen you for two weeks, and now I have to wait another two weeks! This sucks.

I almost called you just to hear your voice on the answering machine. Part of me wishes I could email you, but I know I'd take advantage of that a little too much...

-me

(loved yours, Illegal Spider!)

[peaches100]

Dear T,

Thank you for not giving up on me. I know when you took me as a patient, you didn't know i had so many issues, and it didn't become apparent until later. Thank you for the time you've spent reading and taking training to help me. Thank you for not referring me out even though you've wondered at times if you should. I'm sorry I'm a difficult patient. I don't want to be but i know it's true.

[SpiritRunner]

I wish you would hug me again, just once......why not, when it would mean so much to me after the difficult days I have had, and when I don't have any sexual feelings for you or sexual thoughts about you at all anymore. Never mind the borderline stuff, I am just a human being who could use a hug, who needs the physical sense of support, especially because my H doesn't want to touch me anymore so much (unless he's looking for sex, which somehow he still wants even though he keeps running his mouth about separation from me.....I am so confused and sad and lonely in some odd way). So why not put aside this no touch forever thing for just one hug and I won't ask again; I think the reasons for no touch don't apply so much anymore.....oh well, I know what you would say so I won't ask; you would say it still applies and your integrity and sense of what is right, your moral/ethical character, won't allow you to bend on the issue! I'll just say it here, so it can be said some way at least!

[Out_of_denial]

Dear T.,

Please know that I really do not know what to talk about, I'm not just being difficult.

Amy

[Chronic]

Dear T, Can you please do something to stop the pain

Dear T,

I feel scared right now because I know you're supposed to be back from vacation today, but you haven't changed the message on your voice back to your regular one, and you haven't replied to my e-mail. I'm scared something is wrong. It's SUPER tempting to drive by your office to see if your car is there, but I am busy enough today that I won't be able to do that. I just want to know you're back and everything is okay.

Dear T,

Why is it that when someone goes to therapy, the therapist drives you crazy during the process?

[TayQuincy]

Dear T, thanks for being there, always. Thanks for knowing me, and for letting me know you.

[rainbow8]

Dear T,

Thank you for making today's "conversation" just like any other. Thank you for being you. (I may email her the above)

[PreacherHeckler]

Dear T,

Boxers or briefs?

I can't shake the feeling that you can see right through me and you KNOW how yucky and gross and awful I really am.