Couch 67 - Keep calm, carry on, and have a cup of tea.

velcro003 · Dec 09, 2013, 08:29 PM

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Originally Posted by granite1

I am going to go .I just don't know how it will go .I hope she just knows me well enough to know I just don't want to deal with that kind of stuff in T. I hate dealing with any kind of relationship stuff between us .like me getting frustrated that I showed up and how pathetic I must have looked to everyone . you know the client who is so needy she shows up even when T is sick etc... I try to never talk about any feelings I have towards her and what she does .it wouldn't change anything and a bug humiliating waste of time .if I am going to try and talk to her I always feel it should be something that is use full and can maybe change in my life not about weather my T loves me or cares . and that kind of attachment stuff .it don't change anything .best ignored and not talked about . to her I just want to be someone who shows up and pays and gives her no problems .invisible .not always so good at that though

oh granite. you make me so sad

this is NOT said to make you feel bad. i just wish so bad that you could feel good about yourself and not see yourself as so worthless and bothersome and see that this "attachment stuff" is so important. i heart you.

granite1 · Dec 09, 2013, 08:36 PM

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Originally Posted by velcro003

oh granite. you make me so sad

this is NOT said to make you feel bad. i just wish so bad that you could feel good about yourself and not see yourself as so worthless and bothersome and see that this "attachment stuff" is so important. i heart you.

thank you velcroo3 .i hope things are going ok for you these days. you doing well??

Dec 09, 2013, 08:38 PM

Granite, you are not at fault and I don't see anything humiliating in what you describe.

Wikid, hope you feel better soon.

Photo, I am glad you decided to be proactive and make another appointment this week.

Good luck to everyone who has T tomorrow.

granite1 · Dec 09, 2013, 08:41 PM

is your tooth fixed mkac

Dec 09, 2013, 08:43 PM

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Originally Posted by granite1

is your tooth fixed mkac

I got another root canal, but it stayed incredibly painful most of the day. There was a lot of infection, so the jawbone still hurts a lot, and the whole area feel pretty awful. On the upside, I can kind of chew on the other side and there are no jolts of pain when my teeth just touch.

CantExplain · Dec 09, 2013, 08:44 PM

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Originally Posted by granite1

I am going to go .I just don't know how it will go .I hope she just knows me well enough to know I just don't want to deal with that kind of stuff in T. I hate dealing with any kind of relationship stuff between us .like me getting frustrated that I showed up and how pathetic I must have looked to everyone . you know the client who is so needy she shows up even when T is sickk etc... I try to never talk about any feelings I have towards her and what she does .it wouldn't change anything and a bug humiliating waste of time .if I am going to try and talk to her I always feel it should be something that is use full and can maybe change in my life not about weather my T loves me or cares . and that kind of attachment stuff .it don't change anything .best ignored and not talked about . to her I just want to be someone who shows up and pays and gives her no problems .invisible .not always so good at that though

((Granite))

It is always humiliating when it looks like you've made a mistake. Appearances become overpoweringly important when your confidence is low.

Dec 09, 2013, 08:48 PM

No T for me for tomorrow. My therapy at the moment is all about the relationship/connection so it's hard for me that I can't go tomorrow. I'm really going to need to distract tomorrow between 11 and 12. Sorry in advance if I spam the couch during that 50 minutes.

granite1 · Dec 09, 2013, 08:48 PM

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Originally Posted by My kids are cool

I got another root canal, but it stayed incredibly painful most of the day. There was a lot of infection, so the jawbone still hurts a lot, and the whole area feel pretty awful. On the upside, I can kind of chew on the other side and there are no jolts of pain when my teeth just touch.

wow sounds painful i had a root canal once and the tooth cracked so it hurt every time she touched it .it ended out having to be pulled because they could not numb it so they put me out . hopefully it will stop hurting in a day or so

granite1 · Dec 09, 2013, 08:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Jersey 2.0

No T for me for tomorrow. My therapy at the moment is all about the relationship/connection so it's hard for me that I can't go tomorrow. I'm really going to need to distract tomorrow between 11 and 12. Sorry in advance if I spam the couch during that 50 minutes.

do you spend a lot of time just talking about your relationship with your T??? im sorry if i sounded judgmental with what i said about wasting time .it was not very sensitive of me at all. i think it is great if you can do that and focus on that relationship. i was just talking about me. im sorry .is your session canceled because of snow

Dec 09, 2013, 08:58 PM

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Originally Posted by granite1

do you spend a lot of time just talking about your relationship with your T??? im sorry if i sounded judgmental with what i said about wasting time .it was not very sensitive of me at all. i think it is great if you can do that and focus on that relationship. i was just talking about me. im sorry .is your session canceled because of snow

Oh...you didn't sound judgmental at all.

I don't spend lots of time talking about the relationship per se, but we both know that the connection is of greatest value right now...and we both acknowledged that. She told me she sensed it and I agreed. I canceled due to the snow we are supposed to get. My H will want my car to go to work because it's bigger than his so at least he will get home safe.

unaluna · Dec 09, 2013, 09:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Squirrel1983

But there is a sheep in your avatar. I think pool was her and sheep was you.

Finally somebody understands me! I was gonna say, i thought your last few posts were rather brilliant. Seriously. I forget now what i liked about them, but there was something about them that showed a change in your thinking, a different clarity or something. A different tone or freedom.

Dec 09, 2013, 09:18 PM

YT is moving out of th country in 2 or 3 months

Dec 09, 2013, 09:19 PM

Ah, Ready. I am so sorry.

healed84 · Dec 09, 2013, 09:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Readytostop

YT is moving out of th country in 2 or 3 months

(((Hugs)))

LolaCabanna · Dec 09, 2013, 09:21 PM

Im late on this but Granite, you have no reason to be embarrassed things like this happen. Jersey I will be thinking of you tomorrow and will try to help you spam the couch if I can.

MKAC, glad you are feeling better.
Wiki I miss you and glad you checked in.
Hello to everyone else.

granite1 · Dec 09, 2013, 09:23 PM

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Originally Posted by CC Bloom

Im late on this but Granite, you have no reason to be embarrassed things like this happen. Jersey I will be thinking of you tomorrow and will try to help you spam the couch if I can.

MKAC, glad you are feeling better.
Wiki I miss you and glad you checked in.
Hello to everyone else.

you doing ok cc

Squirrel1983 · Dec 09, 2013, 09:26 PM

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Originally Posted by hankster

Finally somebody understands me! I was gonna say, i thought your last few posts were rather brilliant. Seriously. I forget now what i liked about them, but there was something about them that showed a change in your thinking, a different clarity or something. A different tone or freedom.

Hmm...I'm not sure if a change in thinking is a good thing or a bad thing. I guess it should be a good thing, as I tend to be rather negative about most things. But, I am not sure about the freedom...nothing has really happened to give me more "freedom".

LolaCabanna · Dec 09, 2013, 09:27 PM

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Originally Posted by granite1

you doing ok cc

You know me "living the dream"...

I'm fine.. tired of hearing myself complain about things, so even the parts that aren't fine - well those thoughts are hashing things out inside my head

I've managed to survive 4 days of lock down and another mentally exhausting day of meetings and avoiding the urge to drink myself into a stupor, so that should all count for something.

granite1 · Dec 09, 2013, 09:34 PM

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Originally Posted by CC Bloom

You know me "living the dream"...

I'm fine.. tired of hearing myself complain about things, so even the parts that aren't fine - well those thoughts are hashing things out inside my head

I've managed to survive 4 days of lock down and another mentally exhausting day of meetings and avoiding the urge to drink myself into a stupor, so that should all count for something.

indeed it does

count. i don't think you are complaining at all. we be here to listen

LolaCabanna · Dec 09, 2013, 09:43 PM

I think I'm "sitting" with my feelings , like my first T said to do... haha, who knew I'd try that years after the ole bat told me too... haha

Are you finally getting the storm that hit us last Thursday?

healed84 · Dec 09, 2013, 09:44 PM

I have broken out of my room to watch The Sing-off.. I see T tomorrow, I imagine we have a very hard decision to make.

Rts- YT never bothered to mention this to you, as he JUST took you on as a client. Is this a long term move? So sorry!

LolaCabanna · Dec 09, 2013, 09:49 PM

I agree RTS.... that seems like a jerk move.

Healed which way are you leaning on the big decision? Have you discussed it with H or have a plan for work?

healed84 · Dec 09, 2013, 09:52 PM

I go back and forth.. Some ways, I feel like going to the hospital might be better. I am afraid, that I am going to wake up one day and not have the strength to battle any longer. Or- I could take meds, and keep seeing T twice daily, and texting him if I need to until meds kick in. So, no.. not leaning one way or another.

H and I haven't talked more than a couple sentences in I don't know how long.. He has no clue that the hospital is even being talked about, I suppose I should tell him.

Work, I already have lesson plans done, my aide can do my job, and they can get sub to aide. . The will be fine if I am gone for a week.

LolaCabanna · Dec 09, 2013, 09:54 PM

so if you go in it will be a week only?

healed84 · Dec 09, 2013, 09:55 PM

I don't know.. really. The website says the average stay is 5-7 days, but T and I have never talked about length of stay.. He just reminds me I go if I want to.. or he can make me, lol.

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