Couch 67 - Keep calm, carry on, and have a cup of tea.

hi all...

back from the holiday party at the wildlife clinic.
I got an award.
I am so damn proud of it. Wikid proud really. Too weird, I am 48, and I've gotten a million certificates and awards in my life. I do a ton of volunteer stuff. I was an overachiever in HS and college, and I do way more in continuing ed than required...but this....this is different. I even have a couple tears as I write this. I honestly don't know why it feels different. I have to think about what it is, and write about it or something.

Congratulations! That's awesome, Wiki! And well deserved. You do good work.

Congratulations Wiki You deserve it.

Way to go!!!! Wiki!!!

Wikid - I am glad you got an award from the wildlife place/people.

Congratulations Wikid! Well deserved- you should feel proud! Enjoy every moment of it. I've really enjoyed reading your adventures at the Wildlife Clinic.

congratulations Wiki , that is awesome! You deserve tons of awards, your such a great person.

"Best Animated Feature"?

That's very cool, wikid. Well done!!

granite, I really hope you're ok.

((( Wiki ))))

That's awesome!! Congrats!!!

mast/apt not sure of the time difference....did you have T yet? Where you able to give it to him? Been thinking about you....

hope you were able to talk more on it... Even if you chose not to give him the letter...i found sometimes just writing the letter was so helpful.

Mornin, couch peeps!

Thanks, everyone, for the support about my insurance situation. I had my mom fax over everything to the specialty pharmacy and the insurance company yesterday afternoon - so hopefully things are moving. I'm really hoping it will all be done and the meds will arrive by Tuesday morning so I don't have to change my appt. Changing an appt. with this doctor means MONTHS without treatment - and I can't stand the pain I'm in now. Can't imagine having to wait any longer.

Some good news though....Just as I was getting ready to pick my daughter up from the bus, I got an emergency call for work - so my hours just went from 8 for the week to 19. Woot woot. Not that it's enough to cover my bills - but still less stressful than only 8.

Gotta head back over with the same patient this morning for 4 hours - then straight to T's office. Gah. I wish I cancelled my session cuz I could've gotten more hours of work today.

MUE... Glad you got more hours at work...

Hey all....

More shopping with the mother...bed shopping. Ick. Oh well, it will be over soon enough.
And she is TICKLED. I mean, I don't remember ever seeing her so exited about something. This move is so good for her.

Later on I will check in and tell you all how much I hate her...lol.

((((Granite)))) missing you.

Grr, computer ate my post.

Thank you, RTS, I appreciate your asking. I had T already, this morning (it's after lunch here.) I gave him the letter, first thing. He read it and commented rather briefly. He wasn't surprised by what I'd written but he was glad I felt able to express it. What I said in the letter was mainly that I'm scared stiff of continuing, and I'm scared of how good it feels to be able to talk and not be judged, because I'm going to wake up to reality and that will be harder than before. He said that from his perspective it seems like a lot is happening for me in the therapy. (I guess that makes him feel good, which is fine by me - he's earned it. ) The session was pretty intense, he prodded me a lot and asked questions, and then he suddenly backed off a little and apologised for pushing me into a corner, and asked a much gentler question from a different angle, which helped me get through a really dificult moment just then.

Towards the end of the session, I was talking about how this notion of working things out by talking about them with somebody else is pretty new to me. It's something I've learnt to do with T. He replied that it's as if I've grown a new organ. It looks more weird written down here than it was when he said it - I like the image, especially since it's ambiguous, it could mean a church organ which I'm learning to play.

I feel ok, but I wish I could just sit down and process the session - I have too much work to do, though. Thanks for reading all this (if anybody did )

Morning couch.

I did not want to get up this morning, but I am. I went to bed at a normal time, but I did not sleep well. I kept waking up and taking a long time to get back to sleep. I am so tired right now. Hopefully it will be an easy day. I'm not counting on it, but I can dream.

Wiki, congrats on the award.

MUE, sorry you are in pain. But, I'm glad to hear that you got more hours of work this week. I always celebrate when I get more hours with my side jobs.

Mast, glad T responded positively to your letter. That was a big step giving it to him. Go you!

I think I covered everyone that posted to the couch since I last was on. If I forgot anyone, I am sorry.

To all the other couch residents, I hope the day treats you well. It's almost Friday, then the weekend.

Mast.... Thanks so much for sharing... I so get the scared stiff feeling .... I'm glad you were able to share so openly and that your T is aware when to push a little and back off when needed... I hope you are able to find some time to journal or whatever way you like to use to process sessions...

Hi Squirrel...hope you have a easy day at work

Congratulations, Wikid!

Hope everyone has a great day, especially considering how hard it seemed like yesterday was for so many people.

w00t w00t Wiki

G'morning, couchies. It's a gray day here. Matches my mood. There's just too much to get done in the next few weeks.

I LOVE that book. It was almost unsettling for me to read it, because when I was a kid, I *was* Oskar. I didn't lose a parent or anything like that, but his emotional sensitivity and vulnerability (and his child version of self harm) were something I could completely relate to.

It's also just beautiful writing.

Good afternoon Couch Just got home from work...i am so happy that tomorrow is Friday!!

Well done on your award Wiki, thats fab news!!

I am feeling the abandonment issues a bit less today, which is nice My poor T, i am not sure how she copes with me!

I love reading too, mainly thrillers. i love James Patterson and Tess Gerritsen. I would like to try some autobiographies but not sure of any good ones. Recommendations please?

All is a-twitter here because of impending ice storm. I always worry about the dogs going down the stairs when there is ice, even though I put down dog safe de-icer

StopDog, hope you stay safe during the storm

Sally and Baby Brown, Hi!!!!

CL-Hope your day brightens.

Granite-Give us a sign. I care. Really.

MUE- You've got too much to deal with! I hope it all works out.

Mast: Thank you for sharing your session. I hope you get some time later to be able to process. It is so scary. I get that.

Ready: Hi!

CC: Are you breathing today? Breathe..it will be okay

MKAC: Hope your day goes well

HT: Welcome. Enjoy. Your right-Tomorrow is Friday. Yay.

Wiki Wiki Wiki!

Hello BPA, CE, Trdle, Murray, neutrino, Photo, and everyone else. Not grouping you together on purpose just having a brain fart on trying to remember everyone off the top of my head. Hugs.