[Ambra]

Hey, so as some of you may remember I cancelled my session with T last week and I regretted it a lot. I had huge problems coping and didn't manage to reach out to T to ask for help or for my session back.. well today I finally had my session, I was so stressed out that I had fever and felt physically ill.

I wanted to update you! It turned out to be exactly as you said, she was sorry to hear that I had been in pain and feared to contact her to ask for my session back and said that I should have done it. I couldn't explain in words what else we talked about, I was really really nervous - and T noticed it - and I talked about random things and feelings because I've had so much going on since last time. We overran a little bit. And since now I might get a full time job and was worried about how to see her, T told me once again not to worry because she's not dumping me and is going to see me after work. I finally felt relieved after two tough weeks.

By the way: last Friday I was sitting on a bench during "my" missing hour and spent a lot of time wondering who could have taken it.
Here's what T said today: "Ambra, your hour is just yours and nobody else's. I actually kept it for you last week, just in case. I didn't see anyone else in this space/time and I don't plan to as long as it's yours. If you want it back last minute, it's there for you as well as I am".
This is no big deal, I know - but since I constantly think I'm not worth it... it made my day.

[anilam]

It really is a nice gesture- illogical and impractical but nice. Gee my T gives my slot away the minute I cancel .

Glad your session went well

[Leah123]

Originally Posted by Ambra

Here's what T said today: "Ambra, your hour is just yours and nobody else's. I actually kept it for you last week, just in case. I didn't see anyone else in this space/time and I don't plan to as long as it's yours. If you want it back last minute, it's there for you as well as I am".
This is no big deal, I know - but since I constantly think I'm not worth it... it made my day.

This is a big deal to me, my therapist has done the same thing and I feel it is so kind and reassuring, I know what you mean. I am SO glad you went to therapy and had a good experience.

[Freewilled]

Originally Posted by Ambra

This is no big deal, I know - but since I constantly think I'm not worth it... it made my day.

I think it is a really big deal! That's so sweet of your T

[Ambra]

Thank you for reading

It really is a nice gesture- illogical and impractical but nice. Gee my T gives my slot away the minute I cancel

Yeah, it was the last thing I expected to hear - I think it is because I go there on regular basis, once a week, same day and time and I had never skipped a session before, so this was very unusual of me given how much I love/need that slot (it's the only safe place I have right now).

I learned from this that maybe sometimes I have the right to ask for something instead of just depriving myself of it, and it won't be the end of the world.

[wotchermuggle]

I think I would seriously break down in tears if anyone said something so nice to me!

I think its a big deal
That was an awesome thing for her to say.

[stopdog]

The one I see keeps the slot for me. I have had schedules change around and the usual time is still there.