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I see my T on Monday's, I find myself feeling pretty neutral on the days I see T. But the prior days are all filled with "thoughts" and "feelings". I try to recall the moments but usually I end up sitting there feeling like I cant talk or if I do recall a moment it still wont make sense to me and a bunch of crap comes out of my mouth and I end up feeling like I didn't explain things very well or accurately. T ends up engaging the conversation most of the time. Blah

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I hate when my T leads the conversation because it makes me feel like we didn't get alot done, and my problem is almost like yours, so much has happened but once i'm with her I don't remember. She tells me to make a list and sometimes that helps

Also what tends to help me is writing, if you journal your feelings etc, or even write a letter to your T in the moment and read it to her, that can help

That's one of the reason I stopped seeing my T, I felt guilty. My suggestion would be to write everything down and bring it to your session.

I think you should also make a list of topics as the come up during the week and bring them to session. You can always say that a lot has gone on but you can never remember. Maybe also express that you find it hard to articulate what you're feeling when it's time for your session, and maybe T can help you with that.

When I want to talks about something but feel that my T will take the control or that at the end I will be a coward and change the topic, I say at the begining of thes session e.g. today I would like to discuss two small issues about... And then one important problem about...

Then T knows that he should not change the topic till he hears three different stories... Sometimes I say also that I feel like an idiot to talk about it right now because I do not feel like last week anymore or something similar...

Maybe it would work also for you (?)

I take time out before my session to make sure I have in mind what I want to get to. I'll either journal or review it in my head. I do this because I don't want to waste the session. It is so valuable to me to have that time to work on stuff that I just kinda prepare. Sometimes I don't if there's nothing in particular that I want to touch on and know that I can trust the process to bring something up. But most of the time I do go in with a sense of what I want to bring up.

I was going to suggest writing as well ... but I keep meaning to write myself and not doing it; sometimes that seems just as hard somehow

have you talked about what happens with your T?