[sweepy62]

So today in session , since we are working on being more open and vulnerable , and being that I keep telling her that I am strong and can handle everything , I got tired of pretending , because its exhausting.

So today I went in there took a deep breath and told my t that I needed her, that I needed her help, and that I was pretending all along to be strong. She told me she was proud of me and that she knew this already.

As far as the rest of the session we talked some CSa , I dissociated she calls it detachment , everything went fuzzy its such a strange feeling.

I'm feeling trapped and triggered at the moment isolated in a shell overwhelmed angry and confused.

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[LolaCabanna]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

So today I went in there took a deep breath and told my t that I needed her, that I needed her help, and that I was pretending all along to be strong.
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Actually by admitting this to her it took courage and I'd say that was strong.

[sweepy62]

Thank you so much for your reply and yes it took alot to say those words.

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Well done on telling your T Sweepy, Now you and T will be able to work on this, Csa is never easy to talk about in therapy, I am starting Trauma work after new year and I know this will be hard work.

[Hope-Full]

The first part is done - you're no longer the sole bearer of the secret. It may feel worse for a while, but it will definitely get loads better in the long run!

[tametc]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

I dissociated she calls it detachment , everything went fuzzy its such a strange feeling.

I'm feeling trapped and triggered at the moment isolated in a shell overwhelmed angry and confused.

I am "catching up" a bit on PC and just came across your post. I understand the "fuzzy"--it's a good way to describe it. I dissociate also, sometimes to the point of not remembering, but sometimes the way you describe. Even my eyesight seems distorted or "fuzzy" sometimes when I do that. The feeling triggered, trapped, etc., can be the aftermath of discussing things with your T while dissociated; I hope you feel less overwhelmed and confused soon. I care.

[archipelago]

It's great that you let your cover down and accepted her in. And she was gentle and understanding about it. She already "knew" but was waiting for you to give her the signal. Being dissociated is a safety mechanism. It allows you to check out so that you aren't completely overwhelmed. Take it slowly and let us know how you are doing.

You are so brave!!! Now is a good time to try extra hard to take good care of yourself.

[brillskep]

Sounds like the two of you are doing a great job with your therapy - keep it up!

Originally Posted by sweepy62

So today in session , since we are working on being more open and vulnerable , and being that I keep telling her that I am strong and can handle everything , I got tired of pretending , because its exhausting.

So today I went in there took a deep breath and told my t that I needed her, that I needed her help, and that I was pretending all along to be strong. She told me she was proud of me and that she knew this already.

As far as the rest of the session we talked some CSa , I dissociated she calls it detachment , everything went fuzzy its such a strange feeling.

I'm feeling trapped and triggered at the moment isolated in a shell overwhelmed angry and confused.

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