[skysblue]

I haven't had alcohol for decades. For me, alcohol is no different from heroin - an illicit substance.

Yet tonight I consumed more than one bottle of vodka. Why? Idk - maybe looking for a shortcut

I did get drunk and texted my T a lot. She did respond. And when I callef her to leave a voicemail she answered the call.

I almost never bother my T but I know now that a good T knows when they're needed. She helped me.

My experiment with alcohol is over. Never again, I hope.

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[Yoda]

Glad to hear that you realize alcohol does not improve life.

Sounds like you have a good T.

[healingme4me]

Glad your T helped you. When's your next session?

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[unaluna]

The question is, was she also drunk??

[elliemay]

I hope they were very very small bottles of vodka. Otherwise, if you hadn't had alcohol in a while, you're likely in the hospital with alcohol poisoning.

Personally, I think it's a bad idea to text or call just about anyone while drunk.

Why were you drinking?

[stopdog]

More than one bottle of vodka? Wow - you have good stamina.
I had one drink last night (4.2 oz of alcohol altogether - I made the drink myself and measured out the ingredients - this is a very unusual amount of liquor for me although I do drink occasionally - we were trying out a recipe for a future gathering - this recipe has been nixed due to its potency) and was drunk and typed some gibberish post here and then fell asleep soon after.
If I ever tried to text another person after having a drink, they would not be able to understand it I don't think.

[anilam]

Sounds more like SI (or even SUI) attempt than drinking...

No, my T would prob not get into convo with me if I was drunktexting him. He might reply with stop drinking, go to sleep or whatever. That's what I imagine anyway, I don't text him cause I don't see the point and I don't get "drunk"- if I drink I don't get happy/sad/more open.. I feel nothing. If I drink excessively (like a half of vodka's bottle) my head starts to hurt but that's about it.

[Karrebear]

Maybe she didn't know you were drunk? Otherwise I am surprised she responded.

Hope you are feeling ok this morning

[Jordy]

I doubt mine would answer if I drunk texted her... except maybe if I told her that I drank before being triggered.
I'm not allowed to have any contact with her in 24hours following any SI behaviour... Not really a problem for me as I never contact her out of session anyway.

[ShrinkPatient]

I have texted T while under the influence. She has texted back with concern but not so much an actual reply, as I made no sense to her. She was aware I was intoxicated. It was obvious.
I am on the wagon now. I spent about 6 months last year consuming copious amounts of vodka to dull my emotions. I learned the hard way alcohol is completely unproductive and it will be a long time before I'm in the right frame of mind to have even the smallest amount in my life.

[rainbow8]

Are you okay, skysblue?

[AllyIsHopeful]

Originally Posted by skysblue

I haven't had alcohol for decades. For me, alcohol is no different from heroin - an illicit substance.

Yet tonight I consumed more than one bottle of vodka. Why? Idk - maybe looking for a shortcut

I did get drunk and texted my T a lot. She did respond. And when I callef her to leave a voicemail she answered the call.

I almost never bother my T but I know now that a good T knows when they're needed. She helped me.

My experiment with alcohol is over. Never again, I hope.

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Glad everything turned out okay, though! You are lucky to have a therapist that is so responsive. Mine is the same way!
I have drunk texted and called her at ridiculous hours and she has never said to stop or warned about taking those privileges away, either. The next session she usually just says "how has everything been since [whatever day i texted/called]?" Her limits amaze me. She has called me back at midnight before...If she was asleep already and her phone didn't wake her up, I would always have a response from her the next morning.
Be careful with drinking. Alcohol is a depressant and will only make you feel worse.

[brillskep]

Sounds great that you had your t to support you and help you make the best decision for yourself.

Originally Posted by skysblue

I haven't had alcohol for decades. For me, alcohol is no different from heroin - an illicit substance.

Yet tonight I consumed more than one bottle of vodka. Why? Idk - maybe looking for a shortcut

I did get drunk and texted my T a lot. She did respond. And when I callef her to leave a voicemail she answered the call.

I almost never bother my T but I know now that a good T knows when they're needed. She helped me.

My experiment with alcohol is over. Never again, I hope.

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[skysblue]

Originally Posted by elliemay

I hope they were very very small bottles of vodka. Otherwise, if you hadn't had alcohol in a while, you're likely in the hospital with alcohol poisoning.

Originally Posted by stopdog

More than one bottle of vodka? Wow - you have good stamina.

Well, dumb me - NOT vodka (see, I know almost nothing about this stuff). The bottles were pre-mixed drinks. One was Mojito which is rum (9.95% alcohol) and the other was White Peach Margarita which is tequila (9.95% alcohol).

I had gone to store to look and was blown away by the amount of choices. I had read about premixed drinks and thought I might be able to stomach them better and they'd have a powerful punch.

After my episode on Friday (I had created this thread under the influence), I am completely befuddled why people drink.

There is obviously a high appeal because there is so much liquor on the shelves and I thought maybe all these decades without consuming any, that maybe I was missing out on something.

Tastes terrible. Sick feeling in stomach. Dizzy. Shut down of rational thinking. Where is the 'buzz' that is so attractive for people? I did not have anything close to any pleasurable experience. Never again

[skysblue]

Originally Posted by Yoda

Glad to hear that you realize alcohol does not improve life.

I 'KNEW' alcohol does not improve life but I guess I was feeling desperate for relief.

Originally Posted by healingme4me

Glad your T helped you. When's your next session?

January 7th

Originally Posted by hankster

The question is, was she also drunk??

Highly unlikely but I can hardly wait to ask her what our conversation was about when I called her during my drunken escapade.

[skysblue]

Originally Posted by anilam

Sounds more like SI (or even SUI) attempt than drinking...

No, my T would prob not get into convo with me if I was drunktexting him. He might reply with stop drinking, go to sleep or whatever. That's what I imagine anyway, I don't text him cause I don't see the point and I don't get "drunk"- if I drink I don't get happy/sad/more open.. I feel nothing. If I drink excessively (like a half of vodka's bottle) my head starts to hurt but that's about it.

I think that's why my T answered phone. She knows I don't drink and a previous attempt at getting intoxicated led me to having sui thoughts. I ended up sending her 25 texts that night. I guess she knew I needed that slight bit of support so that I would not spiral out of control

Originally Posted by Karrebear

Maybe she didn't know you were drunk? Otherwise I am surprised she responded.

Hope you are feeling ok this morning

I think each relationship with a therapist is different. I do not drink. It goes against my philosophy of wanting to be and feel clear minded. My T knows this. She knows I'm facing some really tough issues and that I never cross these boundaries with her so she should have known how bad it was and did answer my phone call.

Originally Posted by Jordy

I doubt mine would answer if I drunk texted her... except maybe if I told her that I drank before being triggered.
I'm not allowed to have any contact with her in 24hours following any SI behaviour... Not really a problem for me as I never contact her out of session anyway.

Again, my T knows the struggles I'm facing and has encouraged me to reach out when I'm sinking as I was Friday night. Just being allowed to text without expecting any replies was very helpful to me. It kept me from feeling more alone than I already felt.

[skysblue]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

Are you okay, skysblue?

I am good now. Hitting rock bottom like I did on Friday has had an affect on me. There's been a subtle shift in my perceptions and I feel stronger and a bit more capable than i have felt in a long time.

My life is just not only undergoing radical changes but my 'reality' is shifting dramatically also. I've been feeling unstable and unsafe for quite awhile - in a psychological way. My emotions have been topsy-turvy and it's been a long tough haul.

I was seeking oblivion, I think, with the alcohol - an escape. Thank goodness it didn't work otherwise I might just have traveled the path to alcoholism.

Also, with frontal cortex 'offline', I had hoped I'd get an insight into my deepest emotions and would then be able to tackle them better.

Yep - oblivion AND insight desired. My goodness - not asking for much, was I?

Instead, just a sick feeling - no oblivion, no insights. Not even a pleasant 'buzz' that I hear so much about.

[skysblue]

Originally Posted by ShrinkPatient

I have texted T while under the influence. She has texted back with concern but not so much an actual reply, as I made no sense to her. She was aware I was intoxicated. It was obvious.
I am on the wagon now. I spent about 6 months last year consuming copious amounts of vodka to dull my emotions. I learned the hard way alcohol is completely unproductive and it will be a long time before I'm in the right frame of mind to have even the smallest amount in my life.

With me, emotions, I guess, did get dulled. Or some of them. But then an almost uncontrollable fear surged and then I really needed to connect with someone (I live alone). Yep, my experience proves that alcohol is completely unproductive

Originally Posted by Hopelessly Hopeful

Glad everything turned out okay, though! You are lucky to have a therapist that is so responsive. Mine is the same way!
I have drunk texted and called her at ridiculous hours and she has never said to stop or warned about taking those privileges away, either. The next session she usually just says "how has everything been since [whatever day i texted/called]?" Her limits amaze me. She has called me back at midnight before...If she was asleep already and her phone didn't wake her up, I would always have a response from her the next morning.
Be careful with drinking. Alcohol is a depressant and will only make you feel worse.

Thanks - I will never drink again. I would say that a therapist must understand that what might drive a person to drink are emotions that are too painful to endure. I am glad your T is responsive

Originally Posted by brillskep

Sounds great that you had your t to support you and help you make the best decision for yourself.

I AM lucky. She monitors her response to me carefully. She only relied to first text but DID answer the phone when I called (which she never does normally). So, she's a 'presence' but does not engage in a big way. I FELT her support even though it may not have been overtly obvious. (and I can't remember what our telephone conversation consisted of - probably me just apologizing for bothering her)

[unaluna]

With those premixed deals, you probably got effects from high fructose corn syrup more than alcohol! next time you wanna get a bottle of baileys irish cream and some vanilla frozen yogurt

[ready2makenice]

I have texted my T while drunk at 1am after downing half a bottle of wine,she responded the next morning but I could never see myself texting her now and never would. I knew why I was drinking,do you?

What caused the sudden need to drink? and hope you can talk about the underlying problem in your next session

[stopdog]

I maintain that most of the time it is better not to drink and contact a therapist, not because of anything concerning the actual therapist, but because of all the self doubt, self punishment, worry and distress it seems to cause the client once the client sobers back up.

[elliemay]

Originally Posted by stopdog

I maintain that most of the time it is better not to drink and contact a therapist, not because of anything concerning the actual therapist, but because of all the self doubt, self punishment, worry and distress it seems to cause the client once the client sobers back up.

Agreed! Actually, I wish people wouldn't post while intoxicated either, but we do what we have to do. It's a support forum.

[blur]

very glad to hear you are okay skysblue. i don't think there is any insight to be found at the bottom of a bottle of alcohol. maybe just a worm.

[AllyIsHopeful]

Originally Posted by stopdog

I maintain that most of the time it is better not to drink and contact a therapist, not because of anything concerning the actual therapist, but because of all the self doubt, self punishment, worry and distress it seems to cause the client once the client sobers back up.

You are so right...Whenever I did that, I would feel so guilty the next morning. The most recent time I saw her response at 6am and didn't even open it. I deleted the whole thread and wanted to pretend it never happened.
It's a yucky feeling once you are sober.