[Hoppery]

On one hand, I can attend the January 15th appointment and give him the letter that tells him I think psychotherapy will help me.
But on the other hand, I can attend the appointment but leave out giving him the letter to see how much more longer I can manage.

Back to the one hand though, if he refers me and I get a T. Won't the T get tired of me not opening up and tell whoever is in charge of it that after a few months of having it, it isn't worth the taxpayers money since it's on the NHS? Or will they be patient and let me go at my own slow pace which is probably long term and not short term because I take forever to trust someone completely. Why is it so hard to do the right thing? I don't know what's right anymore for me. So confused. But so nervous and worried what will happen if I get T and they get sick of me. And what do I do if the mental health nurse specialist thinks that psychotherapy wouldn't help me? What could I do then.

[Canyon]

Hoppery, could you write out your concerns about thinking that you might need therapy and your fears that it will be a slow process in trusting someone? That way they will be working with all of the information in front of them and be able to make an informed decision about what is best for you.

I'm a lot like you as far as the trust thing. I have been going to my T for 2 years now and I still have trouble opening up to him. Luckily, he said from the beginning that he fully expected it to be a long process with me and expected trust to be slow in coming. He has be really patient with that because he knew what to expect in advance. Maybe that would work for you?

Truly hoping that you can get what you need. Hope you will have the courage to ask for it, whatever that is.

[Hoppery]

I have. I wrote them out as my issues. But I don't have any fears. I only worry and get nervous. I don't even fear anything. I don't care if things go wrong to be honest. If they went wrong, i'd still be breathing. They can only hurt me in my head. Not on the outside. I've never felt fear.

Sorry if i'm posting a lot. Just had a 2 days of feeling on top of the world to entering into nothing but sadness again.

[Canyon]

Originally Posted by Hoppery

I have. I wrote them out as my issues. But I don't have any fears. I only worry and get nervous. I don't even fear anything. I don't care if things go wrong to be honest. If they went wrong, i'd still be breathing. They can only hurt me in my head. Not on the outside. I've never felt fear.

Sorry if i'm posting a lot. Just had a 2 days of feeling on top of the world to entering into nothing but sadness again.

I say: don't worry about posting too much (if there is such a thing). I would think that is why this place is here.

Definitely give them the letter and like Canyon said explain in the letter your concerns about opening up etc. I struggle a lot with talking but I've been seeing my T for over a year now and he has been patient, he knew from the start how hard I find it, and still do. He is also a NHS T and hasn't stopped it just because of not being worth taxpayers' money. Everyone deserves help and support, and I think it comes with the job to expect everyone to open up at different speeds.