So my abuser is going to be around again. I will see them daily and it's hard. I have seen her the last two days, she went out of my way to talk to me. I am full of overwhelming feelings- mostly despair, loneliness and hopeless. I am Sui and not sure I can cope with this.
On Saturday I seen t, I told her what was happening. I wept like a baby and couldn't stop sobbing, she said it was the first time she saw my inner child. She said she was peeping out and just wanted to be loved but was looking in all of the wrong places. T asked if she could touch me, and I jerked away, she gently proceeded to put her hand on my back and the other hand on my head. She rubbed them for a while and she asked if I felt that. I felt something, I calmed down immediately and felt a sense of relief but today when I saw my abuser all the feelings returned. I can't have t do this every time and I don't think I am strong enough to see her daily. I don't even know what I need from this I just needed to get it out, thank you for reading

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I am here for you, anytime xx

Thank you

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oh wow. mona, is this in your home? if so, can you move or go stay with a friend even for a little bit while you figure out what to do? i think you need to take some action asap. your mental health requires it.

It's not my home thankfully Blur, it's my employment. At the moment jibs are scare and I need this job but I also need my emotional health and this is no good for me so I need to take action

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i'm so glad it isn't your home. don't hesitate to report this person if they do something that goes against workplace laws (e.g. sexual harassment). i'm not sure if you are referring to csa or your abusive ex but either way it is ok to set strong boundaries. maybe your T can help you come up with a plan on how best to do that. i'm really sorry this is happening.

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i'm so glad it isn't your home. don't hesitate to report this person if they do something that goes against workplace laws (e.g. sexual harassment). i'm not sure if you are referring to csa or your abusive ex but either way it is ok to set strong boundaries. maybe your T can help you come up with a plan on how best to do that. i'm really sorry this is happening.

Thanks Blur, I appreciate the support! Went through such a horrible day today waiting for her to come in, when she did I broke down again, the whole situation is making me so hopeless and feel trapped again

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Originally Posted by monalisasmile

Thanks Blur, I appreciate the support! Went through such a horrible day today waiting for her to come in, when she did I broke down again, the whole situation is making me so hopeless and feel trapped again

that sounds pretty awful. maybe you could just talk to the woman very calmly and tell her while you are not happy you have to work together that you do not want any contact with her unless it is absolutely necessary and regarding work only. then, focus on getting back to work and just ignore her as much as possible. i don't know, maybe doing something that will help you take back some control in this situation and not feel like a sitting duck. i did read your last thread and my first thought was that she is borderline. i'd ask your T what she recommends because i don't know if my suggestion is the best tack to take if she is borderline. worst comes to worst you can quit your job. i know it may be tough to find another right away but if you spiral into a place of major depression/sui thoughts it really isn't worth it. don't give up mona. you will get through this.