[Freewilled]

I don't like myself very much right now /: maybe I can learn from this....so I emailed my T for the first time ever just now. I don't even know his email policy. I made it very brief but still....I told him that I do need his help, which is a big deal for me since one of my major issues is feeling too needy and keeping just about everyone out of my life. I said I was sorry for my being so back and forth about therapy and that I don't want to stop now. That was basically it.

I hope that was the right decision. I just feel like I'm running away out of fear or something and I really can't afford to do that. My family can't afford me to give up either.

I worry about being a needy client so much that this is really the first time I reached out to my T. Ever. And it's a been year.

I think I need to make a boundary for myself: no more back and forth with T on this whole subject. When it's time to end, I will just end it appropriately.

[Canyon]

I just wanted to tell you that I really understand what you're saying and can relate.

Sometimes I think it is sort of "fight or flight" when we start to feel threatened.

I'm glad you decided to stick it out.

[tealBumblebee]

I think you did the right thing and I hope your T see's how much it took you to reach out in the way that you did and responds appropriately.

[Raging Quiet]

I hope your t can help x

[Aloneandafraid]

I can really relate to your post. I have reached out recently and it feels really weird. I haven't had my needs met and I think she is hoping I can do it on my own? But it's so hard. I want more not less which is why I reached out. I'm all over the place and transferring these feelings to friends- and pushing/pulling everyone, convinced they all hate me now.i have never felt so alone and out of control. I wish you all the best, your T sounds caring and I hope you get the support you need.

[someone321]

I can relate a lot... I've already told my T that even when I really need to reach him, I can't because I find writing an e-mail to him too intrusive... But then he said that it's not intrusive at all because I cannot force him to read it or reply so it is his decision what to do with the e-mail and for sure he'll let me know if he thinks that I send him too many e-mails...

Wow, Freewilled, that's huge. Well done! I'm glad you reached out to him and that you told him you don't want to quit. I'm sure it was the right decision to make.

I was like that once. I really was testing whether the T could hold me tight. One just let me go lol. The one I got now 'held me' and made feel she really did want to work with me.