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As a general rule, I like to get things out in the open.
I don't know that it helped, though.

My bad luck continues- the tooth that had a small chip in it (and I got fixed twice) just chipped again, I hope this isn't turning into a real bad week. Fortunately I have a cleaning appointment scheduled for Monday so they can look at it than.

You go, girl!

I've been thinking about a post from BiP who said sometimes you dont know your behavior is odd till something happens....and BiP used example of hiding when someone knocks on the door and I was instantly transformed back in time to my own childhood....my mom had us do the same thing...

Then i was talking about a bathroom remodel and a woman at work said i should get one of those deeper soaking tubs which i said oh no I would never take a break...but then I remembered other people love baths and dont have to have a quck exit plan in their head....

Hey I got a reply from Lindsey Vonn during her live Facebook chat, I asked: How much do you miss competing in these Olympics

and she responded by saying: A LOT!

Now I have a story to tell

and finally something to be happy about during these tough first couple of days of the week.

one day down and no big disaster. my room here is awesome and I went for a walk down to the beach ,it was dark but still beautiful. am now getting ready to go to sleep. so far a great time

Hmm...something interesting happened today. I got T's website up Friday. She texted me yesterday to tell me her email link wasn't working. So I fixed it. I was a little perturbed that she did that because when she said "thank you" for getting the website up, she hadn't seen it yet. So I had to ask if she liked it and she said absolutely and so had all the people she showed it to.

So I went to session today and she actually said exactly this, "Oh, by the way, I am going to pay you for the website, but I can't right now." As she has given me time to pay her during tight times, I didn't think much of it, but the more I think about it, the more it bugs me. Yes, she has probably missed two weeks of work out of the last four. She has only received one check from BCBS since Jan 1. But what about all the copays? I've paid her $240 since Jan 1.

What I want to say is this: "Wow, you have no problem telling me what to do in regards to your website with barely a thank you, then you have the nerve not to pay. Gosh, maybe you ought to rethink living in that 2700 sq ft house with the screened in porch you rent for $1800/month in Porter's Neck. Maybe your H should sell his boat. Then again, I know you've made bad financial decisions in the past. I know you borrowed $300,000 against the house you'd owned for 20 years then couldn't pay it back. That's why you rent. Yeah, I might have googled you for the financial info and your rent, but you've given me so much to use against you in the past 3 years. Are you dumb? I would have never thought of trying to use any info against you in the past because if something like this happened back then I'd blame myself. However, you have taught me to have some self-worth. Like so many in sci-fi books, TV, and movies, why did you build a weapon that can think for itself? Why do you seem to think p**sing me off is ok? And why on earth did you give me more ammo on the day you p**s me off? You actually made me (before I got p**sed) think that you are a bit unhinged. How can a T have SUCH bad habits (i.e. 'I'm busy because I just can't say no to people,' and 'I find it hard to do anything that doesn't have a purpose (i.e I can't relax and just enjoy something)'. What? I'm just a T student and know that's bad self-care."

Ok, I'm hoping that T is "just a little unwell," as the Matchbox 20 song goes. Good thing I'm stronger than I used to be and can handle this (and really don't doubt that she'll pay me). She is human after all, and did help me with my depression today.

Sorry [/rant]

Welcome to Accounts Receivable!

PS: You'll have similar problems when you are a T.

I am so ashamed. Why do i do these things. All i can hear is my mother saying *****, ****, *****!

morning all having a great time yesterday and so now I wake up and am not feeling well. scarey stuff happening and I am scared to tell anyone. I don't want anyone to have to leave to take me to the hospital and im humiliated and don't want to tell anyone about what is going on. S H I T why cant I just have a small amount of fun in my life

whats going on? If youre at a hotel, you can ask them to call you a cab to take you. They should take a credit card even.

If your blood sugar is high, you could order some bacon and eggs? Protein will take it down?

granite....what's going on? Go find your friend who offered to do journalling with you in th morning and tell her what is going on.... Just like you would help someone if they would need it so will they

Granites what is happening?

Rts i like your advice much better than mine - you know how to depend on people, that is so good.

Hankster...and you are independent....thats good too....

Granite....check in when you can...I hope its okay to say....but I'm praying

Granite...I'm a bit worried.

BPA...good to see you, you've been missed.
Ike...see above
Jerz...glad the pdoc went well
Mast...good job with the letter.

My family is gone...mostly. Youngest D had a 103 fever last night. Son had a high fever over the weekend, so hoping it's a 24 hr thing and I don't have to bring her to Boston. I am supposed to work at the wildlife clinic today, just waiting to check on D when she wakes up. Son is home this week, so he offered to watch out for her while I'm gone. H has been working awful very long, long hours and I miss him so much. I hear him get into bed at night and I say hello, but he just rolls over and sleeps. Hoping the stuff at his day job simmers down a bit soon.

The couch is on page 2...

SAVED!

Now where were we....

Wiki...glad you had a good time with the fam when they visited. I hope D is going to be okay. Glad S is feeling better. Hope H's job winds down soon.

I'm supposed to be doing better now, but today I'm not.

I have done stupid things all day. Had almost no lunch because I wanted to avoid some people in the canteen. Skipped a seminar I had looked forward to because I felt too self-conscious to leave my office. Have been trying to look businesslike and regular because my stupid office is on the ground floor (that's the first floor to you USAnians) and there are bike racks just outside, where my colleagues - including those I avoided at lunch - park their bikes. Wanting to put my head down on the desk and howl. What's wrong with me??

Chopin...

this just goes to show that when you are in business you have to have more formal agreements... and those agreements need to have terms in it that everyone understands..

for instance, you said you had a deadline that she expected you to meet. That was verbally agreed upon... but if you do a little research on this type of business you may find types of agreements that are standard in web design... it might include things like deadlines, changes, etc... but it might also include things like progress billing (pd in stages), terms of payments, etc etc...

I know doing this for your T was like an experiment but if you are going to do work for people that she refers to you...you might want to consider some more formal arrangement.

((BiP))

What happened?

((Mastodon))

What do you think your colleagues see?

Still getting into a lot of fights right now with family members, I just hope that things will get better soon.