[jesusplay]

So i can read my pdoc/psychologist notes after 3 days online.

basically in the last session I smiled because she was saying some silly stuff or i was smiling out of awkwardness or smiling out of confusion. She thinks I was smiling because I'm feeling better and she hasn't seen me smile in our 8 sessions of seeing each other this year(I go every week because they have me as high risk).

also when she ask if I'm having suicidal thoughts she always says I declined, then goes on to say I'm having they multiple times a day every day?

They still use DSM IV at the office and my gaf score for that day was a 48.

Anyone have any advice on how to stop smiling? I think I might start wearing a rubber band around my wrist and plucking it again.

I'm not better, if I was better I wouldn't be so pissed at what I just read!

[OneWorld]

It's okay to smile. It doesn't mean that you don't still need some help, but a smile isn't something you need to try to avoid. Just be yourself.

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[Perna]

You don't want to get better and have a life with lots of smiles in it? I don't think she said you were "cured" or your GAF score was something to write home about. I would quit reading the notes if they upset you (unless you want to be upset?).

[stopdog]

It is upsetting when they misinterpret a smile. I was smiling once when I went in after an enjoyable time with a friend, and the woman thought I was smiling about seeing her. After letting her know she was wrong, I have made sure to be in an externally neutral frame before an appointment ever since. If I am uncertain, I remind myself of that incident and any hint of smiling is gone. I don't think it is useful for them to think clients are all happy to be at a therapy appointment.

[HazelGirl]

Originally Posted by jesusplay

So i can read my pdoc/psychologist notes after 3 days online.

basically in the last session I smiled because she was saying some silly stuff or i was smiling out of awkwardness or smiling out of confusion. She thinks I was smiling because I'm feeling better and she hasn't seen me smile in our 8 sessions of seeing each other this year(I go every week because they have me as high risk).

also when she ask if I'm having suicidal thoughts she always says I declined, then goes on to say I'm having they multiple times a day every day?

They still use DSM IV at the office and my gaf score for that day was a 48.

Anyone have any advice on how to stop smiling? I think I might start wearing a rubber band around my wrist and plucking it again.

I'm not better, if I was better I wouldn't be so pissed at what I just read!

This is something you need to talk to your T about. I would wonder why it is so important for you to be perceived as ill?

[penguinh]

I totally get you. I also feel almost obligated to look depressed and not happy whenever I'm in therapy because I don't want my therapist thinking that I'm much better now and no longer need therapy. I also feel this way with my teachers. Like just because I'm laughing doesn't mean all my problems are gone and I'm ok now.

[nottrustin]

I would think if you go weekly she will figure that out soon enough if you were just smiling because of her being silly or whatever.

My T especially know that I always wear a happy face mask and dress "up" not because of I feel great but because is how I am all the time. I have learned to shed SOME of the happy face with her.

My pcd doc has a diagnosis of bipolar for me...T disagrees...she feels when I am "manic" it isn't because I am actually manic it is because at that moment I am having an easier time pretending...

This reminds me of a time when I was still seeing exT, and I told her I was feeling really low (which is something I would not normally have admitted to her, but I was doing very badly at the time). Her reply: "But you look happy, and your eyes are glittering!"

That was one of the last nails in the coffin of that therapy. There is nothing wrong about feeling okay or being happy while you're in the therapist's office - that doesn't mean that you are always okay, or always happy. But I really dislike having feelings ascribed to me, especially when the description is completely wrong.

[Freewilled]

I understand how that feels and then it seems weird to say aloud because then the T thinks you don't want to get better which I'm sure is not the case. My fear is my T says I'm better and I think well, I guess i must be better then. But I'm not and I cycle back through alone. And I'm fearful of being alone because my Sui scares me soooooo it's kind of a serious thing.

Sometimes I think some Ts feel like they have to show progress somehow. Well, they prob do to managers or ins. companies or whatever.

But a smile is good It doesn't mean you don't need help.