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I just had my last session with my T and will never see her again
![]() I had a plan for our last session together: 1. Go in there and talk about social services calling 2. Roll up my sleeves to show her my scars and talk to her about them and the voices that made me do it 3. Give her the card and painting ![]() 4. Ask her to listen to me singing a song that relates to me and how I feel 5. Let the words flow out of my mouth about how I feel about ending and the abandonment that is brought back from my mum and dad, and how I wanted to turn back time and change it but when I got the chance I didn't, and how I don't want therapy to be just another bad memory ![]() 6. Ask for a hug ![]() 7. Say thank you over and over again hoping she'll get the message ![]() (not in that order) What I did: 1. SI'd before the session 2. Had no tissue so had to leave my sleeves rolled up and get a tissue in her room. 3. Talked for 10 minutes about social services (couldn't really get a word in edgeways) 4. Gave her the card and painting right at the end of the session ![]() 5. Didn't ask her to listen to me singing ![]() 6. Didn't ask for a hug ![]() ![]() 7. Didn't talk about any of the things I wanted her to know - instead, I had to do a worksheet ![]() So all in all, it went okay, but it could have gone a million times better. I walked out of there and didn't cry for once, because I think it was a nice end, but it could've been better. I'm happy with how it went, because I got a little bit of closure and I didn't completely break down at the end of it ![]() What I would like to do now is send her a letter in the post (definitely NOT email) just saying thank you again, and just briefly outlining how I think the session went. Inevitably, there wasn't enough time for me to get full closure out of that session, but I feel I will when I send her the letter, just to let her know. I am not expecting anything to come out of her from her side i.e. I'm not expecting a reply or an offer for another session. But I just feel if I get it out in the open, then I will be fine after that, and I can get on with my life and not regret therapy. What do you think? What is your opinions on what I've written? What would you do in my situation? Thank you
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I think you've done well gaining perspective on what happened, and are approaching a difficult transition with a good attitude. If you feel sending the letter will give you more closure, I would definitely send it. I just want to mention sometimes when I send a message, thinking I do not want or need to receive a reply, sometimes, later, I change my mind and realize I really to want a reply, so, just something to consider in case that might happen with you.
Please take really good care of yourself, please be kind. Treat yourself to something you enjoy and do things that are comforting to you. ![]() Last edited by Leah123; Feb 17, 2014 at 08:52 AM. |
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I think you went in there with pre determined expectations and it didn't go your way totally so you're quitting. Therapy takes years and definitely time to trust and get to know each other. I've had 4 therapists in 4 years. One for only one session the latest,who I adore for a year now. Homework helps your T as well as you understand your thought processes about cutting and sui thoughts,so that you think next time before doing it again. That's CBT. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. Good luck and I hope you go back.
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Oh, gotcha. Thanks
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Well, I would probably write at the end of the letter something like:
"It would really help me gain a sense of closure if you would _________ (email/phone/write, etc.) to let me know you received and read this message." Good luck!! |
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Do you think it would be crossing a boundary if I sent her a letter even though I'm not her client anymore? And how long do you think the letter should be?
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I don't know if it's a good idea to send her a letter because you aren't a client anymore and won't be. There may be rules in place where she is not allowed to respond. Also, can you get therapy off the NHS? It's always better to be in control of your own therapy than to allow the government to be in control of it.
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Maybe better that you didn't ask for a hug because I did at the last session with a Therapist that I saw for 4 years but she told me that she didn't give them and I felt very upset afterwards.
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I suppose the absolute most horrific one would be that she told you not to write again? You're not going to write anything illegal I figure, haha, so no crimes to worry about. So, if the worst case outcome would be getting cut off.... well, back to the first question. ![]() I'm hoping it'd give you some closure, probably best to find some extra support too though, during this transition, like posting here, etc. |
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But I guess they will only pay for a certain amount of sessions or there is a limit on the number of sessions a person can have for CBT... I don't know the rules... Why don't you think it would be a good idea? Just trying to get another insight here
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I know it would give me closure to say the few things I've wanted to say since I first met her. Otherwise, I'll obsess over it for the rest of my life, and eventually it will turn into a bad memory, and I have enough of those already because I didn't take the risk ![]() Thank you
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I think I would've been able to deal with it if she said no to a hug, because then at least I'd know I'd tried. Now all I know is that I missed an opportunity and all I will ever ask is 'what if?' and I don't want to be questioning her response for the rest of my life. But that will probably end up happening anyway, because I can't just go back to her and ask for a hug...:/
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I don't have the money to afford to pay for a private therapist, otherwise I would've already. I'm only 17 :/
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You could always see her again.
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That's really hard.
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hi. u can email her but u shouldnt write things that need further input from her caz she isnt ur T anymore (dunno if i put this right for u to understand). tell her u had few things to say but u werent able. and she might reply but expect just a nice goodbye and thanks for ur words (i think). good luck
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Hi ahdm, like you I had CBT on the NHS & your right its time limited
![]() The only thing is, I was quite worried about not receiving a reply & if I would be able to deal with a rejection so I kept my letter relatively formal. So I'd say write a letter if you want, but think about the worst case scenario & how that would make you feel & if your ok with that go for it. Good Luck ![]() ![]() |
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Unfortunately I can't. I had 6 sessions with her last year from August - October, I then stopped because I didn't think I needed it. I then realized I did, so went back to her in December, so I've had a total of 14 sessions with her, and they won't allow any more. Ever.
It is soul destroying, heart crushing, ugly sob inducing pain. And a part of me questions whether I should even go to see another therapist, especially if it's only going to turn out like this anyway...
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Yep
![]() Sometimes I wish I'd never even started having therapy.
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![]() I felt very bad after that, I'm not sure whether she did get paid or not, and if I had any money at all, I would've given it to her. I guess my point and worry is that seeing as she already gave me 2 more sessions I doubt she would give me another one. All of this was the calm before the storm - last night when I was alone in my room, it hit me. Hard. I have never felt so much pain and heartbreak and loneliness and abandonment in my life. I cried literally buckets, which is new for me. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]()
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