[sweepy62]

Today we were suppose to start trauma work, I did the homework from last week, which was to draw a staircase and list all the CSa that happened and the people involved , and other things to work on regarding the past.

That was very vulnerable , so today I brought it in . As per our agreement and old t, I read my assignments or whatever I write. I don't know what happened, I through a tantrum, what they call regression . It happened in t2 but not with t3.

She stopped the session for about ten minutes grounded me, then stood up and SHE DID BREATHING EXCERCISES HERSELF lol, I apologized for stressing her out.

She said, she just needed to get herself relaxed again because she is human so that we could be on one page. I told her I was embarrassed, she said it makes her sad for me to feel this way.

She offered a hug, I said I was not ready .

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That kind of honesty & openness, on both ends, is what makes for a great relationship.

Your feelings are completely valid to have. It's hard too, when you don't have that safe space elsewhere, to get used to it. With time, you will.

Congrats on your progress! All the best to you ^.^ Take care.

[sweepy62]

Thank you I was confused with all the emotions going on in the office today, I was afraid I stressed her, I guess she showed me her human side, I was overwhelmed by her honesty.

It kind of strengthened the relationship a bit more. We both never seen that side of each other .

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I agree, I really like this t and her honesty. I could really trust her and work well with her.
I hope you don't feel bad sweepy because you were being honest and true to yourself too by throwing a tantrum

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[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by monalisasmile

I agree, I really like this t and her honesty. I could really trust her and work well with her.
I hope you don't feel bad sweepy because you were being honest and true to yourself too by throwing a tantrum

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Thanks, I didnt mean to, I felt 5, I thought, I would scare her away, but she said it drew her closer, go figure, it was very embarrassing for me, but she is proving to be very genuine. By the way, no csa was discussed today, we spoke about self esteem, regression, and reassurance.

[rainbow8]

When I first started seeing my current T, she wanted me to close my eyes and concentrate on my breathing. I was embarrassed! She said she was going to do it too! So I cheated and peeked! Sure enough, HER eyes were closed! It took a while to get used to breathing with her. But you know the rest. Now I can hold her hand, close my eyes, and completely relax.
Your T sounds very good!

[sweepy62]

With old t we did breathing excercises together, when I needed grounding, this was different, she said she is very good at sensing my feelings, and she knew I was very vulnerable, while I was in my mini tantrum, so she needed to do deep breathing herself, so she could be in a better place to help me.