Elsewhere by Sarah Mclachlan

This song reminds me of my therapy with my T. Here are some lyrics...

"I love the time and in between
The calm inside me
In the space where I can breathe"

The first part of this song reminds me of the safety I feel when I'm with my therapist. It's the one place where I can relax and breathe easier.

"Distance I have wandered
To touch upon the years... "

All the things that I have dealt with in therapy over the years.

"This is heaven to no one else but me
And I'll defend it as long as I can be
Left here to linger in silence
If I choose to
Would you try to understand"

He let's me sit in silence if that is what I need.

"I know this love is passing time
Passing through like liquid
I am drunk in my desire
But I love the way you smile at me"

I know my infatuation is not realistic though my desire for my therapist makes me feel intoxicated. Yet he continues to keep strict boundaries and doesn't abandon me even when I obsess on him.

Does anyone else have songs that they really relate to and care to share?

Yes, there's one called "I am Understood" by Relient K that totally captures what it's like for me in therapy. Technically it's a Christian song, but most of the lyrics ring so true for my experience in therapy.

"I am Understood" by Relient K

Sometimes it's embarrassing
To talk to you
To hold a conversation with
The only one who sees right through this
Version of myself I try
To hide behind
I'll bury my face because my disgrace
Will leave me terrified

And sometimes I'm so thankful for your loyalty
Your love regardless of
The mistakes I make will spoil me
My confidence is, in a sense, a gift you've given me
And I'm satisfied to realize you're all I'll ever need

[Chorus]
You looked into my life and never stopped
And you're thinking all my thoughts
Are so simple, but so beautiful
And you recite my words right back to me
Before I even speak
You let me know, I am understood

And sometimes I spend my time
Just trying to escape
I work so hard so desperately
In an attempt to create space
'Cause I want distance from me and the most important thing I know
I see your love, then turn my back and beg for you to go

[Chorus]

You're the only one who understands completely
You're the only one knows me yet still loves completely

And sometimes the place I'm at is at a loss for words
If I think of something worthy I know that its already yours
And through the times I've faded and you've outlined me again
You've just patiently waited, to bring me back and then

[Chorus]

The noise has broken my defense
Let me embrace salvation
Your voice has broken my defense
Let me embrace salvation

Like both Sarah Mclachlan and Relient K so I can relate.

Here you are
with your Peter Pan advice
you have no scars on your face

Wow! The reliant k one is amazing. I don't think I'm into their music though. I'll have to give it a go.

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I have a song that reminds me of my ex-T whom I miss so dearly...

"I've changed the presets in my truck,
So those old songs don't sneak up.
But they still find me
And remind me
Yeah you come back that easy.
I've tries restaurants I've never been to
Ordered new things off the menu
That I never tried
'Cause you didn't like,
but two drinks in and you're by my side.

[Chorus:]
I've talked to friends
Talked to myself
Talked to God
I've prayed like hell
But I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinkin'
I've been strong and I've been weak
But I still miss you.
I've done everything move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you
I still miss you baby

I never knew til you were gone
How many pages you were on
It never ends I keep turning
And line after line and you're there again.
I don't know how to let you go
You're so deep down in my soul
I feel helpless so hopeless
It's a door that never closes
No I don't know how to do this.

[Chorus]

I've talked to friends
Talked to myself
Talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
And I still miss you.
I've done everything
to move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah

I still miss you
I still miss you...... yeah.... yeah....."

I Still Miss You by Keith Anderson

Isn't it? I had the song long before I started therapy, but I was listening to it one day and actually paid attention to the lyrics and went "wait a minute...this describes my relationship with my T so well!"

I don't usually pay a lot of attention to lyrics, but there are some classical pieces that I can identify with therapy.

This line definitely makes me think of former T.

Thanks.

I have a lot, but most of them just feel like things my T would or has said to me: I especially love Bloodlines & Everywhere I Go. All of these I have in a special folder on my ipod called "Heartfelt" and they all have to do with my T one way or another.

Medicine-Daughter
video:
lyrics: DAUGHTER LYRICS - Medicine

Bloodlines-Barbarossa - because she would always hold my hand when I got upset, and always talks about hope
video:

Take my hand
If it gets you through then it’s all right
Take my hand

But take your time
‘Till it relates to you then it’s all right
You break my mind

But if your view is of golden valleys
But the sense of regret paralyzes
Then you’ll never know how it feels

And if you never challenge what you see
Then the beacons of light will stop flashing
And you’ll never know how it feels

To have hope
To have hope
To have hope
To have hope

To have hope
To have hope
To have hope

If you could replay this
Where would you stop to untie your hands?

And if you could unsay it
How could I ever understand?

Like you never will
Ohh uh ohh ohh
Like you never will

And it would break your heart
Well, if you knew
That this is all about you

Oh, but you carry on regardless
But we’ve already started
A new bloodline

Everywhere I Go-Lissie --
this one is like me to my T...all the times I've been evil to her and then been sorry afterwards
video:
lyrics: Lissie - Everywhere I Go Lyrics | MetroLyrics

and i'll fall on my knees
tell me how's the way to be
tell me how's the way to go
tell me all that i should know
and i'll fall on my knees
tell me how's the way to go
tell me how's the way to be
to evoke some empathy
danger will follow me now
everywhere i go
angels will call on me
and take me to my home
this tired mind just wants to be led home
and i'll fall on my knees
tell me how's the way to go
tell me how's the way to see
show me all that i could be
and i'll fall on my knees
tell me how's the way to be
tell me how's the way to go
tell me why i feel so low
danger will follow me now
everywhere I go
angels will call on me
and take me to my home
these tired eyes just want to remain closed
i don't see clearly
can't feel nothing
can you hear me
and i'll fall on my knees
and danger will follow me everywhere i go
and angels will call on me
and take me to my home x3

Nothing More-the alternate routes (makes me want to be better to my t...to people in general)
most poignant line: the danger's in the anger and the hanging on to it
video:
lyrics:
To be humble, to be kind,
It is the giving of the peace in your mind.
To a stranger, to a friend...
To give in such a way that has no end.
We are love,
We are one,
We are how we treat each other when the day is done.
We are peace,
We are war,
We are how we treat each other and nothing more.
To be bold, to be brave;
It is the thinking that the heart can still be saved.
And the darkness can come quick;
The Danger's in the Anger and the hanging on to it.
We are love.
We are one.
We are how we treat each other when the day is done.
We are peace.
We are war.
We are how we treat each other and nothing more.
Tell me what it is that you see
A world that's filled with endless possibilities?
Heroes don't look they used to, they look like you do.
We are love.
We are one.
We are how we treat each other when the day is done.
We are peace.
We are war.
We are how we treat each other and nothing more

into me-cat jahnke (me to my t)
video:
lyrics:
I’ve got these broken bones
Picked clean and glistening
Telephone my sleeping bones
And guess if they’re listening

Well hit me on my funny bone
Go and leave me all alone
There’s not much I’d be missing

And I’m just trying to hold on baby
And I’ve been feeling better lately
About you

I’ve got these broken bones
Hidden safe beneath my skin
Telephone my shattered bones
And see if they’d let you in again

There’s dust in everything I own
This dust is all I’ve ever known
But now you got me wishing

And I’m just trying to hold on baby
And I’ve been feeling better lately
About you

I’ve got these skeleton keys
Hidden safe beneath my skin
They open all my doors and wars and scars
So careful, please
You’ll never know me new again

So wipe your feet and mind the paint
My body sins but I’m a saint
Excuse the crunch as you step
Into me

Looking - Lights fade low
this one illustrates how I felt when my T changed from being loving to being distant and cold, and I keep trying to "find my old t" but she rarely comes out anymore. (minus the sexual overtones, I don't feel that)
Video:
lyrics:
“Can you feel me / Can you smell me / Can you taste me / When you’re all alone?”
“No one will hurt you / The way that I hurt you.”
“What is wrong with me / That I keep coming back / To this place I can’t exist / This time that’s clearly past?”
“I say what I shouldn’t say / I look where I shouldn’t look / I touch what I shouldn’t touch.”
“I haven’t changed / but you feel strange / what else can I say?”

I really liked this one. Thanks for sharing.

I have Hero by Mariah Carey as my ringtone for when my therapist calls and it's about how he's helped me see my life and myself.

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

[Chorus:]
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

[Chorus]

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

And one that reminds me of therapy - What Do You Hear in These Sounds by Dar Williams:

I don't go to therapy to find out if I'm a freak
I go and I find the one and only answer every week
And it's just me and all the memories to follow
Down any course that fits within a fifty minute hour
And we fathom all the mysteries, explicit and inherent
When I hit a rut, she says to try the other parent
And she's so kind, I think she wants to tell me something,
But she knows that its much better if I get it for myself...
And she says

Oooooooh,aaaaaaah, What do you hear in these sounds?
And... Oooooooh,aaaaaaah
What do you hear in these sounds?

I say I hear a doubt, with the voice of true believing
And the promises to stay, and the footsteps that are leaving
And she says "Oh", I say "What?"...she says "Exactly",
I say"What, you think I'm angry
Does that mean you think I'm angry?"
She says "Look, you come here every week
With jigsaw pieces of your past
Its all on little soundbytes and voices out of photographs
And that's all yours, that's the guide, that's the map
So tell me, where does the arrow point to?
Who invented roses?"
and.......

Oooooooh,aaaaaaah
What do you hear in these sounds?
And...Oooooooh,aaaaaaah
What do you hear in these sounds?

And when I talk about therapy, I know what people think
That it only makes you selfish and in love with your shrink
But Oh how I loved everybody else
When I finally got to talk so much about myself...

And I wake up and I ask myself what state I'm in
And I say well I'm lucky, cause I am like East Berlin
I had this wall and what I knew of the free world
Was that I could see their fireworks
And I could hear their radio
And I thought that if we met, I would only start confessing
And they'd know that I was scared
They'd would know that I was guessing
But the wall came down and there they stood before me
With their stumbling and their mumbling
And their calling out just like me...and...

Oooooooh,aaaaaaah, The stories that nobody hears...and...

Oooooooh,aaaaaaah, and I collect these sounds in my ears...and

Oooooooh,aaaaaaah, that's what I hear in these sounds...and...

Oooooooh,aaaaaaah, that's what I hear in these......
that's what I hear in these sounds.

Oh, and this one: The Real Me - Natalie Grant

Foolish heart looks like we're here again
Same old game of plastic smile
Don't let anybody in
Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break
How much will they take before I'm empty
Do I let it show, does anybody know?

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me

Painted on, life is behind a mask
Self-inflicted circus clown

I'm tired of the song and dance
Living a charade, always on parade
What a mess I've made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still I see somehow

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me

Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into
A perfect tapestry
I just wanna be me

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
And you love me just as I am
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me

Love this one!

I really love "The Real Me" by Natalie Grant, too!

I looked through my music to find some more that fit. Here's one by Addison Road called "Sticking with You"

"Sticking with You" by Addison Road

C'mon, it's me you're talking to
There's something going on inside of you
Don't have to say it, but I wish you would
'Cause it would be much easier

You always hide behind yourself
You walk a lonely road with no one's help
I hate to break the news
You're headed for a fall

And if I have to jump, then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight
We can scream and shout
I'll push and pull until your walls come down
And you understand, I'm gonna be around
I'm sticking with you
Sticking with you

Even if you try and shut me out
I'm staying here 'cause that's what love's about
I might let you down
But I won't let you go, no, no, no

So lean into me, I want to know
Everything about the fear you hold
Inside, 'cause you and I
Are better than just one

And if I have to jump, then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight
We can scream and shout
I'll push and pull until your walls come down
And you understand, I'm gonna be around
I'm sticking with

And that's what it means to love you
That's what it means to have your back
If that's what it takes to show you
That I love, that I love

If I have to jump, then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight
We can scream and shout
I'll push and pull until your walls come down
And you understand, I'm gonna be around

If I have to jump, then I'll jump
And I won't look down
You can cry, you can fight
We can scream and shout
I'll push and pull until your walls come down
And you understand, I'm gonna be around
'Cause I'm sticking with you
I'm sticking with you
I'm sticking with you

This one as well

"Just Might Change Your Life" by Sidewalk Prophets
You’ve got your reasons
Reasons just to walk away
No one would blame you
If you didn’t want to face the pain
You find yourself
Up against the wall
You’re scared to push
'Cause it might fall, and it

Just might change your life
You’re on the edge now take one step
And you just might find you’ll fly
You never know what will happen next
Don’t be afraid to let go this time
It just might change your life

You keep on reaching
Reaching for a hand to hold
You’re scared you’ll wake up
On the edge of the unknown
You find your heart in fragile place
Afraid to move cause it might break, and it

Just might change your life
You’re on the edge now take one step
And you just might find you’ll fly
You never know what will happen next
Don’t be afraid to let go this time
It just might change your life

Don’t be afraid to let go
Just let go, just let go
Just let go, just let go!
And it

Just might change your life
You’re on the edge now take one step
And you just might find you’ll fly
You never know what will happen next

And it just might change your life
You’re on the edge now take one step
And you just might find you’ll fly
You never know what will happen next
Don’t be afraid to let go this time
Don’t be afraid to let go this time
It just might change your life

And this one.

"Safe" by Natalie Grant

How did you know
That I'm all alone today
Oh, I feel so scared
And I wanna go away
I bleed so deep underneath
My soul is screaming

I'm not gonna hide
I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars
And show you every mistake
Your love is mending my blisters
And the bruising shame
Here with you, I am safe

Drown in the tears
Won't make it go away
It's robbing my soul
So I'm taking this mask off my face, yeah
To discover love and uncover all it means
To live and breathe

I'm not gonna hide
I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars
And show you every mistake
Your love is has mended my blisters
And the bruising shame
Here with you, I am safe
I am safe, I am safe, I am safe

When You uncover I discover
I am not afraid
But when we're hiding
We end up fighting
To be sane

Yeah, yeah, I'm not gonna hide
I'm not gonna run away
I'll uncover the scars
And show you every mistake
Your love is mending my blisters
And my bruising shame
Here with you, I am safe
I am safe, I am safe, I am safe

I am safe

That one really resonates with me. Ty

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My therapy/therapist song is "And So It Goes" by Billy Joel:

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

Its really heartbreaking lyrics and reminds me about me and my t. I didnt know this song before but i will listen when i will be at home

I've had a couple songs lately that I've listened to that remind me of him, for whatever reason. "Magic" by Coldplay, "Brooklyn Baby" by Lana Del Rey, "The Luckiest" by Ben Folds, "I Get Along Without You Very Well" by Chet Baker, and "She's Like The Wind" by....by Patrick Swayze/Eric Carmen. Lol. Kinda random.

“I’m good at loving books. I’m good at loving soft bed sheets. I’m good at loving coffees and teas. I am good at loving things that can’t love me back, that don’t have the power to leave. And maybe, that’s why I love them.”

All this music chatter makes me smile. I love all the choices.

The chorus describes exactly how I feel about her everyday. She brought me to life when I was dead. She held me and made me feel special. And just like that, she was gone.

I've talked to friends and talked to myself.
I've definitely talked to God and prayed like hell.
But I still miss her.
I tried sober, no self-harm, no drinking. I tried drinking.
I've had strong moments and weak moments.
But I still miss her.
I have done everything I can possibly do to try and move on. Tried contacting her. Tried catharsis. Crying. Talking. Being angry. Being happy.
But I would still give anything to have her for one more minute.
I still miss her. And probably always will.

Sarah Bareilles - Gravity

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.
[CHORUS:]
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
[CHORUS]
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down.
You're keeping me down, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
You're on to me, on to me, and all over...
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.