Couch 78: Put your feet up and stay a while

…I am a fan of that reference! Good for so many situations...

Crying is allowed in therapy.

Wishing everyone a happy, healthy and peaceful weekend.

I am not talking about crying in therapy. There's no crying in baseball is like there is no x in therapy.

morning peeps only 4 more days and I will be back home . I just wish I didn't have to wait a whole week after to see my T. because I am coming home on the day I would have T . I was too scared to ask if she could see me on Wednesday .it was just to needy of me .it isn't like I am in crisis or anything

I have spent the last couple of weeks not getting enough sleep. The newest litter of feral orphans needed every three hour feedings for soooo long, and then even when we moved to every six hours, it meant I was getting up way before I wanted to. I have trouble getting to sleep, so by the time I was finally asleep, it left me only three or four hours to sleep. Anyway. I am whiny about it and sick of being a grown-up. H wanted me to go to court for him this morning but I whined my way out of it. He has been sleeping in until 8-9 am every day, AND he blew off a school meeting for D he promised to take care of. I just do not feel like getting dressed up and going to deal with some prosecutor. I want to sit at my desk and not speak to anyone and just do my research and writing.

then this is what you should do

My stupid viral thing has turned into a sinus infection.. those are fun! Really can't wait to feeling back to normal.

In other news.. can I just brag on my little girl? Her dance studio puts on The Nutcracker every year at Thanksgiving time. We went and saw it last year, and she fell in love and has talked since then about being in it. You have to audition for the roles though, soooo I was a little leary.. but I let her audition... and she got TWO roles!! lol. She is going to be a mouse and that is the role she really wanted! She will also be a dancer in the big opening party scene as well. There was lots of excitement in our house this morning when the cast list was put out!!!

Thanks Granite! Maybe we should both just do what we feel like doing today. LOL.

I think the lack of sleep is contributing to how depressed I have been feeling. Cannot seem to shake it. The kittens are really adorable though, and it's weird how they cheer me up, but also are mostly likely really contributing to me being really down. I am not looking forward to getting them new homes. I have gotten really attached to them. I am a crappy foster parent.

you are not a crappy foster parent at all .I could not raise kittens at all .it takes huge amounts of work

We were such crappy foster parents that we ended up with three extra pets. We never (and by we I mean my partner) let them leave us. She sobbed all the way home from the first foster event we took one of the animals to (where potential adopters were) and it never got any better.

I hope I never come across a stray animal because it will sooo end up being mine (unless the dog just isn't cat friendly...I want a dog so much, sigh).
If it's a cat or kitten, the other option would be to leave it in a carrier at my vet's office for them to find in the morning, right before they get there...I have totally thought this out.
They hate that, but it's happened a few times and they have found awesome homes for the kittens after giving them proper vet care. I would never tell them it was me, though...I used to go out with one of my cat's vets and he would be so pissed!

My former vet had so many abandoned animals at his clinic that they had to install a security camera and a sign asking people not to do this. It is a real strain of resources on a small business like a vet. It is best to bring them to a shelter.

The no-kill shelter refused to take these babies because they are 'strays.' There is no shelter in our county at all. Animal control consists of a sheriff's deputy coming out and shooting problem animals. The local vets are not really set up as rescues, and the only vet that DOES try to operate a small rescue refuses to take kittens that need to be bottle fed. The kittens were so tiny when we first got them (about two weeks), that I did not think they would live through the night if we just left them somewhere. I felt very stuck. At first I did not even like these kittens and I thought it would be easy to hand them over to the rescue when they were on solid food, but I have grown so fond of them that it will not be easy at all.

Anyone want a little terrorist kitten who is pretty homely right now, but will be gorgeous when her fur grows back? I named her Lucy-fer at first, because she was so aggressive about food. As she has gotten better and further out from the trauma of almost dying of starvation, she has settled down and is a really amazing kitten. A total survivor, but very sweet, loving and cuddly. [she will still bite the face off of another kitten that gets between her and the food, though, if we go too long between feedings.] She gets along great with adult cats and dogs. I have renamed her Lucy Fur. My H calls her Lucy Purr. So far no one who has looked at the kittens likes her because she just isn't all that great looking. But she is GOING to be gorgeous, really, when her fur comes back. She is a really lovely dilute calico.

Well, I know my vet's practice is very, very well off (since I know him personally), and they have only had a few animals dropped off over the past few years. I am sure the better way for me to handle the situation, were I actually IN it, were to speak to him about taking the animal and trying to find a home for it. He told me a few days ago that they are going to have one animal up for adoption at all times in the future, so that was nice to hear.
I just couldn't bring an animal to a shelter. It's almost a death sentence where I live.
ETA: There are tons of rescues around here, all made up of volunteers and all full. You can't even talk to them about possibly taking an animal.

MKAC,

Hugs to you for taking care of those kittens...it sounds like its been a ton of work. "Lucy Fur" made me laugh, very creative.
I have a calico who is 8 now. I got her from a shelter, and she was a holy terror as a kitten...for the first 10 months I was afraid she was going to burn the house down when I left for work. She has calmed down alot over the years but is still very gregarious...I didn't know until after I got her that calicos have such strong personalities.

Like there is no f in chocolate

Ear worm alert, don't blame me, someone else posted it first.


Reminds me of being a teenager and saying a big F-You to convention. Then, like most other losers (or what my T would call abused young women needing security), I said hello to it again, ha.

At least I'm having this midlife crisis to put me back in touch with that brave girl again.

This has been a crazy week where I have repeatedly lost track of what day it is (it is Friday now right )

Thanks to Leah, I have a new favorite song. And thanks to hankster, I cannot stop thinking about chocolate. I just bought some little Dove milk chocolate nugget things. They are pretty decent, but not as good as Milka chocolate. MILKA: Alpine Milk Chocolate Bar: 10 Count

My favorite is probably Lindt though. I like it much better than Ghirardelli chocolate. But I like Ghirardelli cocoa for making brownies.

ummmmmmm chooooocolate.

I am not a huge chocolate person. It is okay, but I like a lot of other things a lot better.

Have you tried Sees? Best, most homey chocolate ever.

Yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

However, Ghiradelli is from my hometown: rather than the bars though, I think the way to go with them is at their ice cream shop in Ghiradelli Square as hot fudge on a sundae. Ooooh so good, wish I was there. Massive, overpriced hot fudge sundaes. You can even take a cable car ride there for the treat, a lovely S.F. experience. Takes me back.

Oh, i just figured out why i was thinking about it. Last night i read they were opening a new branch of a local upscale grocery store that sells See's. The new branch will be on my side of town. There is another store on the opposite side of town, where t lives, but whenever i do stop by that store, i am too paranoid that i will encounter t, to stop by the candy counter. But i used to live in california and boy do i love See's. The new store might open in a year or so? So i have time to prepare

I like caramel or butterscotch better. And sweet tarts most of all.

I don't have anyone in the world to really share this song with who will get "me," the way it makes me wanna dance and cheer.

I can share it with my husband, that's not nothing, but... it's different to give something than to have it received...

Here's to changing that.

In a year... I won't be stuck at home working all these hours and doing school. I'll have room for flesh and blood people in my life. To share authenticity. It may be the PTSD that tells me I might be wrong, or it might just be that I am very very tired, but... luckily the future doesn't need me to believe in it to exist.

And tomorrow is my 16th wedding anniversary. It seemed as unremarkable as everything else until I got a call and someone told me it was an accomplishment.

Hey, I've been married 16 years, and that's not a bad thing. Ha.

And these last couple, I didn't think I'd make it more, and now I kinda really do.

So I'm glad for that through all my crying, ha.