Couch 78: Put your feet up and stay a while

Hello everyone. I have a counselling 'review' next week (first week back after an 8 week break) and I don't know what to expect - I am afraid it is her way of terminating me although she assured me it isn't - I'm still afraid. I don't know what I want to achieve. I just want to feel wanted! It's all such a mess. Why does she need to review unless she is not happy about my progress? I am so fearful that I am not doing well enough or making good enough progress. I am not worth her time. I don't deserve her time or attention. Has anyone else had a review? I've been seeing her for around 18 months. She assures me that she will not terminate me and that she is bringing the review forward to stop me worrying about it. She says she thinks I really need to continue seeing her weekly as I need support so why review? I just feel she is disappointed with me. Just need to let it out... Sorry.

what is a FOO?

Family Of Origin = FOO

Ooooohhh okay. makes sense.

Aaa, I think granite gets reviews. It seems like its more related to the type of business your t works in, than to the type of therapy or the client or anything even remotely personal. I cant believe they dont understand that the client could get freaked out by it. It sounds like a work review or an effin school report card. How do they not realize that and address it?? Anyway, really, its more to keep the ts in line. Its stupid tho.

yes i do get reviews. I guess my insurance requires a review every 6 months . foe a while my T would just do them and I knew nothing .one time she told me we needed to do a review and I freaked . she explained about my insurance and that she could continue to just do them with out me but felt I should have a voice in them also

Speaking of putting my feet up (the name of this couch thread lol) has anyone heard of this? I got these orthotic insoles for my shoes a month or so ago, custom-made arch supports basically and they've been wonderful - until this past week. For 5 straight days, I was on my feet 9 hrs a day walking back and forth from cube to cube answering questions from new CSR's pausing only long enough to eat lunch sitting down mid-day for maybe 30 minutes. Now the bottoms of both feet are numb, and they have been hurting like they are deep-bruised or something on the inside. It is so weird. I guess I'll call the foot dr. on Tuesday if they aren't better. It's just weird. They hurt, but are numb at the same time. Any thoughts?

Are you happy with your progress? Do you feel you are headed in the right direction? These are legitimate questions for your T to ask.

I need to cut the grass but it keeps raining.

You know what I can't stand? People who think it is ok just to reach out and hug people. I know that they are well meaning, but its just not for me. I seriously couldn't get all the way through the door inside without three people hugging me. It is just so violating and fake feeling for me. I know I sound like a grump it just bothered me so much today!!

One of the things I like about living in the desert, we don't have grass to cut, our yards are rocks...

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I had something come up recently that I found upsetting but I didn't let it happen... My T said it was "more than upsetting"... Now I find myself questioning everything I know or think I know...

And I feel like I can't really discuss my worries and concerns with her or anyone because of confidentiality rules...just stuck with this utter sick feeling in my stomach.

anybody on the couch deal with Bipolar or having somebody close that does, and you would be willing to talk to me about it?

I feel the same way...I don't like people touching me unless I say it's ok, and it really is ok not to want to be hugged by the whole world! I am all about protecting my personal bubble!

My father hardly ever hugs me (we don't get along well, and I did not grow up in an affectionate environment...my parents were neglectful). One day recently I went by his house to get some stuff and he walks out with his arms wide open...um, no. I told him no, too. Forget that!!

Worked out how to use my phone as a wifi hotspot, which is very handy as my internet isn't being installed til tomorrow.

My sibling is like a giant hug bear. I dislike most hugging. For me, I think it is more personality than my upbringing.

Um... Why do you have a huggable avatar?

I am confused about whose confidentiality would be at risk here. Are you talking about you talking about another person to the therapist as breaking confidentiality or the therapist breaking confidentiality if you talked to her about the situation.
I personally would tell the therapist about the concern over confidentiality to see if there was a way around it.

How is the move going?

It was sarcastic joke thing.. it has been up for over a year now. Though, it is true I haven't always been anti-hug, and its not to say that I don't crave hugs sometimes.. just not by random people from my church who practically pull me in against my will!!

The move went smoothly, thanks SD. My only problem is 2 of the beds I got from the charity shop are broken. When I saw them they were already assembled and the weight of the frame kept the legs in place. When I was tryign to assemble them the bolts wouldn't hold as the thread is stripped in the leg section. I am seeing the shop today as the mattress they gave me as a double is actually a queen so I have been sleeping on a mattress hanging over the edges. I love the area, even though several people said it wasn't good area. Lots of trees and wildlife. The girls think it's "awesome"

Late to responding to this, but...I have orthotics, too (bad plantar fasciitis). The ones I have are quite stiff. I imagine if you are not used to wearing them for 9 hours at a time, and for 5 days straight (kudos to you for standing that long, btw, ugh!), then that's a lot of firmness to have under your feet for that long. I know my orthotics don't "give" very much. I can see how your feet would be sore and might feel bruised from all the pressure. The nerves have probably been temporarily affected as well, thus the numbness. I imagine you should start to feel better as soon as you spend some time off of your feet!
Are they starting to feel better? Have you tried icing them at all? Some anti-inflammatories would probably help as well.

I have bipolar - you can PM me if you want - I'll try to help!!

I didn't even THINK about how stiff they are, yeah, mine are very stiff too. I didn't think ahead and bring the normal shoe insoles. Still numb but less so and more sore than numb now. I'll try ice that's a good idea. And yeah already taking naproxen. Thanks!!!

Hopping aboard the self-pity train.. Choo, Choo...

Seriously, I am a horrible wife.