[BlessedRhiannon]

Last week, I was just a week in to a med change when I saw my T. I was a little hyper and...I dunno...clingy or something. I guess I was just weird...kinda off. So, I feel like I was completely obnoxious last week in our session. I know I probably wasn't, but I acted in a manner that is outside my norm, and now that I'm more stabilized on my new meds, I'm embarrassed about how I acted last week.

I'm really nervous about seeing T tomorrow because of how I acted last week. I think my T probably understands that my behavior was being influenced by the new meds. And, really, what I consider obnoxious and what she might consider obnoxious are probably vastly different. I'm incredibly reserved normally, so even just being more chatty than normal is "obnoxious" behavior for me.

Still, I could use some good thoughts, encouragement, whatever for tomorrow's appointment.

I felt like I was weird and bizarre last session, but my T assured me my behavior was fine. He listed some behaviors he would find obnoxious and it really made me laugh because they were things that are just SO far over the line. Nothing you mentioned sounds awful or like something that would really upset a therapist.

[BlessedRhiannon]

Thanks MKAC - I feel like I was acting weird, but I probably wasn't. I feel like I should apologize to my T...but she's already remarked that I often apologize for things I don't need to. So, I think I'm going to ask T if I need to apologize to her. At least that will give us the opportunity to discuss my behavior.

[Polibeth]

I'm sure you were probably fine - t has dealt with worse before, I am sure of it. No need to apologize.

[guilloche]

Good luck... you might just ask her, instead of apologizing (or asking if you need to apologize)? Like, "Hey T - I felt like I may have seemed a bit weird last week because of my med change. Did you notice that?"

Good luck... I know sometimes I feel like I'm coming across oddly (sometimes I feel like I'm talking really fast, and afraid that I look more manic or overly excited). Sometimes I remember to check it out with whoever I'm talking with, and usually, they haven't noticed anything at all... so it's just how I'm feeling, apparently.

Yes, I've been there too--I understand how you feel.

I've been obnoxious from hypomania, more than once, and ended up apologizing to him later. I was so embarrassed...but also had text messages that verified I was acting this way.

I think it's a good thing to experience all emotions that come up in a relationship with our therapist. Especially the difficult ones.

She will likely be really understanding and I think you will be relieved.

[Bipolarchic14]

Go in there as if nothing happened. Chances are you think it is worse then it is. Atleast I know I generally do.

[BlessedRhiannon]

In case anyone's interested - I met with T today. She did not feel an apology was warranted, but she did remark that I seemed more insistent than normal, less able to tolerate distress. She didn't find me annoying, but did feel that the text message I sent her after session was kind of crossing a boundary. Texts are usually reserved for more emergency situations or scheduling, not just to complain, which is kinda what I did. So, I probably wasn't wrong in sensing annoyance from her about the text, but she didn't actually say she was annoyed.

Basically, all T said was that I didn't owe her an apology. She did agree that my behavior was outside my norm, but not extreme by any sense. So, I just know that it's something I have to be aware of now. T gave me some additional tools to cope with feelings and I think we're good again.