How to live? Help

I didn't know where to post this.
My workmates are against me and say Im sick even public.
People hate me. It's not my imagination. My schoolmates doesn't talk to me anymore. People all my life were against me and it's for real.
I don't see any reason to live.
Nothing can ever help me, I feel cursed. No one ever needed me, they would be happy if I died.
Don't say that therapy will help me. It can't change reality.
Even being with friends if friends exist doesn't help me. Even being with my boyfriend doesn't help me. Nothing helps me.
Why to live?

Live for you and for the realities yet to be known. Try for something different. Don't rely on those you find unreliable; instead rely on yourself and gain faith in yourself, and see if it doesn't change your outlook. Meet new people if the ones you are around aren't inspiring you.

It beats the alternative. It would be a shame not to have checked out other possibilities. Maybe what you've experienced thus far in life is only one one-hundredth of what is still out there for you.

Let your haters be your motivators. If they talk trash about you, why? Because they have nothing better to do, because they are small-minded. Be better than that and be proud.

Just a few ideas.

So what should I do? To surrender and go away from my working place and try to find new job? I don't want to surrender, I don;t want them to feel happy they get rid of me.

My girlfriends are selfish *****es. Sad but true. Girls use to hate me for nothing, so I don't believe in true friendship.

If Im honest I want to kill some people but I won't

Nah, don't give up your livelihood over some jerky people. Just smile knowingly at them, it will confuse them. Be better than they are, and let your satisfaction come from that.

Like that expression, "kill them with kindness", for they shall not know what to do.

Thank you, I will try to look too happy. Good idea.
I just don't know how. I hope God will help me.

To be honest, I kind of like when people hate me for no good reason. It gives me a window into who they really are, into the kinds of things that they allow to define their behaviors. It gives me more power, releasing me from any misguided inclination I might have had previously to overextend myself to them.

That they would allow themselves to take on inappropriate behaviors as a result simply means that they are challenged about something about you. That they are out of control actually means that you have some power over them, even though they are making a point of acting out the opposite of that principle.

As nietzsche said "we are the abyss and the tightrope" or something like that.

Great my boss told me she doesnt want me to work here anymore...

What happened??? Were you fired or did your boss just make a nasty comment?

I don't know yet. She said she wants to do it and when I tried to understand what's happening she said- go away, I have no time, no one wants to work with you.

Okay thanks God I have two friends there and I felt better after talking to them but still horrible.

Could say, sorry you feel that way. Better make it stick and not create a legal mess if you fire me.