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Originally Posted by ThingWithFeathers
I haven't told her how I feel. I would cry. I don't handle closeness well, it's not a feeling I've learned to work with - it makes me feel vulnerable and emotional and, well, like crying. I would just cry and shake a lot and that would be too much for her and for me.
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It took me forever to say it, but I am so glad I did. It was a breakthrough. No, it won't be too much for your T, I'm sure she already knows! It's just really hard for you... It will make you vulnerable with someone you care a lot about, and my guess is that hasn't turned out well for you in the past, but maybe it will now? Maybe this is your chance to have a real moment with someone that doesn't hurt you in return, and maybe that will be a good thing? Just a thought. What finally got me to do it was a lot of thought, what's the risk, what's the reward, etc. I decided I loved my T and he had to know, regardless of the consequence, and everything worked out. Crying is ok. You don't have to make a whole long thing of it either, you can just say "I care about you." It's still scary though, I get it!!