I see my T today.

Sunrise, good luck at your session today. Maybe let T know what you wrote-- that you feel he might push you away. Hopefully he will be able to give you some reassurance there. I really hope your session goes well.

I'll be seeing my T as well today. I took a personal day from work because I have so much school stuff piled up, and I really need a whole day to focus on it. Of course all I can do is think about my session, which isn't until 5 o'clock. And I am already thinking about tomorrow, and how much I'll hate it because it will then be a whole week until the next session. I can't even handle seeing my T anymore, I feel pathetic.

Thank you, pinksoil. I hope your session goes well today too. ((((hugs))))

((Sunrise))

I survived my session with my T. It was good! I was so scared after our last session that we would never be the same. He explained to me again why he had been so hard on me last time. He didn't apologize for how he had been and that wasn't what I wanted, but he made sure I understood why he had been that way. I said I understand. (I am now glad I did call him in between sessions, as this let him know how serious it was for me. I have never called him before and don't do it lightly.) I told him I was sorry and he said that wasn't the issue. I told him firmly that it is an issue for me, and he quieted down and let me apologize. He told me he didn't want to minimize what I had to say and that he accepted my apology and thank you. Very warm and sincere.

He said maybe I had never had a relationship like this before, meaning him and me, and I agreed. He said this is what health looks like. It warmed my heart to hear him use "health" to describe us. I am striving toward that, and learning as I go.

He talked a lot more than usual for the rest of the session. He had a lot to say to me.

We have so much work to do yet. I wish I could see him twice a week so we could make faster progress. I can understand why therapy can take years.

I am feeling much better!

sunny

Yay sunrise!!!!!!!!

I'm so glad to hear this! Sounds like things went really well and much better than you expected.

Yay!!!!



Sidony

That's awesome Sunrise!! I'm glad that you're feeling more reassured now. I wish I could see my T twice per week, too.

Thanks, sidony and pinksoil. I'm still feeling so great from my session. I think because of that hiccup in our client/T relationship, our relationship has only deepened and grown. You know--no pain, no gain. I feel great.