[brokenwarrior]

I had two seasons last week. My usual one on one session and then one with a family member. My usual session went just as it always does but the second one was not good at all. I don't want to get into it because I get paranoid that T or someone I know might find me on this site but I left extremely sui and acted on those thoughts. Basically, I gave myself a ultimatum and it ended up being enough for me not to go through. I'm pissed at my T but mostly at my family member. However, now I'm in this mind set that my family member needs more help than I do and I feel like I should stop trying to help myself and focus on helping them. I feel so selfish. I have my one on one session tonight and I don't know if I should go. I don't know what to do. I feel so lost and so alone. Sorry I just felt like I needed to get this out there.

[joj14]

It might be beneficial to go and talk about everything...feeling Sui, your feeling like you have to take care of family, your anger. Just lay it all out there. I'm glad you didn't go through with your plan.

[SnakeCharmer]

I do hope you go and discuss your feelings about the session and your family member with your T.

It may very well be the case that your family member needs therapy and other help, but if you don't take care of your own needs, with the help of your T, you won't be in any position to help anyone else. It's not selfish to take care of yourself.

My mother actually needed therapy much worse than I ever did but she wasn't made that way. All of her children ended up in therapy.

If I'd dropped out because she had such big problems, I'd be a mess today. I might not even be alive. Sometimes it just makes far more sense to keep taking care of ourselves than to put our lives on hold because someone else in the family may be more disturbed than we are.

Unless the other family member is your minor child, there's not much you can do for them. If it is your minor child, you definitely could use the advice of your T on how best to proceed.

Hang in there!