[sweepy62]

Today's session was supposed to be about saying c s a words, but for the past 4 days my h has been torturing me emotionally , threatening to call t and pdoc and tell them I wouldn't be attending therapy anymore , and I wouldn't be taking meds.

I have been so upset and paranoid that I stopped meds for 4 days, and my anxiety and hyperness have been bad.

As soon as I sat Down I spilled my guts , told her about h, she noticed my behavior right away hypomanic, as I lack sleep.

I even told her about my past job and being assaulted OMG , she just listened. She was so greatful that I was so open with her, but wanted me to be med compliant, worried about my health, sleep and not eating.

We did not talk c s a words due to this stressor , but I did tell her the holidays are very triggering and next week, we will start working on those triggers, and the some words .

[StressedMess]

*hugs* Sweepy do you have anyone to share with besides your h? He doesn't sound like a very comforting individual and truthfully he seems to be exacerbating your symptoms rather than supporting you.

Sounds like you had a wonderful session, feels good to get it out doesn't it? Good luck to you over the holidays (my least favorite and most stressful time of year) and keep posting if you need support!!

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by StressedMess

*hugs* Sweepy do you have anyone to share with besides your h? He doesn't sound like a very comforting individual and truthfully he seems to be exacerbating your symptoms rather than supporting you.

Sounds like you had a wonderful session, feels good to get it out doesn't it? Good luck to you over the holidays (my least favorite and most stressful time of year) and keep posting if you need support!!

Thank you, Not supportive at all, I grew up in a dysfunctional environment to marry a dysfunctional individual , to me it was normal. I was to the point of calling crisis hot line , I was about to burst into pieces. It was a very good session finally.

Holidays will be rough as usual, wish I could wake up to January 2 .

[JustShakey]

Sweepy, I hate to say it, but it sounds like your h is acting an awful lot like mine would He used to pressure me to quit therapy too...
It's next to impossible to get any work done when you're trying to deal with this kind of stressor. At times it was all I could do to just keep stable. It helped a lot when I just stopped looking for any type of support from him and closed myself off emotionally. Of course that's a death knell to any relationship...

[HazelGirl]

Sweepy, have you considered leaving your husband until he gets his ***** together and shows that he is on your team?

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by HazelGirl

Sweepy, have you considered leaving your husband until he gets his ***** together and shows that he is on your team?

Yes that's my goal in therapy, to gain confidence, self esteem , financial stability, by next year with gods help, t is going to help with those goals. It's good and bad with him, it's like I'm always on guard emotionally.

[unaluna]

Dudette, its time to step into your MIL's shoes and start bossing that good ole boy around! He's used to it, he would probably like it boy im pokin everybody today!!

[JustShakey]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

Yes that's my goal in therapy, to gain confidence, self esteem , financial stability, by next year with gods help, t is going to help with those goals. It's good and bad with him, it's like I'm always on guard emotionally.

Sometimes you can't wait for these things, you just have to do it.

[eskielover]

I understand the having to wait.....I ended up having to wait 13 years (longer actually) because of the financial mess that he got us into.....I have been waiting the last 7 years on top of those 13 because of the IRS problems he got me into with my inheritance that I used to leave him with.

When the door opens be ready to fly & just be watching for the opportunity....it will happen. I blew it when we first got married & stayed married instead of getting divorced then...I hid out in my degree & my career not realizing how horrible life would be without those escapes from him.

I understand going from dysfunctional parents to dysfunctional H. I had no idea that he was as dysfunctional as he ended up being. I blamed the dysfunctional of my parents on their lack of education....but with insight now after they have died....I realize it was a lot more than that.

You have a lot of struggles to work through....glad you have a good T who works with you & through the issues that hit you like this....keep up the good work

[Syra]

I totally undertsand waiting until you are ready to leave. IT's never an easy decision - to make, or to implement. And it generally goes much better if someone is prepared as possible. sometimes leaving earlier is necessary. Sometimes waiting for things to be in place is better. Hard for someone else to know what is best for you.