[Crook32]

I was supposed to start a php program today but it got cancelled because of the weather. So now I have to wait until Thursday. I am so anxious and really don't want to go. I only got talked into it because last week I hit rock bottom and I didn't think my T would see me anymore if I didn't agree to go. Having to wait two more days to start is really going to be hard for me. I just want to get it over with. I just wish I could see my T again before going but there is no chance. And now I won't see her for at least 3 weeks maybe 4 depending on how long I stay in the program.

[ThisWayOut]

I'm sorry it got cancelled and now the anxiety is prolonged. Could you perhaps call T for a check-in to help you get through the next day (it really is only 1-1.5 days since Tuesday is coming to an end shortly)?
I hope you are abel to get the support you need.
Would you want to vent about it here? We're no T, but we can listen...

[Bipolarchic14]

I have done this before. I was really embarrassed about it. It turned out to not be so bad. How mine worked is you had to write down three positive things you did the day before and share. We would each bring a topic that we wanted to discuss. They teach DBT skills. You see a pdoc. For me it was to discuss getting on the meds I was denying I needed. Things like that. Now I hate large groups and had a great deal of anxiety in social settings. This was the hardest part. Very helpful overall, as much as I hate to admit this. I still use the skills I learned to this day. Try to relax. You will be fine. Just remember other people that are in there are struggling just like you.

I did this kind of program about 15 years ago. It was much better than I had expected. I don't know if it was just by accident or what, but there were several people in it who had very similar problems to mine and it was amazingly helpful hearing their stories.

Even the lunches were helpful, if not that tasty, because I hadn't been eating very regularly or well.

I got a recommendation for a wonderful new p-doc from someone else in the program, too.

[Crook32]

The groups really worry me because I don't like talking in groups. I am also worried about changing my meds. I have emailed my T a couple of times but it just isn't the same as seeing her. I don't want to email her too much because she deserves to have a break from me.

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[eeyorestail]

I did a PHP in October...I had very low expectations, but it was actually helpful. I've never been a fan of group therapy and while it was challenging, it was manageable. Just wanted to wish you well.

[Bipolarchic14]

Originally Posted by Crook32

The groups really worry me because I don't like talking in groups. I am also worried about changing my meds. I have emailed my T a couple of times but it just isn't the same as seeing her. I don't want to email her too much because she deserves to have a break from me.

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I was like you. I would get anxiety attacks in group settings. Though I still get anxiety in crowded places, I have been doing a lot better. For me, it came from exposing myself to uncomfortable situations. The more I did this the less anxious i became. It was not overnight though. Slow progress, but I am happy that i have been working on this as oppose to letting fear and anxiety shape my life. Good luck tomorrow.

[Crook32]

Well it is time to take the plunge. All the xanax in the world isn't going to help my anxiety right now.

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[Bipolarchic14]

Don't mean to pry, but how was your first day?

[Crook32]

It was horrible. My anxiety is so bad around the groups and it is all making my depression worse. Plus they aren't looking to make any med changes yet and that is the whole reason I came here. I am so frustrated.

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[Bipolarchic14]

I am sorry to hear that. Keep struggling through it if you can. No pain no gain