Couch 90 - nine tee - not nine teen.

*shuffles in and sits on couch*

Bringing my own blanket to T today - hope she doesn't think I've lost it. We'll probably be talking about difficult crap and I wanted my own comfort.

Only a monster this morning, still pretty tired though, couldn't find my minds off switch last night. Yesterday was half horrible and half enlightening - interesting memories resurfacing (negative) along with new insights (positive). I think I shorted out my on/off switch with overheating my brain.

Gives hugs around to all those that need/want/will accept them: (((rainbow))) (((healed))) (((all others I might have missed)))

If that therapist said to me even one or two of things people report wanting hear a therapist say to them, I would be insulted and think she was a bigger condescending, patronizing jerkwad than I already do or just a flat out raving lunatic.

And good morning Stopdog! I love the word jerkwad!

I have just realised that it's just over three years since I first met my current T. I didn't start seeing him for therapy until early June, and then I only had three sessions before his holiday, so my therapy didn't properly start until the end of August that year. But a couple of weeks ago was the three-year mark of my first pdoc appointment, which is when I first met him. I will quote from an email I sent to Supportive Friend after that appointment: "This guy may just be the polar opposite of a pinhead." And that's still my opinion of T.

An alliterative mixed metaphor. All the more interesting because of your actual proximity to a pole. Hmm. I propose cigars and further discussion in the library.

Don't forget to bring the whiskey and port.

Still not sleeping very well, so this morning during my kids first special I went out and bought myself a large coffee. Sure I feel a bit more awake, though.. it doesn't help that much. It is amazing how depression can make somebody feel sooooo tired.

To make it through the day, all free time I have is being spent doing stuff for my spring bulletin board. I think being creative helps to keep my mind occupied.

((((hugs))) to all of those who needs/ wants them.

I've been putting off and putting off crocheting those blackbirds because I'm afraid they won't turn out right. Today is for pushing through this. A few small errands aside, this is is all I'm doing today an by the end of the day I will have a prototype, written instructions, and a few others completed.

Fortunately I committed to someone that they're going to get this in a week or at most two.

Nervous today. Sigh.

Feeling like a spectacular mom today, playing with kinetic sand with the little. Playing is not fun. I don't enjoy it, usually. She brought it over and presented me with a cupcake, albeit a neon pink one with no icing. We had a blast destroying that thing. How is it that you can touch dirt and not feel dirty afterwards?

Any couchie wanna play something today? Gave me an instant perk-me-up!

The pre-session nervousness I thought I was avoiding has hit me like a ton of bricks. Gah.

I still haven't started crocheting. Now.

And this is why I'm in therapy. Or a big part. I'm stealing your word, Gah. I like it. It fits.

Has anybody here read Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides?

Sorry, no. Not a very useful answer.

'sup couch. Can someone hook up a caffeine line, IV style, to my arm?

The Marriage Plot is up next on my reading list, but I have not read Middlesex. Sorry, I'm useless today, lol.

I just ordered it. I love old detroit stories.

Line in.
You should be starting to feel it.

This is to Kay Dubs. One of those simultaneous posting things.

If you haven't, do. I am about two thirds of the way through it. It's really good.

I only saw the film of his book the virgin suicides, but that was fantastic.

Yes - I read it.

Just getting caught up on the last few days on the couch...


(sorry, I'm perpetually 10 years old)

Got my filling done today, glad to be back with my old dentist (who was on maternity leave for a few months), and the final countdown to 1 Billion Seconds Old is on.

I can now say that I just passed 1 Billion Seconds Old.

That was hell. I'm miserable. I'll live but I feel like I've been tormented.

*hides under couch with blanket*

Hi couchies need some help i want quick easy brownies recipe as i promised my girls id make them, but the depression is kicking my butt.
These are some of the ingredients i have plain flour, brown suger , raw sugar, cooking chocolate and aroung 375 g butter. I amjust sick ofsearching google and you guys can guarantee they work