[Christina86]

So I know I said therapy had been terminated with my current T. That is still true ... but there is another T in the picture sorta. She's one of the facilitators of the psychotherapy group I was a part of.

I had an appointment with her today.

I've had a really bad day today (including a fire alarm that made me half an hour late for the appt!) so I was glad to talk to someone.

I felt horrible. Absolutely horrible. Crying, cursing and just generally being my mopey miserable self. Only difference? She accepted it! Nothing like someone reinforcing the fact that I'm allowed to feel crappy. Seriously.

She looked sad that I was being so hard on myself, but it's second nature to me. She told me that I wasn't wasting her time.... but I have a tiny problem there, whenever I talk I feel like I'm wasting someone's time! She was very nice to me, so that made me very happy. I'm touchy-feely, so I'm glad she made an effort to reach out to hold my hand. I so entirely needed it, you have no idea.

But in the end... and I don't want to go in depth about it, but I had to sign a contract for some stuff I talked about.

It seems I'm a bit too honest when I get emotional.

But all in all, I'm glad I went and I get to see her again when I get back from my vacation - YAY!

oh Christina ((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))

I'm so glad you found someone to support you. You deserve the support and i hope you continue to reach out. youa re such a kind caring person.

[SecretGarden]

Canders... this sounds good.... I am pleased for you. Well I was going to say that I had a OMG and excellent for you kind of reaction all wrapped up in one. I think that at least it sounds like you are on the right track and you were on a roll today.

[January]

((((((((( Christina )))))))))))

I am so happy for you and I am so very proud of you!

Hugs,

Jan

[jacq10]

(((((((((((((((((Christina)))))))))))))))))

I'm glad that you were able to talk to her and let yourself feel comforted by her. You deserve so much and i hate to see you hurting like that, but it makes me happy that you are able to talk with her about what you are going through.

Enjoy your vacation, I truly hope that you get the break you deserve.

(big) hugs
Jacq

[Christina86]

Thanks you wonderful bunch of people

(((((((((((((((((all))))))))))))))))))))))

The more I think about it, the more pathetic I feel but it's done now and can't be undone. She really did help, because I've been at my breaking point lately. I just hope I get through my holidays without breaking my contract in any way (I'd mention it here, but it could be triggerish)

I'll see her at least the once after I get back, and then hopefully transfer into therapy with my former therapist to deal with my "trauma issue".

[lauren_helene]

Good for you Canders!! I'm very glad that you found a caring therapist.

It is okay to be yourself and she validated that for you!