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[Partless]

Dear T, I need to tell you that I like tigergirl's avy, makes me feel all happy and romantic.

[Raging Quiet]

Dear t,

Why did you ask to hug me last week? it threw me off as I had my bag and coat on ready to go..

I don't think I can see you this week, i can hardly walk in this pregnancy and can't afford to pay you as maternity pay is pants.

Being a T is not a game. You treated it like one with me. You toyed with me and your other client. You just used us for entertainment. You caused me more pain than you could ever imagine. I hope you've learned how to keep something confidential. That is the basics of being a T to keep your client's life confidential. It's too late for me of course. My life is ruined from your mind games. I'm always the loser and you just added more loss to my life.

You also need to learn how to own up to the wrongs you've committed and apologize to a client. You need to do the right thing for once. I am still open to hearing your side, but I only want the TRUTH. NO MORE LIES.

[StillIRise]

Dear T:

I feel so let down. I don't really know that I want to see you tomorrow.

[JaneTennison1]

Dear T

I feel secure you are there, secure I can ask for help, secure in us. But I feel dreadful about things I've been thinking about and I wish I could go back to the messiness and have your reassurance.

[Raging Quiet]

Dear t,

I asked to see you at 2pm next week and you scheduled me in at 6pm?

Wtf? Couldn't you do any other day during the daytime!?

I've spoken to you about that being too late for me now I'm getting bigger and am on maternity leave.

P.s today is the anniversary of my friends suicide so I'm extra emotional and hormonal.

We aren't doing therapy any more are we? My anxiety is just the same. I cannot believe you booked me in for 6, I have told you I go to bed at 8! That's 2 taxis there to! You know how tired I get! When I'm tired therapy seems a waste of money as I feel too tired to even speak!

[junkDNA]

dear T

thank u for sewing moosolinis antler back on. im so glad he is back with me and that u saved him!! it means a lot to me!!!

me

[worthit]

Dear T,
I get frustrated at the fact that I have to suggest homework and work on bettering myself. I don't want to come day after day year after year and not get better. I want tools that will help me get out of my paranoia and my anxiety and will help me to be a better person, otherwise I'm wasting my time. So at least we're working on it now.

[Griff2015]

Dear T,

I am not doing so well...I have had a crap couple of days. I don't want to tell you about them. I don't want to answer your question about ranking how I am doing from 1--10 because I know I should be getting better. But I still feel like such a giant failure/waste of space. I know I need to keep coming to therapy. But I want to push you away like I have tried to push everyone else away. The thought of having to open up tomorrow makes me want to call your office right now and leave a message that I am not ever coming back to see you.

Dear some therapist, somewhere,

I am just in so much pain. Too much of whatever makes up a person inside is missing for me.

[ThisWayOut]

T,
really triggered tonight. no idea again how to reach out. don't want to leave you a message to come back to. don't want to bug the on-call coz it wouldn't make any sense to them (wouldn't make any sense to you either I'm afraid). don't know what to do. thursday feels so very far away.
t.w.o.

[eunoia535]

Dear T,

I like when you say you were thinking of me. It always takes me by surprise tho. I don't expect you to even remember what we talked about the week before, but you never forget. Thank you.

[pmbm]

I really want a hug from you before you leave for three weeks. But, I am sure that it would mess up this no maternal transference thing I have going with you. I also know you would say no. And I don't want to process why I want a hug from you. You'd end up understanding how needy I am.

[Ellahmae]

Dearest T,

Thank you.

Hi T, I'm sure you're already anticipating this question. I'm hesitant to ask it but. How will we know when I am done with therapy? I have thought I was a couple of times before, of course I know in retrospect that I was wrong then. I don't feel like I'm wrong now, though, in thinking it might be time to say goodbye. I've found my center, I feel strong and confident, I'm beginning to emerge as a natural leader at work, etc. It's just, ever since you made that comment awhile back that it was time for me to focus on moving forward, I have been working very hard on doing just that. So why do I feel a little shy about asking you that question?! Too bad there's not some kind of something like a turkey pop-up-timer that shows you when you're done with therapy. Ha ha. We really oughta talk about it though.

And oh yeah. I probably should talk about how I feel about the timing of this, too. Yeah, that.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

T, You told me when I'm lonely to listen to the recording of you talking about being lonely and how it's a state of mind. I did just that tonight because I was feeling lonely and depressed but I don't know why exactly. I've been up and down all day.

The problem with that is that I miss you more now than before. Listening reminded me of how you seemed to really be trying so hard to help me. I can't even begin to put words to how that made me feel. I've not had many times in my life where someone tried so hard to reach me, you know? I like that you admitted to being "foolish" for thinking that after my divorce I would be better and wouldn't need you anymore. I love that you said that I teach you.

Anyway, I'm just feeling so much love for you right now. I'm just so thankful that you've been part of my life. Thank you for recognizing your mistakes and for being willing to change direction if necessary. I hope you are sleeping well. Love, me

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by Griff2015

Dear T,

I am not doing so well...I have had a crap couple of days. I don't want to tell you about them. I don't want to answer your question about ranking how I am doing from 1--10 because I know I should be getting better. But I still feel like such a giant failure/waste of space. I know I need to keep coming to therapy. But I want to push you away like I have tried to push everyone else away. The thought of having to open up tomorrow makes me want to call your office right now and leave a message that I am not ever coming back to see you.

Ranking from 1 to 10 is a mug's game. I wish there was a simple blood test that would give an objective reading!

[jaynedough]

Dear T,
Hope you get over your cold soon.

Aside from your cold, that appointment was the best time I've had in a long while. It was the closest I've been to old me in a Very Long Time. The bad stuff is still there, but you helped me to see that the part of me that's been lost is still there. Thank you.

[ThisWayOut]

T,
I'm kinda up in the air about what to talk about with you tomorrow. I want to address so much, but I'm not sure I will actually address any of it at all. There's the neediness & how to handle that, there's the direction we should take (trauma or interpersonal stuff), there's the looming ending, there's my feeling of needing to censor because I don't want to cause you too much stress... and there's the disappointment and my desire to run from you last week. I just don't know what to cover or how. Part of me also wants to bring up the barriers to therapy ever being really effective, but you can't help with the biggest one because we are time-limited. The trust that you will be there just isn't going to build in the next 7 sessions (and what would the point be anyway, becuase after that we are done).
I hate this so much. I'm just so tired of continually trying only to find I am spinning my wheels in the mud. I may gain an inch, but then I get stuck again and the jeep rocks back to the original position again. It's all getting very pointless...
(please don't hate me)
~t.w.o.

[WrkNPrgress]

When you kinda forced your arms down at your side while saying goodbye after our last session, I could tell that you wouldn't have minded a hug.

... but I'm too damned shy

... and I'm afraid I would have held for too long...

... Damn it.

I don't really have anything to say, I just want to get your attention and tug on your trouser leg until you pay me attention. I'm not sure whether you understand me.

[ofthevalley]

Dear T,
This week I'd prefer to talk about me and my problems instead of your own.
Thanks

Dear T......I hate that you have a son, even though he is nearly as old as me, I hate that you have other clients. I hate that you are not with me 24/7. I hate that you don't tell me that I am the most special person on the planet. I also hate that you haven't offered to adopt me. I hate that you are not my dad.

[Ambra]

I found it on your website before meeting you, while looking for info. But you never shared it with me, so I don't want you to feel like you're being spied on and I couldn't tell you once again. Happy birthday, from the heart.