[lauren_helene]

Okay, I've only re-written this 20 times!

T: Comes out in the waiting room and calls my name
T: Greets me with a hug (no laughing at me yet!)
Me: It's easier for me to open up if you are sitting here with me rather than half way across the room!
T: Okay, <he sits next to me>
Me: <I lean back on his shoulder feeling comfortable>
T: So how do you feel today?
Me: Much better thank you!!!!

Then we have our normal session. My therapist reminds me of a guy friend I have. They have similar personalities. He's my gay friend so nothing ever happens in case anyone is wondering! We sit next to each other all the time. I kind of lean back on him and we talk for hours and laugh. It's really the only way I can open up like I need to.

I know, the above isn't therapy, it's friendship. See that's what I need, my T as a friend!!

Okay now you all can laugh!

That's sweet. It doesn't necessarily mean you want your T as a friend... you just want him to be close to you when you open up. I feel the same way. Here, I'll do a new one to make you feel better:

T: Hi.
Me: Hi.
T: Why are you sitting so far away?
Me: Hmm... I'm not sure. Thanks for pointing it out though.
:: plops down in T's lap. ::
T: Alright. So what's been going on this week?

Funny you should mention about your friend. I tend to get along better with gay males than with anyone. I have a gay friend with whom I will rest my head on, he will play with my hair, etc... it is so fu**ing comforting.... And I open up to him..

[lauren_helene]

Yes, Pink you've got it!! I'm not saying my T is gay, I have no way of knowing that. But I feel the same comfy feeling that I get with my other friend when we have a session.

I've felt from the beginning that I somehow knew my therapist, he was familiar to me. I don't think I've shared that with him. Maybe I should?

I am laughing at the 'plops in T's lap comment' I love it!