Couch 94 - Blowtorches R' Us

New book - the raccoon diet kinda explains MY buddha belly!

Flooding is very scary - I am on a hill but my area has been declared a disaster zone a lot due to it.

Someone left a stick of butter on the table and my ancient cat was licking the edges of the paper. My solution: fold back the paper so she can get to the butter. S's reaction: what is wrong with you?

be safe chris and everyone else affected by bad weather!! granite, sorry your t cancelled.
brony i can't even imagine having a racoon for a pet.... i remember the havoc they always wreaked at girl scout camp (i worked at one for 4 summers a long time ago) when the girls would only half-way block access to the outdoor pantries in the units. Holy cow! I would imagine you do have to chain up everything that has food in it. But they are so CUTE.... I can also see it would be worth it if you bonded with one as a pet! I love your stories.

I'm feeling like I'm coming down with a cold again... seems like at work we're just passing it back and forth and it may be full-on summer by the time we've gotten it out of circulation! So I'm doing laundry today, and watching tv.... maybe the cold will get bored with me and move along if I don't try to do anything exciting. It needs to get GONE before I see t in 5 days!! 5 days?! am I ready for this? Why yes, I am. I have an agenda and everything. lol

She is Sooooo cute!! she likes to give kisses and rub your back or arms with her little hands. They have the cutest back feet ever. I love to rub her little feet. But if she wants cuddles or scratching she is serious about it. She will make you stay where you are until she has had enough by sinking her claws in.... and when she plays with the dogs it's hysterical. ..

I just had a nap dream about therapy. I don't often dream during naps - but I was out cold.
In the dream - I walked in and the woman told me to turn on her tv with my iphone and I was baffled so she kept repeating I needed to see the video of Mrs. Winston. She finally grabbed the phone and could not get the tv on either - when she stood up I saw there was another woman sitting on a couch behind her - I asked who that was and what she was doing there and the woman said it was X(in the dream there was a name but I don't remember it) and that she just liked to watch appointments but if I was going to make a fuss, she would leave. So the therapist walked X to the door and I watched them chat and when the therapist turned back to me, the office was all different - the furniture had been moved around and there was a chair for clients so I went and tried to sit on it but it was covered in folded clothes so I sat on a different couch and the woman sat in a chair which was very far away and she started talking but I could not hear her. Then I noticed that all the other stuff in her office was being moved out while I was sitting there - the pictures were gone from the walls, and when I looked back at the therapist - she was wearing all white and still was talking but I still could not make out what she was saying.
Then the dog woke me up.

I wonder if that was really your therapist, SD. It might have been your mother in disguise.

I dreamed about my t a few nights ago. Totally weird. In the dream she came and picked me up at my house and told me to get the prescription she had written me for hydrocodone and she changed the date on it because it was expired and she wanted me to fill it and give her the pills because she needed them for a class she was taking. So I did it but I didn't want to. Then she left and I wanted to go get the pills back from her but I didn't know where she lived. I was worried about her.

Now of course that would never happen anyway because she isn't an MD and can't write prescriptions! This dream is on my agenda to work with her on when I see her Friday evening. People in our dreams are rarely really those people, so I wonder who she is representing, and what the pain medication is supposed to be?? And why would I fill an expired and altered prescription for a controlled substance?! I work for a pharmacy for heaven's sake I know what kind of trouble I could get into. The whole thing was weird.

art,

In Real Life, crap happens, and people too.

Ok that last post I just deleted was my drama for the week. haha sorry ya'all.

I know. I'm sorry you saw that....

It probably was not the therapist but it did not seem like a mom dream.

Art, if that were my dream I would say it was reflective of me being guilted into doing things that I know to be wrong and am very uncomfortable with for people I care about because I'm afraid of losing them...
I have a history of caring for the wrong types of people and I've gotten into some serious trouble because of it.

I wonder if it has anything to do with your bff's illness Stopdog?

Strange...for me if I dream of a person ( or horse, horses I know also show up in my dreams but not dogs strangely) it is THAT person and usually represents something real about my relationship with them. How strange dreams are that we have exactly the opposite experience! !

Evening couch. Well...the cleaning did not happen today. I slept in until about 1 pm. Then I started laundry and the lady I rented from asked me if I could help her with her "new" smartphone. She bought it about a year ago and put it back in the box and in a drawer and ised her old one because everytime her grandsom tried to teach her to use it, he got mad that she asked questions that he just explained.

So, she pulled it out earlier this week determined to learn to use it by reading the manual. She was lost, and asked me. I had to look in the manual for somethings as I have an iPhone and hers is an Android, so there are differences. Most I could tell what to do just by looking at icons and reading the on-screen things. Took me 2 hours to get her comfortable with it. She did ask the same things over and over, but she just wanted to be sure she understood. She is not real "old", she's only in her late 60's. But that is a little "old" to learn a new device as easily as a young kid. She can do the basics now though, so she is happy.

Got done with that and ended up watching TV with her for a few hours, trying to be social. So, cleaning just did not happen. I may try to do a little tonight since I am not tired and slept so late. I just can't stay up too late as I do have a 11-hour shift at CVS tomorrow afternoon/night (noon-11pm). Need to be awake for that.

Not doing so well psychologically/mentally. Haven't taken my oral meds in quite a while. It started out as one day waking up really late and being in a rush and not having time to take them. Then it turned into 2 days, then 3, then 4, then it got out of habit, so I wasn't taking it even when I had time. Lots of symptoms are rearing their ugly heads, and I assume the reason is the meds, though maybe not. Some say that assume does make an A S S out of u and me, so I don't want to 100% say that is the issue, though it more than likely is. Can't email T about it as the new one I am seeing does not allow email contact like my old one. I could call the after hours line, but she may not be the T on call tonight, so I am trying to decide if I want to email pdoc with what's going on or not, asking for advice on staying on top of the meds. Or I could just wait. I see T on Tuesday and pdoc on Wednesday, so I could just keep it in till then, it's not THAT far away.

Dunno, I just am trying to sort out my thoughts.

I cannot stay regular on my morning meds AT ALL. Theyre not even that tricky. I dont want to take them on an empty stomach tho, so once i think of them, thats it. Maybe i should keep them in the kitchen. Idk.

My dreams are never abstract. They are always about family get togethers or work or my apartment. Rarely they are about t. I did dream last week that my dad was yelling at me for not throwing him a 99th birthday party. He was like, ya know i might not make it to 100! He really would have been 99 this year but it didnt occur to me until this dream. My t said he was not surprised that i did math in my dream: I added my mothers age plus how much older he was, to get how old he would be. Talk about the long way around to 99!!.

Typed an email to pdoc, but did not send it, I deleted it. It would be nothing new to him that I wasn't taking my meds regularly, soemthing deep down still does not want him to know "for sure" about it. Hopefully, I will be able to talk to him about it on Wednesday, even though I know it will probably get me the "compliance" speech again. Maybe T would be a better option for suggestions. I'll see how it goes with her on Tuesday, then decide whether or not to bring it up with pdoc on Wednesday.

Off to try to clean a little. I'll pop back in here and there.

It can go either way with me. Lately the only dreams I remember have the stbx in them, and they're pretty blatantly about our relationship.
Usually if the dream has someone I know well in it, it's about that person. Or at least my experience of them...

The preliminary report is that they have 5 feet of water in their house, but they can't get there to really check it out yet. That's actually not as bad as they thought it would be, but all remains to be seen. They lost 3 calves they couldn't get out.

My grandparents were Nebraska farmers..my grandmother worked just as hard in the fields as any man...and had sixteen children besides (all single births.)

I have uncles, aunts and cousins who still farm. It's a tough life but they love it.

Cleaning going slow. 20 half-empty water, soda, juice bottles dumped and recycled. They all had floaties in them, so there was no way I would drink them.

Bed covered with snack food to put away. Hmm...

Oh and yea Ireland

Dreams, my brain rarely lets me remember and the one I had last night was a real doozy. I was in Walmart and a father and a very grubby little girl were asking me to dye her eyebrows (sounds familiar!) so the salesperson brought us a plastic swimming pool and set us up in the dairy aisle. I was washing grime off her face and dying her eyebrows but then I was rubbing her face showing her how to make different facial expressions and smeared the dye up into her hair. Then panic set in and I told her dad to take her to wash it off (we were still sitting in the pool!) in the bathtub of his choice. Then the scene changed to me sneaking food into the freezer of my friend (in a house that I didn't recognize but I knew it was L's overcrowded freezer) and she was making us late for work by changing outfits over and over (she's retired now and we no longer carpool) and I was freaked because I had to tell her to hurry (confrontation!) or I was leaving without her.

Abruptly woke up breathing heavily with heart racing and drenched at 5 am.

What the hell? Why can't I dream of going to the moon or being a superhero? And where is a Walmart that offers bathing in the dairy aisle and sells an assortment of bathtubs?

Was that little girl me?

Hi, couch. Is it "kosher" to ask for hugs? Having a really hard time dealing with last week's sessions. A lot came up that I'm so very confused about. Not sure how to handle it, what to do, how to feel...