I got really triggered somewhere yesterday. I could see myself "loosing it" but felt powerless to do anything but carry on. Afterwards I felt so desperate that i dont want to be held captive by my triggers all the time and so wished I had the strenght to stay away from those that I feel trigger me. But how? On one hand I seem drawn to situations that I know will eventually trigger me, but the anxiety and rage inside are so hard to contain, I need to get them out of me.

I laid in bed last night and promised my insiders that I will not put them in a place where they can be harmed, but Im so afraid I won't be able to keep that promise.

How do others deal with this???

[Perna]

For me, the triggers come and go, operative word "go" so eventually it's like taking a scary ride/watching a scary movie? And, eventually as I get to know more about the triggers and types of situations that cause them, I can deconstruct them and see "the man behind the curtain" and then they don't trigger anymore. I get "scientific" and objective and look for what's causing them rather than let their impact have me so badly.

hey. i know a promise you can keep: you will never leave them. never ever ever ever ever. you will always be with them and you will do your best to comfort and protect them.

[SecretGarden]

Were you with me at my mothers yesterday evening? All you said applies to me. I try to accept some, confront some and then feel bad and then apologize after I get home.

I wish I could see the man behind the curtains but generally I see crap in the mirror. I try to turn the page and keep going and know tomorrow is another day.

Then lately, I avoid my parents.... but feel guilty about that... and around and around we go. She means well. I know it. It just comes out wrong.

I am not overly sure I want to see the man behind the curtain as it might not be favorable.

Keep plucking Mouse and keep talking about it.

Sorry... not alot of help.

i just posted more to this in the SA forum. I think I'm begining to see why I hang around people whom trigger me. I',m attempting to rub out my horrors but putting on the person in the here and now. I've been drawn to this place and person for ages. Now I feel raw whenever I think of even going near this person! maybe it took this to bring the memory of the trigger to the forefront! I dont ever want to go near him!

[SecretGarden]

Is there a way to separate the two? Do you care to?

I'm not sure. I'm not sure about much. I'm sad at the denial that goes on in this world. I've been so stupid! No I've been so ignorant of who I am, I'm begining to learn who I am, exactly who I am.. I've been so warped by society. Swallowed all the BS of those that choose to abuse and refuse to admit to it! NO more!

[SecretGarden]

And you are......

I lately have been upset by several people's denial and putting crap on me. I am tired of accepting it and owning it and it would be nice if once in a while others would own their own crap.

[sunrise]

I think it's hard when the people and situations that trigger you are ones you have to be exposed to every day and just can't avoid. That's how it is for me. I try to just slog on through as best I can. It would be impossible to avoid these triggers, I would just end up being a hermit and not having a family or friends. I need to work on the root issues so that I can resolve those triggers so they don't trigger me anymore. Sometimes maybe it can help by acknowledging the trigger to the person involved. Like, "I hear what you are saying, but it reminds me of all the times you did X, and I'm struggling with that because those other times were so upsetting." It can help if they give reassurance, but they usually don't. I don't know if it's helpful for me to say that to them or not. I'm trying to find my way.