[ScarletPimpernel]

First, she comes out to greet me and she has purple hair! I love it! It says so much about her personality.

We talked about my email I sent to her. My issue with her being physically far away was resolved. She sat in the chair closer to me. The issue with tissues was resolved too. She apologized for not offering any when I cried previously, and would make sure she does in the future. As far as her expressions (facial, tone, volume, posture), she's not going to change any of that. She said she wants me to trust that she's there with me and feeling for me. She doesn't want to worry about her expressions and become distracted from what I'm saying. That's fair. She said she will not comfort me physically when I'm upset because it's a boundary of her. Okay.

We finally talked about hugs! She said she's more than okay with giving me hugs after each session as soon as I'm ready for it.

She was really sweet. We were talking about me projecting my fears of abandonment from ex-T onto her. She said she doesn't think that will happen to me again. She explained that extremely bad things rarely happen twice to one person. She used examples like lightning strikes, or shark attacks, or falling off a building (). I said according to her I won't be abandoned again. She responded that she's a pretty good judge of that. She told me I don't need to have so much anxiety about it and that she is not my ex-T.

And finally...the package. It's agreed upon: I'm opening it Wednesday morning at home with my fiance!!! And then I'll process it later with her. I'm so freaking excited!!! Everyone is happy, especially me. And I still am hoping that it's the book. You know I'm so updating you all come Wednesday.

But I really do think I'm starting to connect with my new T. Today was a really good day with her.

[Partless]

ScarletPimpernel I'm glad for you! It's nice when I read posts like this, makes me happy too. Hope this works out well.

[AnxietyMaster]

She sounds awesome! Reading this made me so happy! I am so glad you could find someone you could connect with in this ocean of fish!

[stopchewinggum]

I'm glad things are looking up for you.


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Thanks for sharing. What a positive tone your post has, I'm so happy for you!

[musinglizzy]

You certainly deserve this Scarlet, after all you've been through. Here's hoping your T remains amazing! I love the purple hair!

[emwell]

I'm so happy to see things are working out and improving. You sound so much stronger than when this all started.
Purple hair sounds so cool.

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[nervous puppy]

So happy to hear that things are working out for you and your new T!

[ScarletPimpernel]

Thank you all. I am super happy with new T. I can't believe my luck with finding her. It has really helped make this grieving process easier.

I think I can trust her. It's hard though to trust anyone after what happened. But one day at a time, right? So far, so good.

I can honestly say I'm proud of myself and how well I'm doing. I still miss ex-T, and am still dealing with the sadness and anger. I also still daydream about ex-T and think about there being a possibility for contact in the future. But I have definitely come a long way the past 14 weeks. I don't think I could have done this w/o all the support I recieved.

I just keep trying to move forward, trying to be patient with myself, and reaching out when I need it. If I've come this far in 14 weeks, I have high hopes for 14 weeks from now. I have even started a huge step: quiting smoking. I start today.

I'm just trying.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

Terrific - beginnings are often the most important time.

[ThingWithFeathers]

That's good to hear. Really pleased for you. Sometimes things work out well. Looks like you've found a keeper.

[emptyspace]

I think each time we leave a T, we learn more about ourselves and what we do or do not need in therapy.
No matter how hard it was with ex-T, you will have a better relationship with new T because of it.
Purple hair is very cool.