Couch 96: Where Furry Things Abound

That is really cool!! I bet it was awesome to watch!

That's how I am lately! Never enough time to get it all out - and I'm being really clingy, as evidenced by the email thing yesterday T actually offered to go to two sessions a week for a short while when he called. I could use it I think, but I don't know if I can afford it. Or if my schedule can accommodate it with the kids out of school... Argh! I hate single parenthood!

Why can't I be normal about my T going on vacation??? She leaves early Monday morning and I am trying hard not to text her and bother her but inside I am terrified. She said to call or text if I need her but I don't want to bother her and I don't WANT to need her!!!! Ugh why do I feel this way????? I keep feeling like I am going to cry

That is so cool!!!
Unfortunately since my guy is an orphan sometimes he thinks other horses are dumb and he can do something perfectly then if another horse does it nearby he will refuse to do it completely. Like "I thought side passing was cool til I saw that dumb *** do it! Now it's lame! "

Evening, couch.

I am home from CVS. I was early heading down that way, so I stopped and ate at Hardee's (haven't been there since high school) beforehand for supper. It was better than McDonald's tastewise.

I got to make tons of phone calls at CVS tonight. They got too busy to make any this morning, so I had the 9am round and the 4pm round to make tonight. We call people who are due for refills but are late getting them to see if they need refilled. we also call people who are out of refills to see if they want us to fax the doctor for more refills. Some people are nice about it, some are rude. I got mostly calm people tonight.

I probably made over 100 phone calls. Probably 75 people answered the phone. Of those 75, about 40 said to fax the doctor or refill theor script. My numbers should be pretty good this month due to that. Corporate rates workers and stores on crap like that. Our pharm manager thinks it is stupid, but unfortunatley has to deal with it.

My pharm manager actually told me I am good at phone calls and asked if I ever did telephone sales calls. I said no. He laughed and said that he guessed there was no explanation on why I am so good at it then. When I got home and checked my email, I had an email from CVS Values in Action. This is a site where people can recognize CVS employees and thank them. My pharm manager recognized me for accountability and thanked me for all my hard work and being dependable. Then he added a PS thanking me for my excelent work on the phone calls. Anyone in the nation can see these recognitions if they care to look, but most people only look at how people in their own store are doing. It felt good to be recognized.

My pharm manager had to be an "indian giver" (his calling himslef that not me). He told the other store he could spare me thinking I had my usual schedule and could use the extra hours. He was looking at the wrong week and gave me away one day on a 40 hour week. He realized this when I pointed it out to him again and had to call the other store back and say he was wrong and could not spare me because I was already scheduled 40 hours that week. He could spare to take 8 hours away from his store, since we are all at max hours right now. Oh well, I like my home store better.

I like making phone calls though. It means I don't have to deal with the register unless we get busy. I just sit at the computer/phone and run calls. The pharm manager thinks I am really good at it, so I am assigned to it a lot.

Other stores request me by name even if I have never worked in their store just from their pharmacists filling in at my store sometimes and working with me. It feels weird to be in high demand. I guess it means I am doing a good job. If I am ever offered full time for this, I would take it in a heart-beat. I really like it and seem to excell at it.

Now i want to learn horse psychology! T said if he had another life, he would want to do animal psychology. I said we could be partners cuz it wouldnt be a dual relationship because it would be another life. Then we started arguing about the business. Shortest DBA ever!

Eta - squirrel - that is so great!!! I give my t a status report on you every week. You young kids inspire me! I am so glad you came back to let us know how you are doing. Plus i relate to you a lot. One time i brought over to my mom's a spreadsheet that showed all the work on our project and who had completed what. My name was on about half of it, and there were 6 people working full time. But the family still says i did "nothing" at work. I am so glad you can separate your family's attitude from the actual real feedback you get at work.

There is a good book called "How to Think Like A Horse." I think it is by Cherry Hill.

I had a dog one time who was only motivated to herd if I took the other dog and worked with him first - then the first dog would come and butt the second dog out of the way so I would work with her instead. But if I just took the first one alone, she would look at the sheep and look back at me and then sit down - like what would she do with sheep?

Thanks Leah!! I'm in sunny southern CA. Not as culturally interesting as Seattle btw.

And a nightmare to drive in! I don't blame you being afraid of those freeways Growly! If you can drive in SoCal you can drive anywhere.

It's funny, I decided to take the job opportunity here in part because I thought it would help force me to get over my driving phobia. It's amazing how much driving I still manage to avoid!!

"htmare to drive in! I don't blame you being afraid of those freeways Growly! If you can drive in SoCal you can drive anywhere."

That's what I was hoping!! Lots more work to do.

Hankster - how did the meet up go? Was it just people who are registered on pc?

I had one of the neighbors' dogs attack me on the way back from the laundry room tonight. The owner was lighting a firework right in the middle of the path with the dog running around off the leash. Ugh. People are stupid.
I'm getting seriously tired of all the dogs that are let run around off the leash in this apartment complex. Some of the owners are downright questionable and I'm not sure how safe it is...

In my country you could complain to the body corporate, not sure over there.

I have been thinking about emailing T since my last session with him.. For some reason I am feeling this need to structure stuff, set out goals and priorities when it comes to therapy. T and I have been working together for 3 1/2 years. The reason I first sought therapy was b/c of panic attacks. I didn't only want a way to cope with panic and I wanted to know why I was dealing with such extreme panic. And of course, through the process of finding out why, we unearth lots of stuff and it makes sense that therapy has gone this long. However, for some reason in order to justify more time, money, and energy spent on therapy.. I need to have goals. But more importantly I kind of want to hear what T's goals are for me. Anybody feel this way about their own therapy at all?

I have founds goals to be helpful. I also don't mind therapy homework because I at least feel like I'm chipping away at my issues. That is the one downside of psychodynamic therapy--lots of talk but no real path towards change. Yes, a lot of change happened organically, but I think I need some structure too.

Have you ever brought it up with your T?

I'm going to complain to the office on Monday. At least they could send out send out notices about keeping dogs on leashes or something. If it continues to be a nuisance I'll call animal control. So many times I've had off the leash dogs run around my ankles barking. This is the first time one of them touched me. It was only a matter of time I suppose.

T thinks I've been doing well and holding up okay during this small trip I had to take. It's just what I've showed during our check-ins. I'm not doing well at all. Not sure how to tell her. I get to go home tomorrow then see her Monday. I'm sure as soon as she sees me she'll know.

What kind of idiot sets off fireworks with their dog right there? I am not a fan of fireworks that close to pets - usually fireworks scare them and they can run off and get lost or hit by cars.
And having unleashed dogs around fireworks is dangerous.

Did you get bitten?

******mit T!!! You promised to do ONE thing for me before you leave on your trip and you forgot about it!!!!!!!
Really???? ******mit. I'm not going to be able to sleep tonight. I hate that I care

I didn't get bitten- just scratched. I've had worse from the kitten really, but I'm pissed about it. The dog was just scared, but the way I've seen some of the animals around here treated, and the way I saw that owner treat her dog tonight... A scared animal is a dangerous animal. Fortunately the dogs in question are all small, but still.

I need to ask t for a 2nd session this week, I think this may be one of those times when she may suggest "turning up the heat". Hoping she says it, so I don't have to ask. I used to hate that phrase but right now I think it might be a good idea for me, as well. That one little innocuous-sounding sentence she uttered the other day well pretty much knocked my foundation out from under me somehow.

As messed-up as my head feels since I last talked with t, I did manage to put all of that aside for a couple hours and went to the REO Speedwagon concert tonight with hubby and another couple. I had so much fun! The music was so loud and so familiar I couldn't have thought about that t-stuff if I'd tried. We were in the 4th row, so when the lead guitarist was tossing guitar picks out into the audience, I got one of them! Coolness!

I did experience a few minutes of sweet memory when they did "Can't fight this feeling". I have the urge to share the story. I've never shared it with anyone but t. It was the first time I was ever in love, I was 23, and working at a national park that summer, met this woman and fell madly and passionately in love, and this song was playing on the juke box..... Ah, I should stop there probably. Sigh. Every time I hear that song I think about her though. I close my eyes and go right back to that summer.... (Art, stop it now. They don't want to hear the whole schmaltzy story!!)

I'll leave you all with that tidbit and bid you a good night! (or good morning!)

Bad dreams woke me...dreams started off good...but just ended ...