Couch 97: Prime Pyramids

Thanks for saying that. My t is a big believer in the wisdom that is within all of us and we look for and work w that.

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I kept thinking, "Its how you make cheese."

Then i realized what that meant: creating a tasty well-defined solid usable product from bland non-specific(?) amorphous materials.

Do i need to explain more? About how that cheese is our reclaimed life story? Im beginning to see why nobody ever understands me - i first thought "its how you make cheese" was completely self explanatory

Eta - again, at first i was thinking about how the canadians say kraft proe-cess cheese. But i feel more like a nice brie or camembert.

Having a morning where I just adore my H. I tried to to talk to my mother in person last night about the lies she is telling my younger sister about me, and she would not even come to the door. I could fuxking hear her talking to the dogs but she would not come to the door. She called later and left a message saying she did not hear the doorbell and thought the dogs were just randomly barking. If that is true, Genuis, why the duck are you calling me to say that?! (My phone apparently hates the f word today.)

Anyway, had nightmares all night and woke up with a migraine this morning. H got up and cleaned the bathroom for me just in case the migraine made me have to throw up. He doesn't send flowers or pretty cards, but he cleans the bathroom and does cat litter when I feel sick. That seems totally romantic to me.

Please don't tempt those of us who live close enough to help you with this.

Laughing SO hard. Thank you.

It is nothing at all like how you make cheese - I do make cheese. Cheese has clear, defined steps. One knows what is happening.
Therapists make therapy into something amorphous - they move the cheese/smoke and mirrors/deliberate obfuscation rather than clarity.

Ah - but youre not the cheesemaker in therapy. That would be like the snake eating its own tail. That was not a lawyer joke!

Eta - i want a meme like Cartman - instead of "Respect my authoritay!" it would be like "Respect my metaphor!" !

Ah - but I am the cheesemaker in therapy. I most assuredly would not let the therapist be that. The therapist, at best, may keep the cave where the cheese ages. The therapist as cheesemaker - bah.

Hi, couch.

I slept in today until about 11. Then I went to the bank to get my rent money out to pay the lady I rent from today. Now, I am just relaxing before heading into CVS. Have to be there at 4:30, so I have a couple more hours before I have to leave.

C every morning this coming week. I like C. Maybe we can go to the zoo a morning or 2. I have a membership where I get in free with one guest. I would rather walk around the zoo to get C exercise than take him on a bike ride around his neighborhood. He doesn't watch for cars on his bike and has to be reminded to stay with me. The zoo is much easier on me and is still "fun" for C.

Work all week next week. So, I will be going to C's, coming home and relaxing, then heading into CVS at night. Short shifts this upcoming week (only 25 hours for the week), but the rest before school begins will be nice. Then after next week, it will be back to the grindstone of having two jobs. I like to stay busy though.

I have to take my car into the shop on Monday. Last night, it started to struggle to shift gears sometimes. Hopefully it is nothing major. I called my dad though to see if he thought it would be safe to drive to work today and tomorrow, he said it probably would, so I am. If it has to stay in the shop, I guess I will have to get a rental car. Gah. Maybe it is something simple. Keeping my fingers crossed. Don't need the expense of a new car right now (even a "new" used one). My car only has 75,000 miles on it. Not bad for being made in 2000. Yes, it is 15 years old...so things can go wrong...just hoping it is worth fixing. I've only owned the car for 2.5 years. It only had one owner before me and they kept up with all the suggested maintainance. I have not (except for oil changes). Some things were suggested at 60,000 that I chose not to do. Maybe I should consider following the recommended check-ups and work. Heh.

Need to clean out my car tomorrow as I haven't most of the summer. I don't even know what items worth keeping are in there. :-P

You believe people can be made honest?

Disclosure can be mandated.

Personally, I don't think there is any one explanation of what "the process" is, because it is different for each person going through therapy. I think, and this is just my own view of course, that "the process" refers to whatever it is we have to go through on our journey to wholeness. Well, that's me. I should say, on our journey towards wherever we are headed or aiming towards or however you want to say it.... and now here come some pics from today in Jerome, AZ

Got some great pics today in Jerome!

And here I am.

One more because what a view!!

I do think those guys use the term process to be a bit more specific than to mean whatever any specific client does.

Some may, of course. I know that my t is quite fond of saying "It's all a part of your process." She doesn't say the. I guess that's how come I feel the way I do about it....

Hi, Art!

The woman has told me several times that she has never "seen someone fight the process" like she thinks I do.
She refuses to explain what "the process" means. I see others to get definitions.

Kinda cool y'all. I posted a pic of myself that's fairly close-up without even thinking about how I look, and I look at it now, and think, yeah maybe I'm bigger than I should be but I'm out there hiking and living life and I look happy and that's all I see. Dang, is that progress or what?! I feel kinda proud of that as a matter of fact.

I believe women are allowed to take up space in the world.

And thats why you end up with different kindsa cheeses... some get smoked, some sit in caves for a while, some soak in wine, some are hung out to dry, etc etc etc! Is it their environment, or who their mammy or nanny was?

Eta - dude you gotta be pretty fit to be hiking all up in that! In AZ!

"And how does that make you feel?"

(just playing. I couldn't resist.)

(all i wanted to do was grin but it was too short)

My t and I collaborate on the cheese-making.