Changing 'The story'

I applied to the court where my adoption took place. I told T I had and we talked about what I might find out. T said it might just be more of the same of what I already know.
I received the paper work this week
Growing up my adoptive mother always told me my birth mother laughed as she handed me over to the person who arranged the adoption.
T was right, it was much the same of what I already knew. BUT there was another piece of paper that had a small section on anything my birth mother had to say about the adoption, and it states my birth mother was very pleased I was going to live with my half brother (my adoptive parents got him 2yrs earlier ).
I emailed T telling her she was right about it not having much more info than what I already knew, but the image of my birth mother saying she was very pleased I was going to be with my brother is much better than the "she laughed" image I grew up with.
T said, yes it is a much better image and that alone was worth the effort of applying for papers. That it shows she was thinking about me.
Unfortunately because of my adoptive mothers pyschotic parenting, me and my brother haven't seen each other in 12yrs.
But over all its comforting to learn my birth mother wasn't such a monster.
I think my adoptive mother was so insecure, she couldn't let me have that comfort.
Of well.

It is incomprehensible how your adoptive mother could have told you the laughing story.

Wow. Mr Holmes couldnt have done better himself. I think thats what we do in t. Untangle the story. From our childish understanding of our parents tales to what is our truth.

Very well said, hankster. Untangling the story. I like that.

Mouse, this is a lot to process and you're really brave. I'm trying to build strength for sleuthing within my family and "the law", so I can appreciate what this took on your part. I hope your T is providing the support and respect you need.

I'm not brave. Just driven to become the author of MY life.

I did that during therapy too, pulled police records of the abuse investigation that resulted in losing most of my family. It was painful, but empowering and I learned a little something positive too actually, so I think I can relate. I'm sorry for all the underlying pain but kudos to you for pursuing the truth.

If I adopted a child, even if the mother actually did laugh while handing over the child, I would not tell the child about that. It's hardly the imagine you need seared into your mind for the rest of your life.

My adoptive mother had issues.
Infact, I think I'll get that printed on a T-shirt lol

That was awful of your adoptive mother to say that.

I'm glad she wasn't laughing, just happy you would be going to your half brother.