[AnxietyMaster]

Hello all.

I went to my t recently to talk about my anxiety. We were talking about it, and she asks me what I worry about. Of course I worry about all kinds of crazy things, such as someone taking my dog while I am walking him, or someone murdering me in my sleep, but usually my mind is blank. I don't hear the "voice in your head" talking all the time, only when I want it to. Mostly it feels like I am carrying a huge sack of worry on my back that dosent go away. It's like it interferes with my life without being a direct fear? Does that make sense to anyone? It's like thoughts are popping up in my mind, but if you ignore them you don't think about them but they physical symptoms and emotion are still there? Well back to the point, I told her I do have direct fears often, but mostly it feels like a cloud or weight of anxiety following me around. She then continued to tell me that it sounds like someone out of a comercial or tv show. We then moved on. Should I bring this up again? Did I make the wrong choice in therapists?

Also just random secondary question. I have been sedated twice before, and everytime I hallucinate. Both times it was with versed. Will this be a good indication of how benzos will effect me? I was prescribed xanax as needed but I am too scared to take it for that reason and withdrawal. I read online you can have withdrawn after one dose? I was also reading online that sometimes people take more than they meant to because they black out and end up taking a bunch?

[CantExplain]

If you think T does not believe you, you are entitled to challenge her on that.

Eg: "I get the impression you don't believe me."

[LonesomeTonight]

Originally Posted by AnxietyMaster

Hello all.

I went to my t recently to talk about my anxiety. We were talking about it, and she asks me what I worry about. Of course I worry about all kinds of crazy things, such as someone taking my dog while I am walking him, or someone murdering me in my sleep, but usually my mind is blank. I don't hear the "voice in your head" talking all the time, only when I want it to. Mostly it feels like I am carrying a huge sack of worry on my back that dosent go away. It's like it interferes with my life without being a direct fear? Does that make sense to anyone? It's like thoughts are popping up in my mind, but if you ignore them you don't think about them but they physical symptoms and emotion are still there? Well back to the point, I told her I do have direct fears often, but mostly it feels like a cloud or weight of anxiety following me around. She then continued to tell me that it sounds like someone out of a comercial or tv show. We then moved on. Should I bring this up again? Did I make the wrong choice in therapists?

Also just random secondary question. I have been sedated twice before, and everytime I hallucinate. Both times it was with versed. Will this be a good indication of how benzos will effect me? I was prescribed xanax as needed but I am too scared to take it for that reason and withdrawal. I read online you can have withdrawn after one dose? I was also reading online that sometimes people take more than they meant to because they black out and end up taking a bunch?

The "huge sack of worry" sounds about like the definition of generalized anxiety disorder, which I have. It's weird that she said you sounded like a commercial. Yes, I could see that being imagery they'd put in a commercial for an anxiety med, but that's because it's something people could relate to. Where people always feel tense and anxious but maybe can't explain why.

I think you definitely need to revisit this with your T. Tell her how your comment made you feel and say that the wording is just how you think of the anxiety. That it's very real for you. Maybe describe some physical symptoms, too? Like where you feel the tension (for me it's my neck and head; others might feel it in their stomach, say). But definitely talk about it more.

As for the benzo question, I'd try posting that in the Psychiatric Medications forum.

[AnxietyMaster]

Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

The "huge sack of worry" sounds about like the definition of generalized anxiety disorder, which I have. It's weird that she said you sounded like a commercial. Yes, I could see that being imagery they'd put in a commercial for an anxiety med, but that's because it's something people could relate to. Where people always feel tense and anxious but maybe can't explain why.

I think you definitely need to revisit this with your T. Tell her how your comment made you feel and say that the wording is just how you think of the anxiety. That it's very real for you. Maybe describe some physical symptoms, too? Like where you feel the tension (for me it's my neck and head; others might feel it in their stomach, say). But definitely talk about it more.

As for the benzo question, I'd try posting that in the Psychiatric Medications forum.

I am going to see her soon, and I will have to talk to her about it. She already knows that I have an anxiety related bowel condition, as well as TMJ. I feel tension in my calves. I will tell her that it made me feel like she belittled a very large problem I am having. I will have to explain to her that it's something real for me and when she made that comment it made me feel like she didn't believe it was. Thank you all! I will have updates when I talk to her.

I am going to post my be zo question in the Psychiatric Medication section, which in admittedly spend a large amount of time in lol.

[WePow]

If it bothers you, bring it up. It can be difficult to do that, but it is one of the best therapy exercises to do. Be honest and the rest will fall into place.