[pmbm]

I go to therapy, have a really intense session, get lots of insight, and leave feeling pretty good, but drained. Then once I get home, I miss my therapist like crazy. I want to be back in her office tomorrow. But then, the week goes by, and come therapy day, I really don't care if I go to therapy, but I go anyway. And then the cycle starts again.ugh. I wish I could feel finished and okay the day I have therapy, and then start missing my therapist the day before therapy. Anybody else?

[CantExplain]

Therapy can be intense and in ways you may not have felt before.
The period between sessions was very hard for me to take.

[atisketatasket]

First couple days after therapy, I'm keyed up. Then I calm down. By the day of the next appointment, I kind of hope she'll call to cancel.

In a nutshell, I think what you're experiencing is normal.

[justdesserts]

This happens to me a lot. I write a lot between sessions to help process the emotions I'm feeling and to keep working on the things that came up doing therapy. Writing also helps me stay close to my therapist in my mind.

I think it's normal. Good luck

[iheartjacques]

Is that like going to the gym? Not really wanting to go even though it's good for you? For a long time I had bad anxiety beforehand because it felt like I was ripping off all the band aids holding me together. Now I only get anxiety when I know it's going to be a tough session.

[BayBrony]

I get the "missing my therapist like crazy" part...but I almost always want to go back unless we've had a misunderstanding quite recently

[growlycat]

I completely get this!! I don't really want to go the day before therapy. Once I see him I pine for him like a lost puppy. Not sure how to break the cycle!!

[pmbm]

I don't know how to break the cycle, growlycat. I. Just really glad that my sessions are only 2 or 5 days apart on the days I miss her like crazy. It's not even like she's warm and cuddly. I don't think I have maternal transference with her. I just wrote this because I'm puzzled by the feelings.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

I expect this has something to do with the relief, the heightened mood and lack of oppressive feelings you get when in the session. In real life I find that this intensity is not commonly come by, otherwise life would be rather strange.

I think you have to work on the issues in therapy between sessions trying to understand how the insights in therapy help you day-to-day. Likely this won't be entirely straightforward, but the areas you find hard to manage you can take along to the next session.

[AllHeart]

Originally Posted by pmbm

I go to therapy, have a really intense session, get lots of insight, and leave feeling pretty good, but drained. Then once I get home, I miss my therapist like crazy. I want to be back in her office tomorrow. But then, the week goes by, and come therapy day, I really don't care if I go to therapy, but I go anyway. And then the cycle starts again.ugh. I wish I could feel finished and okay the day I have therapy, and then start missing my therapist the day before therapy. Anybody else?

Yep! You are not alone in this crazy cycle!

[Chummy]

I'm going through the same circle. When I leave T, I can't wait to see her again and a week looks so long. But then it's the day before session and I don't want to go. And also on the day I really don't feel like going. I'm going anyway.
And after the session, it starts again.

[Cinnamon_Stick]

Originally Posted by Chummy

I'm going through the same circle. When I leave T, I can't wait to see her again and a week looks so long. But then it's the day before session and I don't want to go. And also on the day I really don't feel like going. I'm going anyway.

And after the session, it starts again.

Same thing happens to me. It drives me nuts because I feel like I am going nuts.

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[Soccer mom]

Interesting you wrote this because just last night I was thinking about this. I'm now in the phase of somewhat dreading my sessions because I know they won't be enough and the cycle will start again. I almost feel like it is more painful to go. Until I'm actually in there and then I'm glad I made myself. And, then 50 min later I'm down again.

I don't know what will help either. I think the feelings are just positive that I'm being heard, that someone wants to help, etc. I'm hoping as my issues get resolved, the feelings will lessen. And, they have over the past year but definitely not gone.

[AncientMelody]

Originally Posted by pmbm

I don't know how to break the cycle, growlycat. I. Just really glad that my sessions are only 2 or 5 days apart on the days I miss her like crazy. It's not even like she's warm and cuddly. I don't think I have maternal transference with her. I just wrote this because I'm puzzled by the feelings.

Sometimes it's important to sort out the feelings, other times I think it may be more helpful to just accept them for what they are. Therapy can be taxing, as you say you leave feeling drained. Maybe that's why you're kind of "meh" about going on therapy day. Unless it's interfering with your day to day life in between, I'm not sure that you NEED to "break the cycle". Missing people, looking forward to activities in your life, not looking forward to them. All of this is very normal.