I called my T. I said on the voicemail that I was calling because he told me that if leaving a message to help me to stop doing something stupid (SI), then it was definitely worth it. I said that I was scared as hell at starting my internship tomorrow, and didn't want to do anything stupid tonight, so I figured I'd call. I told him that technically, I am still pissed off at him (couldn't leave that part out, ha), but I've been having a really hard time and I think it was triggered off by Mother's Day. Told him that was all I wanted to say, and that he can call back if he wants, but if not, then that's fine too.

I wanted to make this worth it. I didn't want to hate myself for calling. So I promised myself that if I left a message, I wouldn't SI. So I'm not going to. I'm going to bed now.

Goodnight all.

I'm glad you called him instead of SI'ing!

You start tomorrow? I hope you have a wonderful first day and that you'll let us know how it goes! I know you're going to do very well. You just have it in you.

[withit]

Pink, now you'll be able to empathize with your own clients needs to call you....

Smart move on your part, to call your t, and I like the message you left him, and the deal you made with yourself is awesome! I can learn a thing or two from you! Seems you have a good supportive trusting relationship with t.

[lauren_helene]

Pink, I'm glad you left him a message. I'm proud of you!

[sunrise]

That sounds like a great deal. Call your T and no SI. Win-win! Great solution.

[SecretGarden]

Good luck to you today Pink.

Will you be pissed if your T does not call back? (Had to ask.)

WIll think of you today.

[sidony]

That's awesome!!! You are brave!

I hope your first day goes really well!

Sidony

[MissCharlotte]

PS,

What a great message...sounds like one I left recently.

Best of luck with your internship, your patients will be lucky to have you!

[Lemon]

Great job Pink! Good luck tomorrow.

Ok, so he called back. It was a gorgeous message. I had told him 'call back if you want, or don't.' He knows that I get weird with him calling back and the possiblity of me having to talk with him over the phone.

So I get my voicemail and he said....

I got your message. I wasn't sure whether it was the right thing to call you back, but I wanted to call you back. I wanted to let you know that I realize that this is a difficult situation; that starting the internship is scary... so I'm just calling, hoping that you're hanging in there, and that we'll talk about it on Friday.

I loved it because it was so human. He admitted that he didn't know whether or not it would be right to call back-- that he didn't know what I would want... but he chose to call. When he said "but I wanted to call you back" he placed emphasis on the word 'wanted.'

I must have listened to it twelve-thousand times.

I left him a message tonight telling him thank you. I told him that I was very triggered today at my internship while working in the mood disorders unit. (I didn't expect that reaction, and was fighting back tears-- so much emotion going on there... hitting so close to home, feeling their pain, coming to terms with the fact that only a couple of months ago, I went through a severe depressive episode that was enough to put me back where they are now, memories of my own hospital stay years ago, etc). I told him that I wanted to talk with him on Friday, and that I did not SI last night. And I thanked him again. And told him again just how much his message meant to me.

I can barely wait until Friday.

[sunrise]

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It was a gorgeous message.

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That's 'cause he's a gorgeous T. I can feel your love.

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I loved it because it was so human. He admitted that he didn't know whether or not it would be right to call back-- that he didn't know what I would want... but he chose to call. When he said "but I wanted to call you back" he placed emphasis on the word 'wanted.'

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Yes, it is a mutualistic relationship. What he feels and wants are important too. Are you sure he is not from the humanistic psychology tradition?[/clapclapclap]

Congrats on making it through your first day, pinksoil. Sounds tough but like you handled it well. You are going to make a great T!

haha... Yes, I will try to convince him that he is humanistic, rather than analytical.

Now I have listened to the message 234235723321217348 times.

what a great response from T!!

[sidony]

What a totally awesome message!!! I'm glad he called you back! I bet you'll have a great session tomorrow.

Sorry the internship is scary. It'll get easier once you're not so new there....

Sidony

[sunrise]

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Now I have listened to the message 234235723321217348 times.

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I think there is a secret message in that number and I am trying to figure it out. pinksoil, did you notice you did not use the numbers 6 & 9 even a single time?

OK, don't mind me. Just being weird.

OK, Sunny, that's it-- you think me and my T are getting all humanistic?? Well, guess what?? YOU ARE GETTING ALL ANALYTICAL ON ME!!! Hahaha, look at you, checking for the sexual Freudian meanings in my post.

[lauren_helene]

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So I get my voicemail and he said....

I got your message. I wasn't sure whether it was the right thing to call you back, but I wanted to call you back. I wanted to let you know that I realize that this is a difficult situation; that starting the internship is scary... so I'm just calling, hoping that you're hanging in there, and that we'll talk about it on Friday.

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Don't you just feel the love right now? I am so happy for you that he left you this very genuine message.

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I must have listened to it twelve-thousand times.

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I know what you mean. My T left me a message yesterday about our appointment. He said he hoped I was doing well and that he had me down for 11:30 (appt. was 12:15 though) and he laughed and said 'it isn't like you to not show up'...I've listed to it 10 times already. It was so sweet.