Starting to feel a connection...

Talked to Pdoc. She basically told me that it's my journey and it's up to me whether I stay with or quit my T. She did say that I need a T either way. She said that so long as my T isn't harming me, then I might want to stay and try to get as much as I can out of her. She said she's proud of me and that I'm making progress because I didn't simply run away from my T. She said that my goal is to learn interpersonal relationships skills and to not have such extreme reactions (i.e. SI, SUI, running away, etc). She said that because I still see the potential, some good in my T, it's a positive sign. But in the end, she told me the choice is mine because it's my life. She said that even though it's a big decision, either choice will not destroy my life.

So my decision is to stay with T for now. If there continues to be misunderstandings and ruptures, then it will probably end in termination. But for now, I can practice tolerance with T and trying to navigate a rocky relationship.

Still hoping she learns how to be more supportive. It would make a huge difference for me. But maybe she's just not capable?

Perhaps her idea of support is different than yours. Feeling supported is important, but it is not the basis of healing. If it was, I could just talk to a kind stranger and save hundreds of dollars in therapy fees each month.

Though it hurts that she mentioned a charge for calls over 15 minutes, is it really fair to use that time without paying for it? People forget that therapists are professionals. They are not doing it out of the goodness of their hearts. They care for us insofar as they can care for a fellow human being, but they would be doing us a disservice if they tried to meet all of our needs.

You may need more support than she can give, but that doesn't mean she doesn't care about you - it just means she wants to see you learn how to help yourself.

Nope. Not the case. Ty for your opinion.