Feeling extremely overwhelmed and not sure how to cope.

I'm not sure if I posted this in the right thread but I thought I would give it a try. I just turned 20 and for my entire life I've been the type of person who put homework, school, and studying above everything. I'm currently in a summer program to get ahead in college but for the past few days I've been feeling very overwhelmed. I have 2 weeks of school left, the last week being all of my exams, and this week I have 1 test. As soon as I was home alone, I just started crying and crying and crying. I just want to finish this semester and enjoy the 2 week break I get before starting again in the fall. I'm scared about the outcomes of the exams and I'm terrified of failing a course. My marks going into the exams are all 70+ so I have a pretty good cushion but I think I value grades more than my own life, as sad as that sounds.
Ive been seeing a therapist for a year now but she's been away for 2 weeks and I won't be seeing her for another 2 weeks. I just need some advice about dealing with this

Thank you!

There's no way formula. Who in your life reflected their own need to achieve. We learn these behaviours. It's isn't something that can just be switched off.

When I taught college I had a number of students like you. Often they weren't in any danger of failing - and it doesn't sound like you are - but they just couldn't get past thinking and worrying about their grades. So this is quite normal.

Can you sort of recalibrate your thinking? Did you enjoy your courses (for the material, not for the professor or fellow students)? Did you learn anything? What was it? Was there anything especially interesting or enjoyable in the courses that really attracted you? If any of the answers are yes, try to focus on that. Learning brings lifelong enjoyment; grades bring only stress and maybe a momentary victory. And if you did learn something that intrigued you, or deepened your knowledge of the world, does the grade really matter?

This does sound extremely overwhelming. It's understandable to get very anxious about grades and school and that can really build up. Maybe while studdying take breaks to do something like listening to music watching a favorite tv show or even try to take a nap something to calm your brain down. Posting here could also be helpful. I think this anxiety won't go away overnight and is something to discuss with your therapist when you get back to therapy.

I really enjoy my course and I just calculated my marks and the only possible way I would fail the course is if I got a 0% on all my exams. Which I highly doubt. Thanks!

I just turned 20 and for my entire life I've been the type of person who put homework, school, and studying above everything. Aw, bless. That is a good thing - I wish I had tried a bit harder. But when the exams are over you owe it to yourself to enjoy the break.

Thank you Just got to get through the next 5 days and I have a 25 day summer until my 2nd year starts!