[Soccer mom]

I can't believe it and I think I'm in somewhat denial that today is my last session. I'm taking off the afternoon so I can have some time to myself before and after my session.

I prayed Saturday night that God give me a clear sign that this is the right thing and another clear sign when I meet the right T. (or perhaps the one I met is it). Yesterday in Sunday school we watched a video that discussed how we get put in places and meet certain people for a reason. And, there are certain times that there is no way we would have been in those places or with those people without some sort of divine intervention. The man on the video then said "Most miracles don't happen on Main street. They happen off the beaten path about 20 miles out of town. If you want to experience a miracle, sometimes you have to go get it. You may need to go the extra mile." I immediately started crying. My current T. is on Main street. The one I met who is the complete opposite is on a farm 13 miles out of town in a remote part of the county. Perhaps this was my sign.

So, I'm trying to remind myself that this may be the best thing for me. It will hurt, I will grieve and then hopefully get better. I'm still not sure I'm going to stay in therapy. I think I need a break for a few months. I'm just tired of thinking about it and dealing with it.

Prayers and/or kind thoughts would be appreciated.

[Ellahmae]

Sending you hugs. I hope that it can go well for you and you can have a final peace of mind for yourself. Just wanted you to know I was thinking of you.

[taylor43]

Hug's I hope today goes as smooth as it is the last session. It will be hard, but you will make it. I am so glad you have a potiental new t, she sounds awsome.

[kennyc]

I'm unsure whether you are giving up on therapy or moving to a new therapist (in the country). In any case good luck and good wishes to you.

[unaluna]

Re main street - that would have made my hair stand on end! It kinda is now!!! Omg!! If thats not a message from god i dont know what is!!! Im an atheist and i would take that as a sign!!

Thinking of you! I've been where you are, and I know how painful this is.

My advice - let the suffering you've been through over the past year be your sign. Love yourself enough to know that you deserve to feel good on a daily basis, not in perpetual suffering/pining/longing. Therapy doesn't need to be that way.

Like I've said in prior posts about my own therapy - your 'worst', with respect to losing your T - did happen. The world didn't collapse and you are STILL HERE. What you're feeling now is as bad as it gets, and there's nowhere to go but up.

Hugs!

[JaneTennison1]

Thinking of you today. Don't panic on new T, no decision needs to be made yet. You can space sessions or not go or go as you like. You are in charge of it all. Your T did her worst and dumped you. End the best way you can and be kind to you.

[PinkFlamingo99]

Good luck. I prayed in church yesterday for healing from therapy and finally felt like maybe I can survive. Sometimes we hear things we need to hear just because we, in some small way, know that beyond the pain this is the right thing. You can do this and live through it.

Don't be afraid to leave early if it's too much.

[Cinnamon_Stick]

I am thinking of you today. I hope it goes well.

[Gavinandnikki]

Yep, I know the pain and I am thinking of you and hoping it goes as smoothly as possible and you walk out of there proud of your own strength.

You've put a lot of thought into this decision and I think you are making the best choice for you.

[LonesomeTonight]

Hugs! Thinking of you and hoping it goes in a way that seems right for you

I too have been thinking about you. I went through a very similar thing 7 months ago, so I know how painful it is, even if deep down you know it's for the best. There will be a period of grief; PC was an important source of support for me. So many of us here know what it's like to have painful attachment and/or transference with a T.
I hope today goes as well as it possibly can