Would you send this to your T?

I feel so sad. Too much crying. I don't want this to be the story of this pregnancy. I don't know what to do. My thoughts are so selfish and unrealistic and impossible - I feel like I just want to run away. Feel like I need some sort of circuit breaker. I watched a doco today and there was a scene where a family came together and supported each other during a crisis - it was so amazing - I'm not comparing. I'm not in a crisis - but when I have been, I haven't had that. And now I'm scared, this pregnancy is scary, the future with these babies is terrifying - but everyone's excited and I feel like I'm supposed to be too. I want them now but I'm still scared of them. Maybe I'm just hormonal. Solomon's been sick again this week and Jordan's gone camping. Maybe I just have a 'Perth hangover'? I don't know. Tell me what to do and I'll do it.

I've had friends with two or more babies. They had an emotional rollercoaster during pregnancy. Myself, I feel trapped and vulnerable when I'm pregnant, in between looking forward to my new baby.

Yeah, I would. Or bring it in and read it out. It's helpful information for your t to know.

Yes, send it.

sent - via text at 9 pm on friday night.... i bet shes regretting saying that i could call or text anytime.

Yes, send it. It reads as an honest, open, raw set of thoughts and feelings coming from a personal place. It's brave to send it, but also could be so rewarding. Think of all the understanding between you both when this is out on the table. Go for it. The best moments in therapy for me so far have been when I've been raw, open and honest, its difficult but feeling understood, and met in those moments is very encouraging.

I think you did the right thing by sending it. One of the emotionally toughest things I have ever been was having a child. It took a long time for me to 'settle in'.

I just got this back...

She's right. I've jumped on my anxiety train again

Hi. It's ok for you to feel how you feel. I think this is about us remembering what's going on for you. I think the sadness is an automatic learned response stemming from a sense of powerlessness, which is how it used to be. You are right to be concerned and thinking about how you will manage with twins...that's your anxiety alerting you to the dangers. The key here is that you are believed and you will have support. The Australian multiple birth association AMBA has an associated support network Casey & District Multiple Birth Association...have a look at that website. Let's explore all the thoughts running in your head and work out what is doable, and what is not! We have to plan for the arrival of the babies, and your fears are important for us to address and either dissipate or plan for. I did try to call you earlier. Remember everyone else is excited to come and see and have a cuddle and then leave again...it will be a lot of work for you...we have to plan how you will be supported. Remember, anxiety is fear of the unknown...let's take what we know, plan for the possibilities, and the unknown then becomes smaller....at the moment I think you are sitting in the fear...let's start thinking about options to address your concerns.

I had lots of anxiety during my pregnancy with my daughter (and she's an only!) and also postpartum. Hormones can do that. So I understand... I'm glad you showed your T and that she responded with something that sounds helpful and supportive!