[MissCharlotte]

Okay, okay, a little play on a previous post but.......

Yesterday we were talking bout feeling safe and how, when i fall apart, I can take myself to a safe place. We talked about different places i could take myself the first and favorite of mine is T's chair....yes he knows how I feel about the chair, I feel so safe when I am sitting in it.

So, this morning I was driving my son into town and feeling a little anxious. I had this fantasy of sitting and driving in T's comfy chair. Of course that would mean major reconstruction of my car as I don't think this big leather armchair would fit in my little Hyundai. I got hung up on the fantasy when I couldn't figure out how the seatbelt would be attached. Then I wouldn't be safe again.

Hmmm, what's next? Going to furniture stores to sit in leather chairs?

Oh My God, How neurotic have I become?............Yes, I need to use humor to make it all okay.

Sister, Only yesterday I told T that I realised last week that I hadn't noticed if the waste paper basket was still in our room. Then I bent forward and there it was LOL. It seems the waste basket was the safest anchor for me last week LOL, so if your going to furniture stores, you better expect to see me behind you LOL

[RACEKA]

That's a really good idea of taking yourself to T's chair when you need a safe place. I'm going to do that. I sit on a loveseat. That is the only place that I totally feel safe and comforted and I know nothing bad will happen to me there. If I have a panic attack he can handle it.

Thanks.

Find a pic of a big leather armchair to hang from the rearview mirror?

[MissCharlotte]

Check out my new avatar! We're on the same wavelength. I think I'll print it and cut it out for my keychain. OH, there's nothing like the feeling of safety, is there?

[Perna]

Hey, sister, get a miniature/doll house chair for your keychain! http://store.dollhousecollectables.com/livingroom1.html

I have an 1800s brass house key on my keychain; it lets me into my imaginary library/walled garden :-)

[MissCharlotte]

Ohhh Perna, they have a brown leather chair for $18.

Yippee. Thanks for the link.

[sunrise]

One of my daughters has a collectables chair collection, with chairs from every era and style. She has a leather armchair too. You would love that one, sister!

sister! I love your new avitar!

I saw it on another thread and it struck me what it was about so I had to come back here and say "Great job!!"



ECHOES

[SecretGarden]

I have to say that I got a smile out of that chair too. My pdoc used to use those chairs... except they were green. He got rid of them and the new chairs (years ago) are nice but not so cushy. It was funny how angry I got that he got rid of those chairs. He said people got too comfortable. Maybe one started snoozing in it . Sigh... Miss that old chair.

[MissCharlotte]

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He said people got too comfortable. Maybe one started snoozing in it .

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You know, that is my ultimate fantasy--to sleep in T's office, cozy on the couch with a blankie.



P.S. If he ever changes the chair, I'm done....

[sunrise]

I sometimes sleep in the waiting room. My T is often quite behind schedule so I often have enough time for a nice little snooze.

Sister, I think it's so cool that you have a point of reference in regards to your comfort... I don't really have anything like that, as far as his office bc we are in a different room every week. But for some reason, I always look for his earring. He has a really small hoop earring in his left ear. I almost make sure he's wearing it.

[MissCharlotte]

LoL Pink,

Earring, huh? Well, here's another. My T has an office in an office building. As I come off the elevator I walk down the hall and swing around the corner to his office. As I come around the corner, I hold my breath until I see his nameplate on the door. I get so nervous that someone else's name will be there! So, I really get the earring thing, LOL.

[SecretGarden]

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Sister, I think it's so cool that you have a point of reference in regards to your comfort... I don't really have anything like that, as far as his office bc we are in a different room every week. But for some reason, I always look for his earring. He has a really small hoop earring in his left ear. I almost make sure he's wearing it.

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You are in a different room every week???? That would kind of freak me... but maybe if you are used to it... I suppose as long as he has that earring... hold on to that.

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You are in a different room every week???? That would kind of freak me... but maybe if you are used to it... I suppose as long as he has that earring... hold on to that.

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Nah, it doesn't bother me. When I used to go on Tuesdays, I would pretty much be in the same room every week. Now that I go on Fridays, it tends to switch between two rooms. When I went on Saturday, it was a new room. That kinda freaked me out a bit because my chair was all the way to the left corner of the room, and his was kinda diagonally facing me, towards the right corner. I am used to being in a straight line with him, or somewhat diagonally to the right. It was opposite. Also, it was far. Farther than usual. Seemed like I was 85 feet away from him. It wasn't perceived space. The chairs really were farther away than usual in that room. Both my T and I are very soft speakers, and I felt like we should have had megaphones. I go to therapy in the middle of the city.... car horns, sirens, you name it...

[sunrise]

Pink, can't you just move the chairs closer to each other? That's a funny image of you and your T sitting there using megaphones to talk.

[MissCharlotte]

How about two cans with string attached

Since I love to write so much I have a fantasy of T & I each with a laptop, IMing each other in a live chat while we sit facing each other.

We could call is psychochat......

[SecretGarden]

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How about two cans with string attached

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Well that is a chucke...

Also I was wondering about the ole ...move the chairs closer thing. Makes sense. If you are feeling more distanced you can decide if you are wishing to be distanced... lol....

And Pink... I got to tell ya... I do not imagine you as being the quiet type-....

[sunrise]

I'm trying to think if I have any point of reference with my T like the chair or the earring. My T has a lot of stuff in his office, which is huge. Sometimes I notice stuff there I have never noticed before and will ask him about it, and he has said, no, that's been here all along. I did notice when he got new sculptures, and we spent a long time talking about their meaning. They form a healing circle, and I am part of that circle when I am there. I like that.

Rituals, such as sister's holding her breath: well, when I park outside in the lot, I try to park right next to T's car, if I happen to notice it there. I don't think it is there all the time and I don't look too hard for it, but if I see it, I will park next to it (unless lol some other wacky clients have already claimed the honor!). I actually don't even know if the car I think is his really does belong to him. I just think it is his because he has told me the make, model, and year of his car (but not the color or license plate number). So I can't be sure, plus it is a large parking lot that serves several buildings and the waterfront.

[MissCharlotte]

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I actually don't even know if the car I think is his really does belong to him

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This is hilarious. I guess which car is my T's also. I have based this on which cars I have seen in the parking lot on the weekend when I had an extra appt and there were very few cars in the lot. I also don't really know if it is his car or not. Maybe I will start parking next to it too, good idea! I once walked past his car and wanted to look in the window, but I was afraid he would see me from the office, and I would die of embarrassment........

[sunrise]

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Maybe I will start parking next to it too, good idea!

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The car I think belongs to my T is a dark grey and is always very dirty. I feel like taking my finger and writing a message in the dirt, maybe "sunny was here!" or perhaps more anonymously, just drawing a heart.

[SecretGarden]

what do you see inside it? :-) personal effects... lol

[sunrise]

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what do you see inside it? :-)

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I have never looked inside of it, just parked next to it.

[Lemon]

I thought I was the only one who tried to figure out which car was my T's. I think I know because of stuff she's said so I always look for it in the parking lot. I want to look inside to see if I can see anything about her outside T life, but I felt like that might be to stalkerish! Glad I'm not alone