Can't get through this vacation time...

Going an extra week without seeing T bc they're away for the holiday has been so difficult for me. Plus I'm off of work, so with all this free time I've been thinking about T a ton and how I wish I could talk about getting through these empty days and not going through it alone.

It's also difficult thinking about how T is spending their time. I feel more comfortable knowing that T is in their office doing work things.

AHHH I JUST WANT TO SCREAM.

I think I understand what you're going through. Me too, I find it easier when my T is at work, although I absolutely want her to enjoy her time away from work too. But it's difficult.

Could you try to come up with a challenge for yourself? Something to tell your T about when the vacation is over and something that can keep you busy... now that you have so much time on your hands?
I often start a 'project' when I have too much time and just know that I'll start to feel bad, miss my T, will start worrying, etc.
It can be something creative, something you've been wanting to do for a long time,...

Sometimes for me it also helps to start writing. Sometimes every day. Then maybe in the end I will send my writings to T, sometimes not. But a reflecting a bit can be helpful. Unless it makes you more sad of course...

I use to read books by 'Donald winnicott'. His voice in my mind, reminded me of T. It helped with the yearning

I'll scream with you because I know how you feel! I always have difficulties when my T is on vacation. I want her in the office where she belongs! Mine is going away with her new boyfriend (she's divorced) and I'm having an even harder time because of that.

What to do? Let your feelings out like you're doing here. I post a lot when I feel lonely. Then, find things to do that are distracting. Do you have family or friends to be with for Christmas? If not, visit people in nursing homes or hospitals, or somewhere they need you? Do you have any hobbies? Now's the time to jump in, since you're off from work. Novels you never had time to read? Emails to catch up on? New places to go to, like a museum? Just some ideas.

When will your T be back? Post more if it helps, or send me a PM. We can get through this together.

I could have written this. My T is on her Christmas break and I miss her. I keep thinking about her and how she is spending her time. It hurts to think about it. I also feel so much better when she is in her office. I am sorry you are struggling.

I also post on here a lot when I am lonely or needing to not think about certain things. Do you have any hobbies you like? You could write your T a letter to give to her when you see her or just because. You could also journal your feelings. I find that as long as I stay really, really busy I don't think about her as much.