Couch 106 - the couch that must not be named

Found some peace in my life today by doing my meditation readings this morning. Guess I need to keep doing that... it just starts my day off right.

I have an MP3 I listen to that is specifically for first thing in the morning

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I've been thinking about granite lately too. If you're out there girl, I hope you're doing well.

I've made it into a habit every morning that when I pass through the gate at work, I start saying out loud what I am grateful for. Well, I admit I don't remember to do it every single day, but I do it often, and it makes me feel good... you guys are often among the things I list. On any given day my list might include the blue sky, all the trees on our campus at work, you guys, t, my son, my friends, my health.... it changes around a lot.

Funny you should mention gratitude Art. My CBT T has given me a technique to make it through many crappy days at work. If something positive happens, write it down! Try to capture at least 3 things per day. Even if it was a friendly chat at the coffee machine or my boss was less of an *** than yesterday. It does seem to help my mood!

I like that growly, I think I'm going to do that tomorrow!

The snow we had has almost all melted but the dog walk was treacherous because there are unexpected icy patches.

I enjoy looking at the snow on the tops of the mountains surrounding my city from afar.

What is the best way to get rid of the snowballs that form between a dog's toes? Just let them melt? Not that I'm in blizzardville by any means just curious

if you all really knew how much sweet tea i drank in a day and dont even get me started on how much i spend at teavana . in fact thats what i got for christmas. gift cards to teavana . i use to have a retirement but now i just have tea

im around was away for the weekend working at a scrapbooking thing . i have been doing a lot of work in therapy and it is so hard. i have tried to write about it here a lot but am finding it hard to do . but you guys are so nice to be thinking of me .know i am thinking of you all also . going to catch up with the going ons

I really liked this blog post on gratitude - http://wp.me/p6iGyk-5x
Basically, it talks about practiced gratitude, spontaneous gratitude and coerced gratitude.

So nervous about tomorrow. Gotta make an appointment with a bankruptcy lawyer. Hopefully file quickly. We'll see.

Anyway, I cant sleep! Ugh! I need sleep but luck!

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I am so not pleased with my T today. Today we looked at a photo of me, my brother and my Grandmother on what I am told is a day where our biological parents were taking us for the weekend. We were not looking happy and my grandmother has hold of the hood of parka(anorak??) stopping me from running away. (This is a common motif in the photos me being held still)
Anyway i was talking about the photo and I started crying and then paniced and tried to give the photo back to my T but he just sat there looking at me for seemed like hours while i was siletly begging him to take the photo but he let me sit with it it was awful. My mind was a mess and couldn't focus and I don't understand why he let me sit there for so long without intervening. He said the way to get rid of panic was to face the thing that made us panic. Running away just gives more power to the thing we fear. I suppose he was right but I was really distressed. I told him it was too much but he said it was almost too much or something. I kept dissociating so we did grounding things. I may not be remembering this right.

This is my fav Eagles song. I really love Randy Meisner voice.


Just because I haven't posted it in a while James - Five-0

cool whip! Just want to know I am not alone here. Feeling small and scared.

not alone (for the moment, anyway)

Thanks argo. I feel better now. Funny how just having someone acknowledge you is comforting. Some extra hugs if you are ever in need of them.

No problem. I know what you mean, it's like a twist on that old philosophical chestnut;

If a person posts on a forum, but nobody's there to read it, does it...take up data?

I'm so sorry. It's very early here.

That made me laugh. I really needed that thanks.

I'm here too, logged in to give you a from the UK ( if you want them)
Hang on in there. This too shall pass.

Ahahaha. Glad to be of service. Sorry about your recent experience at T's office. Sounds pretty emotionally heavy. You doing ok, now?

I think I'm ok It usually takes a couple of days to process and then I a huge T fallout.

Oh thanks for logging in. At the moment I will take all the hugs I can, because next week I might go back to prickly,

Yeah, I've been there! Well, you take care of yourself, now.

I'm off to try and get some sleep.

Sleep well Argo.