[sidony]

So I called my T about noon hoping I could see him today. His voice mail says he's out all day. Damn damn damn.

I rarely have a crisis, but naturally one happens on a day when he's unreachable. Hopefully I can see him Monday.

So now for the Crisis Announcement: This morning I lost my job. My entire department (3 people) was laid off. I've been there over 7 years. I derive a huge amount of my self-esteem from my job (or did).

I know I can find another job eventually, but damn. I sure didn't want to be on the job market again. And naturally I worry about what I'll do if I have trouble finding work (especially given that I may want to see my therapist MORE often for a while, but I'll figure out how to pay for that).

On the plus side, I'm no longer anxious about group therapy given that I'll probably just ditch it (can't afford to do it too, plus I'd rather wait until my life is in order to figure out how to deal with a group).

WAH!!!!

Okay, do I get the prize for worst day?

Sidony

((((( sidony ))))

That is a huge crisis. Like there is no ground under your feet suddenly. I'm so sorry this has happened.

I have been through it several times. It's such a shock!!

I hope this turns into an opportunity, that you find a job you like even better than this one.

[MissCharlotte]

Okay (((Sidony))),

Yes, you have had the most awful day.

Wow, that news really sucks. Lucky you can ditch group now, though....

I am on the job market as well. It's a jungle out there. Stay the course...it's so hard not letting the experience define you so beware and take gentle care.



(...Sorry if original un-edited version was in poor taste, I didn't intend it to be but noticed it in retrospect... I know this is an awful experience...)

[SecretGarden]

Well yes that is suckaroonie..... I am sorry.

That would blow me away. (((Sidony)))

Oh, Sid... I am so, so sorry. Did you leave a message for your T? Perhaps if you leave him a message telling him you are having a crisis, he will call you once he checks his voicemail?

I am here for you, so please feel free to unload, either on the thread, or you can PM me.

[SecretGarden]

It is nice to see the silver lining of that cloud of being able to ditch group... but your T may ask you to stay...lol..

Could give you something to talk about...

I jest a bit but truly I am sorry.....

[sidony]

Thanks all!

Pinksoil: Yeah I left T a voice message that I was having a crisis. I didn't specify what it was but said I'd like to see him Monday instead of (or possibly in addition to) my usual Tuesday. So maybe he'll call me over the weekend if he gets his messages. I think he said he was out of town though, so dunno when he'll be back.

Regardless of what happens with my employment, I intend to stay in therapy!!!!

I did get a good severance package and will actually be paid for much of the summer. But that doesn't stop this from sucking, and I've REALLY got to find another job (I'm a single-income household so can't afford to be unemployed long!)

Damn, if I'd gone to therapy today T might have gotten to see me cry for once. After all, I cried almost every time one of my co-workers came in my office to say goodbye. I imagine they're going to be somewhat demoralized too. I am working through next week, but naturally everyone wanted to talk to me today. I'm glad they did though. It'd be worse if they avoided me.

I'm glad it was the whole department and not just me personally. Though I do feel bad saying that because it's not like I want other people to lose their jobs too. Actually I feel REALLY bad saying it but oh well. If I'd been singled out I would have just died. But our department's job is being eliminated and then outsourced.

I'm going to an unhappy happy-hour in a little while. At least I'll have some friends to cheer me up. Or at least buy me beer.

I'll survive. Thanks for the support! I fear I may be asking for it quite a lot for a while. :-(

Sidony

[sidony]

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SecretGarden said:
It is nice to see the silver lining of that cloud of being able to ditch group... but your T may ask you to stay...lol..

Could give you something to talk about...

I jest a bit but truly I am sorry.....

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Oh yeah, he'll probably ask me to stay. In fact, he originally offered to put me in group therapy without billing me for it (though I chose to pay him instead and I was always paying for individual). So it's harder to weasel out since I KNOW he'll probably try to get me to stay. But I can argue that I'd feel bad not paying him (which is true) and that I'd like to have my life in order before trying to deal with emotional issues (also true).

Will see what happens with that. It should make for a good argument and likely distract me for a while.

Sidony

[sidony]

I have to say it: I can feel my self-esteem plummeting right now. Part of me feeling worthwhile is my having a job that I feel good about. And this was a great place. I had planned to stay here until retirement as it was everything I wanted in a job.

[sidony]

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Okay (((Sidony))), here's your prize. You definitely earned it!



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Thank you very much! I will toss it aloft as I toss back my beer at the Unhappy HappyHour in an hour......



Sid

[MissCharlotte]

Ahhhh, Sidony,

I just edited that out...thinking you would be hurt by it...

so glad you took it as intended...

Toss one back for me!!!!!!!!!!

((((((hugs)))))))

[sidony]

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sister said:
Ahhhh, Sidony,

I just edited that out...thinking you would be hurt by it...

so glad you took it as intended...

Toss one back for me!!!!!!!!!!

((((((hugs)))))))

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Glad I grabbed it while it was there!!! Nah I can always joke about things. It's one of my advantages.

I'll probably end up laughing at happy hour oddly. Sometimes if I'm really down I get kind of crazy. And I'll probably have more than my fair share of beer tonight (and next week too). I guess I get to be bad for a while.

Not sure why they wanted us to stay for another week as I'm clearly not doing any work....

Sidony

[sidony]

And P.S. Sorry to hear you're on the job market as well. Looking for work sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I haven't even started yet!!!

[SecretGarden]

I remember him offering to not charge you.

Good luck with that...

I hope he calls you pronto.... I am sorry.

We will be here so do keep talking and we will keep listening and gab back.

Enjoy happy (?) hour.

[sidony]

Okay off I go to happy hour. Tryin' to think positive here. I'll be on again later tonight or in the morning. Thanks everyone for the support! It's wonderful to have this!

Sidony

[sunrise]

I'm sorry about the loss of your job, sidony. That totally sucks! And right out of the blue like that. What a shock.

I think I remember you saying once you are a graphic designer? Maybe you can keep in touch with your employer and do so contract work for them since they are outsourcing.

Hang in there. Hope you had fun at happy hour. Hope you hear from your T. (((hugs)))

sunny

[sidony]

Thanks sunrise.

Yes I'm a graphic designer (work in both print and Web). I'm sure there are jobs in my field, but I sure dread looking for one again. I don't even know where my old resume is to start updating it. I'd been at this job for 7 and a half years.

Okay this paragraph isn't therapy-related at all: I have to wonder about the people left behind at my job. I mean, I know it's not my problem, but with the entire publications department being eliminated I really don't know what they'll do. We put out lots of print material, I ran multiple websites as well as weekly email marketing. None of this stuff can be done by someone who doesn't work in design, and I'm not even sure how they'll outsource it without knowing what files to send out. I have to wonder what will happen to them as I loved all my old co-workers (the decision to eliminate my department came from the new CEO who was just hired in January). I guess that's their problem! I don't imagine morale will be very high there.

And now back to therapy.... I'm worrying that if I find a new job I won't be able to schedule therapy which I always went to over lunch. Harder to manage that sort of thing at a brand new job, but hopefully I can figure something out. I'm not even sure I'd take a job where I couldn't manage to see my therapist! I haven't heard back from him (I know he's out of town -- I can't believe my rotten luck today!), but maybe I'll get to see him on Monday. I hope he has an opening. I'm supposed to go to group on Monday night. I'd go back and tell them I was quitting, but I'd hate to say that before I'd even told T.

Actually I don't know really what will happen with group. Maybe he'll try to get me to stay on. I don't know what I'll do. I'm not up for fighting about it, but I'm also not up for trying to interact with a group (say what I feel, etc.). I'm not up for anything.

Sidony

[lauren_helene]

Sidony I'm so sorry. I just came off of not having a job for the past month. It did give me time to think, I'll say that much.

You'll find something but I understand not wanting to deal with that on top of everything else.

hugs to you!