[lighthouse95]

I've been in therapy for awhile now. We've been working through some trauma things stemming from my childhood. Recently I feel like I've hit a barrier with trusting T, when I have no reason not to trust her. It hit me the other day that it's because the people I have told about my past have thrown it back in my face, like it's my fault. Though those people are not in my life anymore. I can't help but feel like it's the biggest obstacle right now. Has anyone ever dealt with something like this and know how to move through it? Or something similar? I have finally gotten to the place to deal with my past only to have this road block come up.
Thank you!

[Gazelle98]

Are you able to tell your t that you having difficulty trusting her? Sometimes I find it helps to talk about the barrier rather than the things behind the barrier at first.

[RedSun]

Yes, I agree with Gazelle, it might be a good place to start. Sometimes I've started at the end (if that makes sense) and then when I go back the actual issue has been a bit...deflated? So it might be a good plan just to say to your T, that you are having trouble trusting her, and see where it takes you!

I also agree about letting your therapist know.

I tend to bottle my feelings up, and wait till I've hit the boiling point to disclose. It's not very helpful to my therapy, and my passive (then explosive) reactions add a lot of strain to my relationship with my therapist. Not very conducive to getting work done!

Plus, she may be able to sense distrust, and giving words to it might help break it down.