T ams I discussed a few weeks ago why I won't let therapy help me in one area of my life.
This weekend I say on the edge of my bed - forced my medical complication due to this area in my life - and asked myself why????

The only answer I came up with is that T isn't for ever. Why would I put all my eggs in one basket so to speak.

I blurted this out to T today. Asked her why therapy/her doesn't feel enough as it is. I feel I need more.

T said, "I think it's because you experienced such extern deprivation that they feeling of not being enough comes from a very young place. Add to that, you were made to believe you were getting enough, you were lied to ams I think you lost the abilty to trust/believe or even know what is enough.

This was one of those door knobs moments. I left it to near the end. I hope to continue Thursday.

[MobiusPsyche]

I feel similarly, so needy with respect to my T, and like it's a cup that will never be filled no matter how much is poured into it.

In my case, I got the message as a very young child that my needs for attention and love and comforting were wrong. My three older siblings didn't need that much comforting, so there must be something wrong with me.

(I do have an extremely sensitive temperament, but I got the message that was wrong and bad when really, according to my T, it's just different.)

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[junkDNA]

I have the same feelings and have expressed them to my therapist. It's embarrassing to admit to him how much I feel I need him even after almost 6 yrs of working together. I think he gets it though. And more importantly, handles it gently and doesn't judge me for it.

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[Piickles]

This resonates so much with me.

The thing is with this type of conversation. T is open and willing. But I'm all tied up in knots

[Elkino]

Originally Posted by _Mouse

T ams I discussed a few weeks ago why I won't let therapy help me in one area of my life.
This weekend I say on the edge of my bed - forced my medical complication due to this area in my life - and asked myself why????

The only answer I came up with is that T isn't for ever. Why would I put all my eggs in one basket so to speak.

I blurted this out to T today. Asked her why therapy/her doesn't feel enough as it is. I feel I need more.

T said, "I think it's because you experienced such extern deprivation that they feeling of not being enough comes from a very young place. Add to that, you were made to believe you were getting enough, you were lied to ams I think you lost the abilty to trust/believe or even know what is enough.

This was one of those door knobs moments. I left it to near the end. I hope to continue Thursday.

I'm a bit confused. What do you mean by 'not enough'? Because you also say that you seem to put all your eggs in one basket, right?
That made me think you feel as if your T is everything to you, maybe even too much. Or at least more than you seem to want her to be. But then again it's not enough?

I do think I get what your T is saying about the deprivation though. It's very hard when, as a child, we haven't had the 'right' experience of what is enough and/or good enough.

Feels like something very valuable and worth working with in your therapy

I won't put all my eggs in one basket because I don't feel T is enough. That one day she'll be gone and I'll be left.

Originally Posted by _Mouse

I won't put all my eggs in one basket because I don't feel T is enough. That one day she'll be gone and I'll be left.

Hopefully, you and she will soon get to a place that she will be a fountain that dwells within you.