How can I open up to T once and for all?

Mine often encourages me to email. I go back and forth between understanding that I am able to share better in writing, and trying very hard not to be "annoying and clingy". I dont think my t sees me that way at all, but I hate to see myself doing something that I think is annoying. I always think I am not at the right level of "need" to email. Apparently I need to be half-dead with desperation before my mind will say it ok. Even when T has said it is a good idea for me to email. I just force myself to do it anyway, as the benefit outweighs the annoying feelings.

This is exactly how I feel !! My T has even said if it helps, then do it. It does help because then we both speak about it in session which is beneficial. I still havent sent the email but I might tonight. Hopefully it goes well.

Okay so I have the email all written out and ready to send. Now I just need some encouragement on how to send it and get it over with

Update:

I just sent the email. I sort of feel numb, like really scared but well see what happens.

Hopefully it turns out fine.

Good for you. I have my fingers crossed for you and I hope you feel OK while you wait for your T to respond.

You did the right thing. I know how hard it was

When you go to session, TALK!!!!

It was really tough. I feel like I shouldnt have done it or that I regret opening up this much ! I guess ill just have to see what happens.

I don't know if there is a "once and for all" in therapy. It's a tangled path.

That is very true !